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(The words  which are written in bold , it is nandini diary)

Tomorrow is my first day of college , no excitement , no hopes , no expectations , no happiness , there was only one thing that is fear. Fear of meeting new people , how will they treat me. And the sad thing is that diary , manik also study in that same college. I really don't want to meet him, he became famous in small age and he deserve a far better girl than me , I am ugly , i am not anymore beautiful , I am worthless. Life is very uncertain , Few years back i was so excited to meet him and today i am fearing to meet him. I can't face him , i don't want to meet him.

Manik read the diary and lost in the memory of their first meet , it was a love at first for him , he got amazed seeing her beauty but he spoiled everything and he was regretting for it today. He wanted to change everything which had happened that day.

Flashback

Nandini entered in college , her body was fully covered as she decided to hide her marks. Everybody were staring at her because of her dressing sense as She was wearing gloves , scarfs. Nandini was in habit of this but still she felt hurt deep inside her heart.

Manik with his friends also looked at her and they started cracking jokes on her. While manik was just busy in staring at her. He was only looking at  her beautiful face and her beautiful eyes and pouty lips , her small nose . Everything he found  beautiful about her face but one thing he found weird that  she  had covered up body.

Fab 5 entered in class , the students were discussing about nandini only but as soon as fab5  entered in class , everybody became silent and wished them as they were the boss of class. Manik saw Nandini was sitting , she was sitting  as like she was physically present  there but her mind was somewhere else.

"Hey you new girl , didn't anyone tell you we are the boss of this class and you all have to greet us whenever we entered in class "mukti said and nandini was looking at her blankly. Manik was still looking at nandini without blinking his eyes.

"Now you will be punished , right manik " alia asked from manik and he came out from his own world and looked at alia and just nodded to her words.

"Her punishment is that she will be our slave for a week "Cabir said while going toward her and her reaction made them shocked as she didn't spoke anything , just again looked down and got busy in her books.

Fab 5 sat on their seat and started thinking that what task they will give to nandini. Manik was secretly looking at her , her attitude and her behaviour making him crazy , why she is like this. He wanted to listen her voice. He was going crazy.

"Guyz we haven't taken her introduction yet , i think first we should ask her to introduce herself "manik said as he was dying to hear her voice and they all looked at him shockingly.

"Manik here we are deciding about her tasks and you want to take her introduction "abhi said and manik without giving any reply to them , he got up and went toward her.

"Introduce yourself to us "manik said while snatching the book which she was reading , nandini looked at him with her blank eyes.

"I am Nandini Kapoor and i come here for studying only "nandini said while looking at him. And finally he got relief after listening her words. While fab 4 were just staring at them and thinking wrong that manik  was upto something but after  giving  her book back , he came back to his seat.

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"Nandini our slave , bring water for us " Alia said and nandini without saying anything left to bring water for them.

"Nandini , we are 5 , you brought only one water bottle , this is wrong , now u have to again go back and bring 4 more bottle for us " cabir said while other laugh. Nandini again went outside without saying anything.

Like this , one by one they send her outside 4 time and they were getting restless why she was not saying anything. She was doing whatever​ they were saying. Now it was manik turn to send her back. Nandini was breathing heavily after the 4th round but still she didn't speak a word. Everybody were looking at manik .

"Now throw this bottles and food in dustbin"manik said and nandini without saying anything start picking the things which she had brought. While fab4 were looking at him as why he had given her so easy task as the dustbin was outside of room only.

"Guyz stop giving me looks , i have given her this task because i want to show her place , that we can't even  eat food brought by her as food has became dirty after getting touched by her dirty hands " manik said these words to save his bloody monster reputation but in reality he gave nandini this task as he didn't want that she should go canteen back which was on 1st floor and their classroom was on 4th floor.

Flashback over

As i have expected , happened on my first day of college. I thought i was only unlucky in choosing friends but today i also got to know i am unlucky in choosing my crush also , that is manik. I know i don't deserve him but he and his all friends have treated me like a shit between i use to this. I never speak for myself but still it's hurt me alot. Listening the words from his mouth that i am dirty , it's hurt me alot , but i will not cry , it is my life , i have to accept it wholeheartedly. I am dirty , i have to accept this . I will also see how much more pain , humiliation , life can show me.

"No nandini , you was not dirty , i just said those words because i don't want to show my feeling toward you to anyone , i am sorry for hurting you on the very first day we had met ,  i was not aware about the word love , i was a monster and you came like a angel in my life , you was never ugly nandini for me , you was pure beautiful soul for me always. "manik started crying loudly and he was regretting for what ever he did and he wanted to change the past. He was feeling like he was also  one  person who was reason of her  today's condition , who made her feel that she was worthless and dirty.

Nandini moved in sleep after getting disturb from her cries , manik seeing this he palmed his mouth and cried more caressing her forehead with his other hand. He was feeling sorry for being monster. But then also he decided to face the reality and started reading more.

Today also same thing happened with me , everybody were making fun of me because of my dressing sense and fab5 made me clean the toilet. I still stay quite and completed the task as i deserve this life only. I born to clean the bathroom only what they all have said to me. I really hate them specially manik. All boys are same.

Hey dear diary , i was busy with my life these days in assignment and even fab5 assignment too so couldn't able to share anything. Now it's been a month in this college. Everybody make fun of me and i really don't care but still it is hurting me alot , the think  which is hurting me the most that  is manik's behaviour , he is a monster. The person whom you loved and that person only treated you like a shit , it's hurt same as like someone stab your heart with  knife. He make me clean his shoes , one day he locked me in washroom , his friends make fun of my dressing and do whatever they want. Why world is so cruel , why can't people let me live peacefully. One side there is my disease and on the other hand i suffering from this humiliation from 3 year. First i was called as bitch and whore then i called as fungus bacteria and now i am calling as bhenji , old fashionable girl. No one is there to support me. I have to accept this life , i don't deserve happiness , i deserve only pain and humiliation.

Hey dear diary , now it's been a 4 month passed in that college and today manik had crossed all the limit , he tried to remove my scarf and today finally i reacted but after coming in washroom , he kissed me , i felt so disguise , monster was kissing me and finally i took out my all frustration on him and slapped him and  told him that what he is , a heartless monster. I came back home and immediately ran inside washroom and tried to remove his touch from my lips. I thought that  he is soft from his heart as i saw him secretly protecting me but today he proved me wrong , he is also same , a monster.

What i will do diary , he expelled me from college because i slapped him. He snatched my last dream also from me. I took admission in this college after a lot of hard work. Whenever i think what more painfull could happen with me and that time only life shows  me this is more painful  . I want to die , i can't bear more , i am not anymore strong to face the  cruelty of this world. The whole world is selfish but I can't even die also because my mom dad , who are suffering with me from these 3 year and how can i die living them alone. Why maddy , why you make me so weak , why manik , you snatched my all happiness from me. Why every single person want to see me in pain.  Today i only wished to die as Nothing left in my life. I don't want to live my life , i even don't want any happiness now.

Manik closed the diary , he was numb , he was feeling guilty , he was in extreme pain , after getting nandini , he forget that what he had done in past with her. He was also a reason of her pain like maddy. There was no difference left between maddy and manik. Both in different way broke her and snatch her happiness. His cries become louder , he was getting angry from himself , he wanted punish himself. He was crying reading her pain.

Nandini woke up after hearing her cries , she got shocked to see him in this condition. She immediately sat on bed and held him from behind. Inside , she knew it was all happening because he was reading her diary. That's why he was scaring to make him read his diary that's why she didn't want to share her pain with him.

"Manik shh.. , tell me what happened ?"she asked near to his ear , moving her one hand on his back trying to calm him down.

"I am sorry.. "he said in crying tone while turning his face toward nandini and he started crying , hiding his face in nandini's chest and nandini was shocked seeing him like this. She had never seen him like this before. She was numb to react.

1. So how do find the update ? I hope i am writing well

2. What do you think , manik deserved punishment ?

3. What do you , he can be able to come out of the guilt of hurting his angel.

4. What will nandini do now ?

5. Few word for monster manik

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