Emilia

Nightmares were always my enemies whenever I had them. They were like that battle I had to fight against, to win over. They played with my mind, making me think that they are real. Or that they happened. Or that they will happen.

Those nightmares always started the same, a loud sound. Whether it was gun shots, knife screeching against a tile floor, someone screaming, or glass breaking. And they also ended the same, someone dying. Whether it was me, a friend, a stranger, a lover, or a family member.

Sometimes those nightmares are memories of my parents death. Like when I got the call, or when I saw the accident happen on the news. When I was sobbing, and I was alone that night. Jenna wasn't there that time. Jeremy was out with his friends. Elena and my parents were in the accident.

I was scrolling through the tv until it landed on the news channel, before I got a call from the hospital. They knew there were two other kids in the family, Jeremy and I. I had ran to the hospital and they kept me out.

I remember hearing the zapping and the yelling from inside the hospital room. Three rooms. There were three rooms that had the same sound, the same loud beeping of the failing heart. My dad's room, my mom's room, and Elena's.

Expect Elena's room was different, there was a successful beating. And that made it better, but not so much.

All those moments, I saw them in my dreams. Expect I didn't see them from my eyes, I saw them from third person view. Like I was watching a show. A show that was about my life and how it shattered apart. Living that day was enough pain, but getting to see it over and over again, well that was torture.

Worst part is that I felt like someone was pressing the buttons of my nightmares. They controlled the pause, play, and replay buttons that had me crying. That person wanted me suffering, and it was my brain. My brain, my memories they didn't want to let it go.

Because you can't just let something like that go. It's like my brain has it scripted down and the episode gets repeated every once in a while, like a freaking tv show.

I always woke up with tears already washing my face, with Elena or Jenna by my side. But it was this time that no one was by my side. Jenna didn't know I was home, still thinking I was lost. Elena, Stefan, and Damon are downstairs talking to Bonnie about the plan.

I was still laying on the floor with the fluffy white blanket on me, expect this time it was night. The moon was shining at me through my window and my pained side was still painful.

I whimpered when I adjusted my position. My body was numb, exactly like how you sit on the floor and your butt gets numb, it was the same feeling. I hated it, it also messed with me as I rubbed my butt like a maniac, trying to ease the numbness away.

But this time my body was numb from the bloody wound I had on my side. Yes, it was bleeding. It was either Katherine's fist, or that damn tree I was thrown onto.

I wonder how it'd feel if I was human right now. I'd probably be having a hot bath that I still am craving. I felt filthy from both inside and outside. I also smelled like a freaking garbage bag beside a dumpster.

I wanted to watch tv and eat food. Human food, but Even though the starvation wasn't here now, I knew it'd be back to torture me. Part of me, didn't want to be back human because I knew something would happen.

I would turn back to normal as in shape, but not my personality. No body knew what happened that day when I poured the milk, or when I ran to the woods. They didn't know the things I was doing, and if they knew they would kick me back into the woods where I belong.

I pushed my thoughts aside and closed my eyes, begging for sleep to tale over me once again. But also hoping I wouldn't have another nightmare. I've lived and had enough already.

Please, let this be okay.

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"I can't believe it's actually you." Bonnie says, staring at me with a shocked face. "Bonnie get to work, and let's get this over with. I just want my sister back." Elena says, impatiently and I smile.

"Okay." Bonnie replies, opening the spell book. She knelled beside me and placed her hands on me, the book on her lap. "Okay, are you ready?" She asks and I nod, well not really but I give her a look.

The three others stand in front of me. Elena nervously tapping her foot, Damon crossing his arms with an impatient look, and Stefan with a concerned look.

Bonnie starts the spell by saying weird words. Out of nowhere, a gust of strong weeds hits and the leafs scatter everywhere, the tree moving. Suddenly, a sharp pain crack in me and I groan me but a strong force is keeping me in place.

My bones crack and I fall on the floor, not being able to move. A strong sharp pain caused me to screech as I feel the hairs on my body get pulled down and into my body. I feel my hair fall on my shoulders and my fingers back.

Everything stops and Bonnie's bare hands lift from on top of my bare back. She takes steps away from me and the cold breeze has me shivering. I lift my head and the four of them stand in front of me, expect Stefan is looking away awkwardly.

Elena smiles slightly and takes Damon's offered jacket. She runs to me and wraps the leather jacket around my shoulders. "I'm going to get the clothes." Stefan says awkwardly, walking to the car.

Elena hesitantly wraps her arms around me and I bury my head in her neck. "I never knew it was possible to miss someone terribly." She whispers, sniffing and I wrap my arms around her tightly. "I love you." I whisper, my eyes tearing.

Elena was my sister and I haden't seen her in three days. She was my twin, my other half. And without my other half, I'm no one. The emptiness inside me was filled again as we embraced each other. We were reunited and I would never think of ruining it once again.

Stefan returned back with the clothes just as Elena wiped the tears away from my face. "Turn around boys." Bonnie says, looking at Stefan and Damon as she turned around. The three of them had their backs facing us as Elena helped me into my clothes.

"What is that?" Elena asks before I had the chance to pull my shirt on. I looked down at my waist and there was a big blue, yellow, and red bruise on it. "Uh, I got hurt. Guess it still didn't heal." I lied, hoping she'll fall for it.

"Oh ok." She nods, but there is an uncertain look on her face, like she knows I'm lying. "Done." Elena announced and the three of them turned around. "Okay, princess, let's get home. You have a lot of explaining to do." Damon said as I pulled my shoes on.

"What do you guys wanna know anyways?" I asked, and god did I regret that. All four of them turned to me with gawked faces before Bonnie swatted my arm. "Okay, gee, forget I asked." I said, raising my hands in defense.

Elena rolled her eyes as we all piled up in Damon's car. Stefan, Elena, and Bonnie in the backseat while I sat in front with Damon driving. "So, how are you guys doing?" I ask.

"Emilia, explain. Now."

"Okay, I will. But first how are you guys?" I reply, trying to turn the subject from me. "Stop trying to change the subject and explain, Emilia." Elena says, crossing her arms. "Okay, okay. What do you guys wanna know?"

"Explain what happened that night. In detail." Damon says, looking at me sideways. "Long story." I reply. "Long road." Damn says, smirking and I groan. "Okay, fine." I sighed, turning in my seat to face all of them.

"I got out of the shower and went down to the kitchen because I was starving. I decided on cereal and when I poured milk, blood came out instead. I screamed and it was scary as hell. I ran out to the woods because this whole blood thing has been happening to me all day.

I mean, I found a dead body in my room and the blood was dripping all the way downstairs. I wasn't thinking that day and I went to the woods. I slept there with only my towel, forgetting that tomorrow was the full moon. When it was a full moon, I turned into a coyote. It was weird because last full moon wasn't like that.

I went crazy, killed a few men, and then went to sleep after I calmed down. This morning, I woke up and I was still a coyote. I was thirsty so I went to the pond to drink water. Then I roamed the woods a bit and I fell down a hill, hit my side by a passing tree.

I limped around the woods until I found Damon, and he and I had a little convo. He took me home, you guys came, I slept, woke up, slept, then here we are. The end."

The four of them stared at me with different emotions that I couldn't read. I didn't know if it was pity, anger, confusion, curiosity, or anything. It couldn't be read. I just awkwardly turned in my seat and faced the front, leaning against the window and staring out.

I know lying to them wasn't right, it didn't feel right. But I couldn't tell them that I turned into a psychopath murdered who lusts blood like a damn vampire. I didn't want to tell them yet. If I find a solution without their help, I'd do it and nobody would even know. But if I needed their help in solving the problem, I have to tell them.

"So, who's up for McDonalds?"

And just like that, I smiled brightly at Damon since he understood me so much.

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