I barely even slept that night. But when I finally passed out it was around 4:00 AM. By that time I was officially numb. I didn't have any feelings left to feel. At least for the rest of the night.

The next morning Jooheon woke me up again. As if nothing had even happened the night before. And that pissed me off.

I was done. I had already been pushed to my limit. And I'd already lost my best friend so what was left to lose? So I blew up.

I stood up and got right into his face.

"What the hell is wrong with you?!"

A confused look grew on his face.
"What are you talking about?"

"You know exactly what I'm talking about! Last night! I was standing right outside the door as you guys...well no. Actually Jooheon, it was just you, were being a jerk and trash talking me. Saying how much I annoy you, and how much you hate me.  Why would you say something like that?! You're so..so...so MEAN!" I screamed as I pushed him.

I didn't even care that Hyungwon and I.M. were watching.  At this point I just didn't give two shits about anything anymore.

"Oh come on Lee! You know I wasn't serious!"

I just rolled my eyes in response.

"I wasn't!  I was just annoyed at you because you made such a big deal out of everything last night."

That did seem like something he would do. Whenever he gets even slightly mad or annoyed he goes off on a tangent and just non-stop complains about whatever is bothering him. But then so many hours later he's totally over it and takes back everything he says.

"Okay. First of all, I had every right to be upset. And second of all, I don't care if you were having one of your meaningless little bitch fits. You still said it and it hurt my feelings."

With a big sigh he walked infront of me and looked straight into my eyes.

"I'm sorry for what I said. I didn't mean it. And I'm sorry about helping play you last night, but I still don't understand why its such a big deal?"

"Hmmm...let me think. Maybe I'm upset because I thought that that was my first real kiss. Not some dumb kiss from a dare. I thought it was actually real. So when I found out it was all a set up it really hurt okay?"

I walked back over to my bed and sat down as I stole a look at I.M. He looked so guilty and ashamed.

Okay. So the real reason was because I was falling in love with I.M. and then I found out his so called feelings were fake which hurt me alot...but I was not about to let Jooheon have the satisfaction of being right. And I was not about to admit this infront of I.M. either.

"I'm sorry." He said as he sat next to me.

"It's fine. I'm a big girl. I can handle it. And I'll get over it. But what I'm not over with is being mad at you. Don't think I'm going to forgive your crap so easily.  You need to start being held accountable for the crap you dish out."

He buried his face in his hands. "Well then what do I need to do to make you forgive me?"

I thought for a second, and it hit me.

"You need to tell the press that I am not the Monsta X Hoe. And that everything was just a setup for publicity."

He jumped to his feet as him and his friends grew horrified looks on their faces.

"Lee...I don't know if I can do that..."

"Well then I guess I'll never forgive you."

"C'mon be reasonable!"

I stood up and glared at him.

"I am. But if I was more sensible I'd never forgive you. So I am being more than reasonable. So if you want us to ever be friends again, you can figure something out...in the meantime...I'm going to go find Minhyuk."

At that, I strolled out of the room with my head held high and walked next door where I found Minhyuk... A bit more than I wanted to find...