My name? Doesn't matter

My nickname? Mono (short for monocle!) or Kai (my newww nickname I made up since I hate my real name)

But I do weird things when I'm doing shit

When I listen to music:
-jump in the bed
-scream
-make weird voices
-scream internally
-run across the halls screaming
-go towards the fridge and do a act
-go towards the front door and pretend someone broke up with me
-go outside and scream
-scream at my dog
-do an act in my head
-think of "good" story ideas and drawing ideas

When I'm on the phone:
-try avoid talking by shoving my fist in my mouth
-try putting stuff in my mouth
-lay on the stairs
-scream mentally
-laugh randomly
-randomly say 'bitch lasagna' and continue saying pewdiepie memes
-ignore the person completely and do my thang

I do weird stuff huh..

That's why I'm lonely..

Things I do when I'm bored:
-Scream
-yell at my dog
-skip weirdly
-dance horribly
-talk to my dog/cat like an insane person
-laugh at myself
-talk to myself
-talk to the fridge
-talk to the floor
-screams oppositely (somehow I scream while breathing in)
-make up characters (I made someone named Big Chainz, it's me!, my dad is Small Chainz and my dog is Baby Chainz)
-pretend to rap
-look if there is anything new/that magically appeared in the friedge

Things I do when I notice I'm lonely:
-curl into a ball
-cry
-cry
-cry
-cry
-oh my favorite author updated!
-cry
-notice I'll never be able to meet BTS
-Think about when BTS disbands
-cry
-sob
-wheeze
-hack
-choke
-cry and sob

Things to do when you notice you are lonely:
-taLk tO mE plEaSe aM LoneLy anD aM SeeVeN
-or not...
-I-it's Fine...
-I'll cry by myself..

Here's a fact! I'm 12..and there's people telling me 'go away from me I don't want you saying daddy shit' and I'm here being uncomfortable when anyone says 'oppa' or 'daddy' to BTS and i'm here smiling awkwardly thinking 'I'm twelve i can't think about this shit it makes me uncomfortable' but ya know hormones sometimes get the best of me-

YOU GOT THE BEST OF ME DUNUNUNUNUNUNUNUNUNUNHNUHNUHNUH!

I-I'll leave I'll cya later?

Bye..

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