june 3, 2021

SUGAYOONIE
i know it's been a long time and that you left me years ago
but i got a notif from you and i just can't leave it alone

SUGAYOONIE
you're fucking haunting me rn

SUGAYOONIE
you abandoned this account years ago, but you're back now

SUGAYOONIE
or maybe it's just my imagination

SUGAYOONIE
but why would my imagination do this to me?

SUGAYOONIE
it doesn't make sense

SUGAYOONIE
it's like fate plays cruel tricks on me

SUGAYOONIE
not wanting me to move on from you fully

SUGAYOONIE
and i hate it because i can't will myself to
because it's you, hoba, it's always you

SUGAYOONIE
i don't know why

SUGAYOONIE
everything leads me back to you and it fucking hurts

SUGAYOONIE
it hurts so much

SUGAYOONIE
why won't this pain end?

SUGAYOONIE
you're gone and i'm still here

SUGAYOONIE
you've probably moved on already

SUGAYOONIE
i'm sure you didn't like me enough anyways

SUGAYOONIE
i mean you left me at the altar

SUGAYOONIE
and my inaction to it, only hurts me more

SUGAYOONIE
because i thought there had been something wrong.
i could see it in your eyes, the way you began to distance yourself the days leading up.
and i thought nothing of it because well,
i was marrying the love of my life.
that ineffable happiness that i only felt with you,
it shadowed me,
lulled me into security
while you were on the verge of breaking me.

SUGAYOONIE
why didn't you say anything to me?

SUGAYOONIE
i don't think i'll understand without you telling me how to.

SUGAYOONIE
and you won't even speak to me

june 4, 2021

SUGAYOONIE
jimin told me it was a hallucination
that i saw you being active

SUGAYOONIE
i told him that i believed him because i didn't want to make him worry

SUGAYOONIE
jin's boyfriend and jimin's ongoing crush came to seoul just to comfort me

SUGAYOONIE
only person that didn't show up was jay and i can't say that didn't hurt me

SUGAYOONIE
honestly hoba, he reminds me so much of you

SUGAYOONIE
no matter if he's a fan acc of mine

SUGAYOONIE
he'd help me out late at night, no questions asked

SUGAYOONIE
or maybe it's that i finally found someone that i could start something with

SUGAYOONIE
have yet to figure it out

june 5, 2021

SUGAYOONIE
i have the worst luck in the world

SUGAYOONIE
jay's suddenly disappeared

SUGAYOONIE
the one person that i felt comfort in, he's gone too

SUGAYOONIE
why does this always happen to me

SUGAYOONIE
why can't you just come back

SUGAYOONIE
i hate it here so much

SUGAYOONIE
i've survived without you

SUGAYOONIE
i'm living without you ever moment of the day

SUGAYOONIE
yet, it feels like i'm not

SUGAYOONIE
like i'm just living life

SUGAYOONIE
i'm starting to believe jimin, when he told me that you didn't do anything

SUGAYOONIE
you haven't responded once

SUGAYOONIE
i should stop trying

SUGAYOONIE
you're obviously better off without me anyhow

june 10, 2021

SUGAYOONIE
fuck i need to stop doing this

SUGAYOONIE
why am i already addicted to texting you

SUGAYOONIE
you're not even here

SUGAYOONIE
can't believe that hope is still there

SUGAYOONIE
i hate this so much

SUGAYOONIE
i'm so helpless

SUGAYOONIE
weak

SUGAYOONIE
i should leave you alone

SUGAYOONIE
i'm sorry

SUGAYOONIE
that i wasn't enough for you

SUGAYOONIE
i could have been better to you

SUGAYOONIE
maybe you've found someone else now

SUGAYOONIE
i hope you didn't, but if you did then that's great :)

SUGAYOONIE
i'll always wish you the best

SUGAYOONIE
because even after all these years

SUGAYOONIE
i still love you

SUGAYOONIE
and i know i always will

SUGAYOONIE
i just want you back

SUGAYOONIE
i miss you so much

june 15, 2021

HOPESEOK
i'm sorry

a/n: made it through the flight safely (it was so full 😃😟) took a covid test, came negative ( need to take 2 more before i'm fully cleared hehe). i'm actually back at my university now, chilling in my dorm, hence why i was traveling yesterday.

wanted to update but my brain too tired to write coherent words for project heartbreak so i was like lemme do another update here. i'll updated ph later today and finish her completely 😼

uni starts again in 10 days and im just not ready for da semester to start yet 😔😔🙎🏻

my schedule looks pretty nice so hopefully i'll have time to write more (but once uni starts i'll have less time to 😟😟😟)

y'all are the sweetest ever, lemme give all y'all smooches MWUAH

also yes, this story takes place in da future. it was gonna be released in the future but i released it earlier so here we are now, using the future 😼👍🏻