Xavi's POV

Napa-ungol ako..

Sa sakit ng ulo na nararamdaman ko. I rub my forehead with my hand before slowly opening my eyes. I look around trying to recognize things. When I was able to fully open my eyes I look around my room.

I manage to sat up and just stare on the blank wall. I once again rub my forehead trying to ease the pain I'm feeling. But nothing happens. I turn at my bed side table and grab my phone looking at the time.

8am..

I remember I went home around 7:46 last night. Everything was clear to me. I was able to sober up last night for few minutes before I drive home. Na alala ko pa nga na nagsasayaw pa kami sa terrace nila Jake.

I stand up but I immediately hold to my swivel chair as I felt myself almost falling down.

"Tanggaris na ulo 'to." I cursed as I ruffle my hair.

Hindi naman ganoon kasakit pero feeling ko ay binabaak ang ulo ko. Not exaggerating but that's how I really feel.

I walk towards my table and grab my hair brush to fix my hair. I'm surprised that I still managed to take a half bath last night and sleep on my best state.

Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ganito kasakit ang ulo ko ngayon kung hindi naman ako gaano kalasing kagabi.

When I finish brushing my hair I went out my room and saw my mama ironing some clothes.

"Good morning.." Bati niya while facing her back at me.

I hum. "Morning," I short replied before passing by her and going down. I saw our dog waiting for me and papa watching the news.

"Morning," I greeted and my papa hummed.

When I reach the last step I saw papa look at me and laugh.

"Galing mo kagabi ah, nakapag drive ka pa pauwi. Akala namin ni mama mo susunduin na kita." He said and I just laugh before going to the dining table.

"Asus, magaling 'to oy. Sumayaw pa nga kami bago ako umuwi." I said and papa once again laughed.

"Kamusta naman kagabi? Ayos man? Masarap ang pagkain?" He ask, I grab a pandesal first before nodding.

"Ang dami ng pagkain. Busog kami ah." I replied.

"Ayos, edi ikaw pala ay busog sa pulutan at hindi sa alak?" Papa joked and I hear mama laugh from upstairs.

"May picture na sinend sa akin ang mama ni Jake. Ang dami niyong pulutan nila Tera at Addison sa lamesa ah." Mama said from upstairs.

I chuckled before taking another bite of pandesal.

"Si Ken ang may pakana nun. Akala ko dun lang kami sa baba. Maya-maya tinawag na kami pataas tapos ayun. Ang dami pa palang inumin ay pagkain dun." I said before standing up and making my own milk.

Yes milk, I love both coffee and milk. But if it's pandesal, I would rather drink milk with it. I would just drink coffee in the afternoon or while I eat dinner.

"Anong ininom niyo?" Papa ask.

I stir my milk and stare at him blankly.

"Inumin," Wala sa sarili kong sagot.

Napatawa si papa. "Hindi, anong klase. Anong tatak ng alak?" He asked.

"Sprite, Gin, tapos, Getorade." I replied and I saw how papa is so confused.

"Gin? Tapos may sprite, pwede ba 'yun?" He confusedly ask.

I took a sip of my milk and nod. "Yes, masarap. Try niyo minsan." I said before going back at the table and continue to eat.

While eating I'm looking at my messenger, looking if there are messages from my classmates or friends. I saw from our group chat for journalism that some teachers are already reminding us for the news updates. I internally cursed as I realized that I have no news yet.

"I'll work on that later." I said before taking the last bite of my pandesal.

While back reading the message from our group chat I saw Bri's message pop up on my screen.

A small smirk formed in my lips as I tap on his message.

From boi:
*peak*
Good morning..
Hey..
You up already?

Napatawa ako nang bahagya bago pinagpag ang kamay ko at nag type.

To boi:
Yup, I'm already eating.
Hbu?

He immediately seen it.

From boi:
I have, how was last night?

To boi:
It was fun

From boi:
Fun? 😏

My eyes widened as I realized what he just mean? Oh God. Umagang-umaga bakit ganito ang utak niya?

To boi:
Hey, not that kind of fun.
Ikaw ha, umagang-umaga

From boi:
Aight aight
Sorry

To boi:
Nah it's fine.
You busy today?

From boi:
Yeah
Sorry

To boi:
Tf?
No need to say sorry
I'll also be busy today-
Fuck

My eyes widened as I realized what day is it today. It's freaking Sunday and nawala sa isip ko that I need to go back to dorm today. It's Monday tomorrow and my classes!

From boi:
Why?!
What happened?!
Xavi!?

I shake my head as I heard my phone beeped three times. I read Bright's worried message and I immediately started typing a reply.

To boi:
Its nothing
Nawala lang sa isip ko na I need to go back to Tayabas.
I thought maka kapag review pa ako.

From boi:
Oh-
Okay, I thought may nangyari na sayo.
It's okay, you can still study at your dorm right?

To boi:
Yeah, tho we can talk while I'm at the bus. But since you're busy. I'll just sleep  while on the road.

From boi:
Don't sleep too much.
Bad guys are everywhere.

I chuckle as I find his message cute. He sounds like a toddler or a little kid. It's cute.

To boi:
Yes sir

From boi:
Sir?😏

I chuckled and sigh. Why the fuck is this guy like this? I'm not complaining tho. He have this duality that can be.. uh.. sexy? And cute at the same time.

To boi:
Ohh.. kinky.

Napahagalpak ako ng tawa. Gladly hindi na ako pinapakialaman ni papa. He's probably too focused on the news.

I just decided to ride on his mood. I'm not that kill joy. But if I'm not in the mood or I'm feeling innocent. I would scold him for being too.. unholy.

From boi:
Xavi, don't start.
I know you won't be able to finish it again.

I smirked, what if I.??

To boi:
What if I finish it this time?~

From boi:
Shit-
Xavi, just tell me if you want it now.

Napahagalpak ako ng tawa. I stand up  and bring my cup to the sink and type a reply.

To boi:
Nah I'm just kidding.
It's morning, lets stop with that conversation.

From boi:
Aight aight.
Oh-
I gtg
Bai bai

I feel a little disappointed cause I'm enjoying our conversation. But I realized I still need to pack up and fix my things cause I'll leave by 10am. And I also need to take a shower now.

To boi:
Okie
Bai bai

From boi:
I love you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

To boi:
Uno reverse card.

I sigh after I hit send. I go back upstairs and pick clothes for me to wear before taking a shower. After I took a bath I fix my things I'll bring with me before opening my notes.

By 9:30am mama called me for lunch. They know that I don't want leaving late. Cause travel from here to my school is usually just 3-4 hours. But if commute it will take 5-6 hours. And I don't want reaching the dorm late cause I have things to do.

By 10-11 hinatid na ako nila mama sa sakayan ng bus. I make myself comfortable and at 10:30am ay umalis na ang bus. Im listening to music the whole ride. I only slept for about 30 minutes and the rest is I'm up, imaging on a music video while listening to some dramatic song.

What a relief when I reach the dorm ag 2:40pm. I signed in to our log book before going upstairs to our dorm room. And when I entered our room I saw Arven at her bed.

"Oy, umuwi ka?" I ask and she shake her head.

Napakunot ang noo ko. "Kailangan ka huling umuwi?" I ask while walking towards her

"Ano pa, three weeks ago pa." She said and I slowly nod.

"Ano ginagawa mo?" Pag-uusisa ko while unpacking my things. I saw her writing something on a piece of yellow pad and it bothers me. Baka kasi may nakalimutan akong gawin dahil sa sarili ko rin na kapabayaan.

"Sa DSPC, editorial writing. Nag message kasi sa 'kin si Sam. Pinapa-alala lang niya, wala naman akong ginagawa kaya ginagawa ko na ngayon." She said and I slowly nod.

I continue to unpack my things and when I finisged everything. I pull out my notebooks I need to review and start reviewing.

We both just stayed silent as we mind our own business. When I finished  reviewing 3 subjects I decided to take a break. Only for me to realized it's almost 5pm. When I look outside it's getting darker.

"May kakainin ka for dinner?" I ask Arven. She lifted her head and slowly shake her head.

"Let's go, may macaroni ako sa baba. Alam mo naman, di pwede magutom." I joked and Arven laughed. She put away her things and we went downstairs. Marami-rami na rin ang tao dito. People usually arrive by 5-6pm and that includes Addi, Tera and Aila.

"Uy, may chicka ako sayo!" I said while we are eating.

"So ito nga, nag birthday yung friend ko sa Tagkawayan. Like, boy best friend ko na siya ganern. 18 years old, so like, di na siya ganoon ka minor. Nag-inom kami Hahahahha, ang saya." Kwento ko dito. She laugh and shake her head while eating.

"Anong ininom niyo?" She ask while chewing.

"Gin, pero like, may halo siyang sprite at Getorade." I replied and she nod.

She wipe the side of her lips. "Masarap daw 'yun. Sabi ni Aila." She said and I nod.

"Matamis siya, hindi ganun katapang, oks lang." I said. I saw Addi, Tera, and Aila by the log book table. I waved my hand and the three of them waved back.

When they finished signing in they joined us eating.

"Aila kasi, bakit hindi ka sumama sa birthday ni Jake? Ang saya namin nung gabi." Addi whined while eating.

"Di nga pumayag si mader. Kung pinayagan ako edi sana ako ang pinaka nalasing." She said and I chuckled lightly.

"Di ka naman ganoon malalasing. Ako nga hindi eh. Nakapag drive pa ako pauwi." I said and I hear Addi scoff.

"Tumigil ka Xaviana, puro ka kasi pulutan." She said and they burst into laughter.

"Ah! Hindi kaya, nainom din ako 'no!" I defended.

"Pero makaka tatlong kagat ka muna sa manok bago ka uminom ulit." Tera added and they started teasing me.

"Trick kasi 'yon. Para di ka masyadong malasing." I said and they just laughed at me.

Nang matapos ay sabay-sabay na kaming umakyat. Aila fixed her stuffs first before going to Arven's bed and reviewing there.

"Diba sa Speech ay wala na ulit periodical test?" She ask and I nod while reading my Science notebook.

"Yup, which is.. good. You know bawas reviewer." I said and she nod.

When I finished reading science I decided to take a shower and change into my pajamas before getting comfortable on my bed.

Tumatawag si mama at nangamusta. And after that I continue reviewing. I like reviewing earlier so that it won't be a hassle to me. I like doing things early so that I won't cram. It's my thing.

I finished everything I need to review when clock strikes 8pm. Wednesday ang simula ng exams and in that day, ay 4 na subject lang ang exams namin. Tomorrow I'll start reviewing subjects for Thursday.

They next morning, the usual, I wake up by 4am and take a bath and change into my uniforms. I stand beside my bed and examine my uniform.

"Soon, soon talaga, freestyle na ang isusuot mo Xavi." I said to myself. Since I'm senior highschool now, I'm few months ay magiging college na kami. One sem nalang ay ga-graduate na kami.

And I'm aiming for UP, either Diliman or Los Baños. There are reasons why I want to pass in UP. Of course, scholarship, and it's also my parent's dream. Most student who graduate from our school ended up in UP.

And also.. Bright also aim for that university. So we are both hoping that we will end up both in UP, hoping on same branch so that we will be able to see each other finally.

Cause that's the only way we can think of seeing each other in person. There's no way my parents would let me go to Cainta Rizal just to see him. So we are hoping that UP will be our way to see each other.

We once had a conversation. That's the most thing I won't forget in our conversation. I'm a person who would rather choose career than love. So I told him that. I said that I think I'll be that one rich ass person. Owns a mansion and cars. But alone in life. I'll only have my maids and no one else.

He told me he thinks the same.

I clearly remember those chats.

From boi:
Then if ever happens that.. we can just live together.

To boi:
Oh shut up, I know you'll have someone.

From boi:
No, really, I think the same thing will happen to me. So if I'm that case that the destiny decided to be mean to us. Let's just live with each other. So at least we both have each other.

To boi:
Yeah, that's a good idea. We are like.. alone together. At least we have each other. Just like what you said.

To boi:
Will we share room tho?

From boi:
It's up to you, do you want to?

To boi:
Well uh.. I don't know. We might be awkward to each other.

From boi:
It's only you who'll be awkward.

To boi:
But I always cuddle something or someone to sleep.

From boi:
I don't mind. Then cuddle me then.

To boi:
Okay,  be ready then.

To boi:
But that is only if we won't have anyone in our lives

From boi:
Yes, but I'm also looking forwards for that.

From boi:
Do you think we will do the deed?

To boi:
I.. don't know.

To boi:
I'll just take birth controls then. So safe.

From boi:
Aight, that's a good idea.

To boi:
Why? You don't like kids?

From boi:
Not that I don't like them, I just don't want to have one.

To boi:
Okay, so things for me to note if we end up to be on each other's side, pills.

From boi:
Yeah..
Now I'm excited in the future.

To boi:
Yeah,

I remember how flattered I am that time. I was rolling on my bed that time. Losing my shit and already imagining things. Not the deed part tho, that's too much.

And I think we are still young for that. I don't even know how we ended up in that conversation. I know that I started it. But didn't realized we will end up in the pill topic.

Well, I have to be rich first. That's the first part, I'm planning to take medicine. So I'll probably be rich by my 30's. I know being a doctor requires so much studying. So I know I won't have time to date. And by 30's? It'll be hard for me to have someone. So if I'm at my 30's, maybe 33 or 34, and I still have no one. And Bright as well, that's when all those plans will be applied.

I jump out of my imagination and just fix my things. I scroll through my social media's and wait for the lights on. While my friends are taking a bath I just sat there while using my phone.

When both Aila and Arven are done with their stuffs we decided to go.

As usual, the moment we step down, Yen and others from Lucban arrived. We waited for Yen before going to the main building to have breakfast. But me, I don't eat breakfast at Mondays, Wednesday, and Friday.

Actually no, I only eat breakfast only at Tuesday and Thursday. I would get scolded by Yen or Tera. But I don't mind. It has been my thing since seventh grade. But my parents don't know I skip meals.

But even I skip meals I still don't loose weight. I thought by skipping meals will help. But no, but I still skip meals. Cause if I eat meal, there's a voice in my head that will scold me, telling me I ate again and that I will go bigger and bigger. So no, I just went directly to our classroom and waited there.

Little by little my classmates started arriving. I just sat there while working on my news. Hindi na kasi matapos-tapos ang topic sa group chat sa journalism. They started asking question and they started doing their own reports. So me being me, I started to stress out about the same thing.

So I'm working on it now. It didn't took me that much time and soon I finished. I realized I haven't greeted Bright a good morning yet. So I sent him one.

I didn't expect him to reply since he's probably busy getting ready for school.

Class started and like a usual school days. Things and shits happens. I passed a test in Science, but also almost fail an review exam in Math.

Lunch came and I didn't eat anything. It's not on my schedule.

There's nothing much happened in the afternoon class except our reporting in Robotics, another reporting.

When class ended I directly go to the dorm and rest. I feel a little tired today even we didn't do much. Probably its because of my stress and thinking that I'll fail that math.

When I was about to greet Bright and ask him how his day went. I realized he didn't replied to my messages.

And that thing happened for two more days. Until the day of our examination came. He would always tell me he's busy, I understand. But he already became part of my day.

Call me over reacting or exaggerating but I'm already attached to him.

And now it's hard for me to not receive the same attention he gave to me just like before.

Ang tanga ko kasi, nahuhulog na ako ng tuluyan sa kaniya.

Ang tanga mo Xavi! You're falling to a guy who's kilometers away from you!

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