AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is the link to M.H full playlist on Spotify. [https://open.spotify.com/user/rachxo1989/playlist/0MnqaLK5pWarNVzNiLxiKg]

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I can't believe it. After all of those five years that we had been together and planning to spend our lives till we both grow old means nothing in the end. I kept asking myself whether what I saw just now was real or just my insane imagination because of the nervous coming from all these wedding planning. It felt so real but I was still not sure. I'm completely losing my very mind as I ran away from the scene. I couldn't believe my eyes.

Beginning of the Flashbacks

Humming to myself while walking up the staircase heading towards my veranda. Rummaged through my bag trying to get my keys out. Took me a moment to unlock the front door but then I realized that it was not lock the whole time. I recalled that this morning before I left for work; I did locked the door. Oh! Maybe Shawn is back! Awed. I've missed him so much.

I took off my shoes and massaged my feet for a moment before making my way to the kitchen counter to place my bag and keys. As I was going through the kitchen, I found a red pump shoes by the sink counter. I picked up and looked at it. I remembered that I do not owned any of these shoes. My breath was uneven at that time. My heart quickened its beating. My hands is getting wet.

Slowly, I walked towards the stairs and I heard a soft squeaking noise coming from upstairs. I took a deep breath then walked up the staircase. Each steps that I took, I can feel myself getting more anxious and scared. My hands are getting wet and I had to constantly wipe it against my work clothes.

Heavy breathing and a faint moans. I can feel the droplets of sweats forming on my forehead. I can feel that I am about to have an episode of panic attack. I feel as if people tied two sand bags around my waist because I feel such a burdened for me to walk all the way to the bedroom. As I was walking through this corridor towards the bedroom, there were so many clothing scattered on the floor. I notice a dress that looked too familiar to me but I wasn't able to remember it; exactly.

I frowned at sight.

My hand touched the doorknob. There was it again. Squeaking noise , heavy breathing and moans. I kept telling myself that maybe Shawn was watching some videos. I took every courage that I have in me to turned the doorknob and push the door wide open.

There he was; thrusting his hip with another girl on the bed we slept together. I close my eyes and open it again. Everything was real. I gasped loudly. Shawn turned around. That girl tilted her head sideways. Everything was too much for me to take it all in.

The girl that was fucking my soon-to-be-husband, Shawn. It was my very own childhood best friend, Kathy Hennings. The friend whom I looked up to and treated her like my own family.

Shawn quickly got up from the bed and grabbed his boxer; make his way towards me. Kathy putting on her guilty face and got dressed. Both of them approached me. I didn't listen to their explanations and apologies. I feel as if I have lost part of me and that my system was shut down.

I looked at both of them. Without realizations, tears starts streaming down my face. Dampened my tinted pink cheeks. Words could not possibly explain this major heartbreak. I was gasping for air. Shawn tried to patted my back to keep me calm but I pushed him away from me. How could I let him touch me again after what had happened?

"Please calm down, love. You're are having a panic attack." Said Shawn while running his fingers through his messy hair.

"Nora, I'll go get a glass of water for you. And your meds." Kathy tries to get out from the bedroom but I blocked her.

"Why meds? So that you can continue on fucking my husband?!" I raise my voice at her. She looked terrified because she know me all too well when I am super duper pissed off. I can do the impossible things and no one can stop me.

"Wha- No! I am so sorry Nora. I didn't mean for things to happened this way! Believe me!" Kathy cried out.

"So you're trying to say that it was Shawn's fault?" I laughed to myself.

"I am sorry, love. I didn't mean to cheat on you with your bestfriend. It's just that one thing led to another." I looked at Shawn; looking all disbelieve at what he just said there.

"Shawn, you do know that this fucking Friday is our fucking WEDDING!!! AND YET YOU WENT DOWNTOWN WITH MY BESTFRIEND WHO HAPPENED TO BE MY FLOWER GIRL. HOW UNBELIEVABLE." I took off the wedding ring and throw it to his face. I can hear Kathy gasped at sight.

I looked at her and said "I should have trusted my instinct when I saw you were flirting with Shawn was not for fun at all. I am truly deeply hurt and I can actually kill you with my bare hands."

"I'm so-" I cut her off.

[Author's note: Listen to the song called Better man by Little Big Town (RIGHT NOW!!!). If you have Spotify, it is better because I made a playlist for M.H. But those didn't use Spotify, I'll insert the video here.]

SPOTIFY : https://open.spotify.com/track/6tHB1FilFhtQztB0U8A6uC

https://youtu.be/ph9NQ8ASmX4

"Your apologies cannot undone this incident, Kathy."

That was it. I stormed out the bedroom head downstairs; grabbed my keys and hand bag. I didn't bother to bring my coat and put on my proper shoes. I needed to get out from this place soon. I quickly got to my car, put the keys into the ignition.

After sometimes, I took out my phone and video calling Brielle and Sophie. It doesn't take long before both of them showed up on my phone screen.

"Hey gir- WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR MAKEUP?!" Sophie yelled through the video call.

"Something happened, hun?" Brielle was trying to look closely at the screen.

"Shawn..He..cheated on me with.." I sobbed then I continued.

"He cheated on me with Kathy!!!!" Sophie and Brielle gasped at the news.

"Can you guys help me with something? My heart is too painful. I can't barely breathe. Send me to the hospital or something!!" I yelled and continued on sobbing hard while sitting inside my car. "

Sophie disappeared from the view and same goes to Brielle.

"Please hang up on me guys...." Sobbing while staring at my car window. It was raining outside. I guess the skies understands my pain.

"Darling, we won't hang up on you. Stay on the screen so that we can see you okay? " I sniffed and nodded.

"By the way, where are you right now?" asked Brielle.

"Our forest." Brielle nodded her head.

I sighed heavily and got out from the car and walked along the trail into this forest that all four of us used to hangout and pretend to be the fairies of the forest. I didn't bother about the rain pouring down; soaking up my dry clothes.

I sat down by the big stone. There I was again. Crying my heart out. I placed my hand on my heart is and cried like I have never cried before. How could Shawn did that to me?! And how could Kathy did that to me when I was her best friend. My first best friend before I met Brielle and Sophie.

I scream my heart out in the forest by the stone. I heard footsteps behind me but I didn't turn around to see who was it behind me because hell knows when I'm too messed up and pissed off, I can do all things to protect myself.

"Nora? Oh my gosh! You're soaking wet!" Sophie rushed and squat down beside me.

"Hmm. Good thing I've come prepare a spare raincoat. Here.." Brielle and Sophie put the raincoat on my shoulder and help me to stand up.

"Come on. Let's you get clean up first then we can find a solution later. Alright?" Brielle talked while Sophie nodded her head and guided me out from the forest heading towards their car.

Sophie took the keys from my hands and take out all my belongings from the car. Leaving the car behind. We didn't care much about the car because it was my first car given by Shawn as a sign of congratulations for landing on my first secure job.

Soon we have arrived at Sophie's house. They quickly get me out from the car. Sophie left behind getting all the stuffs by herself while Brielle was busy dealing with me.

"Come before you catch a terrible cold for being under the rain." She dragged me to the bathroom.

I stood there like a statue. Lost in the moment.

"Get in the tub, Hun. If you don't want to strip your clothes then it's fine. You can soak yourself in the warm. I'll get you something warm to drink and eat okay?" Brielle looked at me with her eyes filled with so much concern for me.

I nodded my head. "Thank you Brie..." She smiled and got out from the bathroom, leaving me soaking in the tub that was filled with warm water.

I heard a footstep. I opened my eyes. It was Sophie. Busy putting the laundry into the pile because it was soaking wet and so is her clothing.

"I'm going to put on some tunes. You can do all you want inside here. You want to cry. Go ahead okay? Take your quality time alone here." Sophie connects her Bluetooth to the radio. Slowly, tunes starts playing inside the bathroom and all over the house.

[Author's note: Listen to this Korean song. I'll insert the video for those who doesn't have Spotify. For those that has it. Simply click this link ......]

SPOTIFY : https://open.spotify.com/track/4PvVKyqJ6pLVi5HKpAjTPc

https://youtu.be/9LVq0Bdfnec

After Sophie changed her clothes, I was again left alone. I couldn't help but softly crying to myself while soaking inside the tub.

End of the flashbacks

I still can't believe my eyes. My own childhood best friend did that to me with my future husband, on the bed that Shawn and I both shared. I bang my fist against the side of the tub and cry even harder this time.

Knock, knock

"Hey hun. I'm sorry to disturbs your time but I think you should get up now. " I nodded

" Sophie! Help me here!" I can hear the heavy footsteps walking towards the bathroom. Sophie and Brielle helped me to get out from the tub and get me dressed. I was too weak to do anything. God knows how thankful to have them right now.

Sophie put a plate of double beef cheese burger from McDonald and fries along with a cup of hot tea. I just stare at the food. I can tell you that I've lost my soul.

Brielle and Sophie didn't say or force me to eat. They just devour theirs, sitting opposite of me. I looked at them, feeling sorry because they had to go through all these just to help me out. I shed tears in front of them. They looked at me all worried.

"Aww hun. Don't cry now.. You need to eat and be strong." Brielle put down her fork and sat besides me. Giving me a hug. Not long after that, Sophie did the same thing like Brielle. I couldn't help but letting my tears streaming down my face.

"I can't stand the pain that my heart is going through, guys. Brielle, didn't you ever mentioned that your grandma knows magic or whatever?" I looked at her.

"Urm, I guess so. But I was not sure though. I can give her a call and ask her? " Soon as Brielle finished talking, her phone went off. She quickly grabbed her phone from her bag from the chair beside her.

She stood up and answer the call somewhere else. I guess maybe it was her crush? I don't know. I turned my attention to Sophie. Sophie smiled at me and put her hands on top of mine. I smiled a little. Soon, Brielle came back and sat down beside me while putting her phone on the table. She take a deep breath.

"You know you how were talking about my nana?" Sophie and I nodded out heads.

"Nana sensed something terrible heartache just awhile ago. She told me to bring you two go to the cottage now." My eyes slowly widened and nodded.

"I guess we should go right now. Come on, Nora. Get in the car. We'll get your stuffs."

Sophie bring me to the car. She starts the car. Then I took out my phone and connect my Bluetooth to the car radio. Browsing through my Spotify playlist and press play on the song.

[Author's note: I suggest you guys play the music right now. I'll insert the video for those that doesn't have Spotify.]

SPOTIFY : https://open.spotify.com/track/2L9dSBrh6Gmtna30EKnHRc

https://youtu.be/dJ9lc_orcGs

Soon after that, Brielle and Sophie got into the car. Brielle was driving the car to her nana's cottage that was close to the forest that we used to hangout together, the one with the huge stone. I sing along to the song and just stares at my window as the car driving by.

"Come on, come on,

You have got move on,

This is not the you I know

This isn't real

It's just all you can feel,

And that's the way that feeling go,

And whether or not it's right or wrong you'll do what you will do,

When the cloud in the sky starts to pour,

And your life is just a storm you're braving,

Don't tell yourself can't lean on someone else,

Cause we all need saving sometimes...."

We all need saving by Jon McLaughlin

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HOW WAS IT?! I know it took me long enough to finally upload the first chapter of Missing Heart. I do hope you guys enjoy it as much I write it yesterday. I am truly deeply sorry for the late update all the time. I've been so busy with uni life now. Too many assignments and reports that need to be done fast. 

How do you call that? MIA? Missing in action haha.

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