Patrick's POV

I woke up and heard birds chirping outside. I got out of bed and walk to my bathroom, I stared at myself in the mirror and judge the way I look, but I was still handsome I knew that. Sighs ''I still miss her...''After that I walk to kitchen to grab something quickly to eat. I took an apple from my kitchen table,I went to the window to open them. The brightness outside reminded me of (y/n) with her beautiful (h/c) hair. I still even remember when her and me play ga-; I was cut off by my phone, I look at it ,and it was  a message from Isabella. I was debating if i should read it or not, but I decided to look at it anyway, I check what she said;  The message said ''you're a jerk and I bet you're still a virgin boy'' Another message pop up and it said ''go kill yourself already'' I took a deep breath and stared at my phone. ''Wonderful...That may just happen someday or sooner..'' I turned off my phone and stood at the window. It was a beautiful morning, so I  decided to go for a walk . I walk to the door,grab my shoes,I took a deep breath and walk outside with a smile.''Today is another day'' I said
After walking
Sighs "Why why do I still care for you (y/n), you are so beautiful and amazing, but I just blew everything away with cheating." I took off my shoes and felt the pain on my arms, but who cares that's, what I'm suppose to feel, neither it'll feel numbing afterwards. I went to my living room, sat down on my couch, and just sat there depress and lonely. I stared at clock that was above my tv. I just wanted to cry so bad, because the half of me felt as if it just separated from me and left... Which did, because the half me was (y/n), she was the one to fill my hopeless heart when I needed someone. She wasn't those typical girls who I met in my previous love life. She was the girl that knew everything about me. Not even one girl in my previous love life were like her. I just Miss Missing her. I walk to the bathroom, I stared at the mirror with shame
This is why she left because of you, you cheated on her
And you a stupid human trash that can't even move on.
Get it straight! So grab that razor and cut your wrist virginboy
I listen to my mind and did what it said. I open my cabinet and grab my razor and did it ... I did it.... Because...BECAUSE I LIVED IN A HELLISH WORLD WHERE NOTHING CAN'T BE THE SAME. THE WORLD WAS FUCK UP BECAUSE OF ME, IF I WEREN'T TO THE STUPID GUY WHO DECIDED TO CHEAT THIS WOULDN'T NEVER HAPPEN TO ME AT ALL.....I'm just a trash.... I'm just trash..and will always be one no matter what. Broken hearts like this can die easily alone I rather be dead... I rather be dead than live in a world where I have a broken heart.... I cut my wrist deeper where I saw more blood to show how much I hate myself.
(😫 whyyyyyyy do I do dis,but I have to make it though)