I know I'm Crazy
But Darling It's just
The beginning
Of Something Even
Crazier!

D R I S H T I

Rakshit decided that he would start going back to his job as his butterfly days were over now. Was I okay with it? No, but it was mandatory.

However, he suggested to me that we should go and pay a visit to dad when I told him about dad's birthday party which he invited us at. Being no fool I said a yes and started packing our bags once again.

In these vacations, travelling got no chill. It was our second time traveling, in just a few days.

"It's really nice that you called your dad. He misses you a lot and I'm sure his happiness would have broken all bounds" Rakshit sat on the bed beside the suitcase and tried to relax after packing the whole things, on his own.

Don't dare to think I didn't help! I helped, but he pushed me aside and started murmuring how inexperienced and useless I was.

Audacity was on sale this month.

"Yeah, I just thought maybe I was taking it too far. His decision wasn't bad afterall" If you think I could stand calmly without trying to give him the hints how much of a lovesick girl I was right now, go and fetch a nice brain.

Not from the place I had my previous one.

Damn, Now I feel it was kind of stupid. Remove the word kind of. It was stupid.

"I thought you regretted his decision" Something that his smile clearly showed was his willing to listen to something more, something which was clear and you know what it was.

"Yeah, Just a little bit" I stood in front him and wrapped my arms around his shoulder, keeping my knee on his thigh for support "You're not bad you know"

"Woah! Am I dreaming?" To be honest, his fake expressions of amusement just made me imagine the day when he would get to listen an 'I love You' from me. "I am blessed"

"Yes, you should be" But the fact was, I was blessed. After all unimportant fights, thoughts and analysis of my own, I knew I was done with shutting people out, hiding some part of me which wanted to laugh.

I was not broken

But I needed to change, so as to become a happier person who was loved. To become the person he deserved. He was beside me at my worst, tolerated every thing I threw his way, stayed calm under situations no one would, and even had this entire Neil situation prove the fact that he was always there.

Give me a reason why I shouldn't try to change myself for him? Not change the whole of me, but the part of me which needed a change.

Sorry girls if you want him to change for you but ain't ready for a nontoxic change in yourself for him, this is not self respect. You are just being stupid and mean which is not cool at all.

"I hope you didn't forget to invite Vicky and Natasha to the party, did you?" Caressing his hairs along with the conversation, I started flowing with this new sort of addiction I had. His hands were around my waist and I would say- it was a nice romantic posture. And I was starting to feel a little more than usual in this pose.

"I had to?" He looked like I asked him to go and invite aliens to my birthday. "Sorry, I had no idea you wanted to invite my fr-"

"Our friends, how can you forget" I had to cut him in between to make him realize that they were my friends too. Vicky was a bit mad at me but in friendship it was something you would experience many times.

Romi and I had fights every third day when we were young, at teenage we had our world wars and when he hit adulthood, it was only that we didn't have guns with us.

Fights happen, misunderstandings do take place, but at the end truth can never be hidden. The ultimate truth was that we all were friends now. It was clear from Vicky's eyes that he wanted to be friends after that incident and I had no problem with it.

"Someone's in good mood- I'm not using this line" he sighed "Bitter memories, or say, Hairy memories"

"Oh seriously" I laughed along with him

Have you ever felt an awkward moment when you two are simply laughing to avoid the sudden feelings telling you make a move?

I was living that moment right now.

Self control?

Not a word I was a fan of.

"It's- nice- to- be with- you" leaning closer to him and eyes locked with each other, I drew my hands from his hairs and moved them to his cheek "Actually- nice" His hands started pulling me closer so I couldn't say he did not want it. I closed my eyes and moved further into him with his hold on me.

You think the universe wanted this?

Will the universe let the sparks fly? Souls meet? Etcetera etcetera?

Right before our lips could meet, his phone rang at an unusual loud voice due to which the whole moment was ruined. I had to slip my face to the side and wrap him in my arms, to take out the frustration I hit my head with my fist, the jerk due to which was felt by Rakshit and to cover it I had to nod my head for absolute no reason.

"Let me take that" he patted my back and sitting in the same position took out the phone from his pocket.

"Who's it?" I mumbled on his shoulder while mentally abusing three people.

I, me and myself.

Ok Drishti, you are smart? Yes you are. You are romantic? Oh, yes a whole bucket.
You are awesome? Oh, no comparisons Drishti, you are unique
You love this person? Oh, yes to the Jupiter and back.

He deserved to know and so I created this master plan inside my highly non functional brain. On the day of dad's birthday party, I

'Drishti The Magnanimous'

would confess my love

'for Rakshit The-The The Lucky Man'

In front of everyone and propose him for a re-marriage in our traditional style. The last time everything went in haste and not according to a traditional way so this time it will be a Big Fat Indian Wedding.

How's the idea?

How many pats of appreciation would I get on my back?

Just kidding. Dad's birthday and Rakshit's birthday were only a week apart. So it was all set up for Rakshit's birthday!

In this short time I spent on this planet and stepped into what we call life when we reach adulthood, I had been impatient and desperate when I knew what I wanted or when I liked anyone.

Controlling myself from expressing my feelings to Rakshit was not as easy as you are imagining. Even now I wanted to just tell him 'Hey Rakshit' and shout 'I love you'

But Good things need time.

Didn't realize when you taught me to be patient with things and my words.

"It was just company" he sighed.

Wtf-!

(Ps: that telephone company which calls unnecessarily and no one picks)

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