Chapter 19 ― Zayn

Sometimes you got these impulses that you just couldn’t control. One of these occasions was when I hugged Mila. I just wanted to have her close, to feel her in my arms and it felt so right that I didn’t want to let her go, even when Alex appeared in the scene. That didn’t matter; whoever could see us and think of us didn’t matter because I had her where I wanted.

Normally, I was always conscious about Alex, where she was and if she was noticing me, but whilst I held Mila in my arms, that didn’t matter. I only cared about the short black-haired girl in my arms. And for me that moment was perfect, but it seemed like for her wasn’t like that, considering the way she left me there.

Maybe I was pushing her, maybe it was too sudden for her, considering that she knew I had feelings for Niall’s girlfriend. Maybe she didn’t understand what was happening to me. Certainly, it was strange for me, too, and I felt like everything was happening really fast, the way how Alex and Niall weren’t my biggest problem and how she started to become that. I just knew one thing: I wanted her to know that I had a new interested on her and I was willing to go further with this.

With that on mind, hoping that being close to her would help us all to figure out what was happening, I went after her as she didn’t turned back when I called her, but in the way I didn’t find the petite girl I was looking for, but the boy with the worst timing ever, AKA Harry Styles.

“Are you looking for Mila?” He asked me when we met in the stairs and I just wanted to walk past him.

“Yeah,” I replied quickly but he grabbed my shoulder and stopped me.

“Don’t. She’s clearly not in the mood considering she yelled at me and I don’t think she wants to see you now,” he told me and I looked at him confused.

“What do you mean?” I asked more than intrigued. I thought Mila and I were in good terms, after all, we hadn’t fought in the last twenty-four hours. That had to be a record for us.

“You might not want to accept it, but I know you fancy her. Now, do us all a favour and don’t try anything unless you’re sure you don’t feel anything else for Alex,” he said dead serious, shocking me. “If you don’t do this, Mila will never believe you like her for her, she’ll keep believing you’re using her, because that’s what she thinks now, Zayn.”

“I’m not using her!” I spat, shoving him off. Of course I wasn’t using her, not intentionally. She was helping me to get over all this, but not because I wanted to do that, it was unconscious, it was because my feelings for her were getting stronger and stronger and that made my feelings for Alex go weaker.

I wasn’t using her. I would never do that. She was totally wrong about me if she thought that I could ever use her like that.

“Well, that’s what she thinks and if you try to make a move on her while you still hold feelings for Alex, you will only end up hurting Mila. And I won’t let you do that.” He sounded so severe whilst saying that and I knew he was serious, that he would never let anyone to hurt Mila. He really cared about her and I couldn’t help feeling jealous and a tad bit afraid that those protective feelings from Harry would turn into something different.

I stopped for a second, trying to calm down my mind and everything that was going on inside of me. I didn’t want to hurt Mila and Harry was right that if I tried something with her whilst I still had feelings for Alex, I was only going to hurt the curly-haired girl and that was the least thing I wanted to do.

Harry was right. If I wanted something with Mila, if I really wanted to go deeper into this I was starting to feel for her, I had to completely move on from Alex.

I smiled because for the first time that task looked easy.

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“Okay, I think we should do something tonight or I’ll bore to death,” Moni suggested walking into the kitchen where I was eating some cookies I found.

Mila hadn’t come down in the whole afternoon and things had been a bit slow, so I knew why the brunette was bored after she finished with Niall, and by finished I meant she crushed the last cupcake in his head with maybe too much force. It probably hurt, but it was damn funny to see Niall with a cupcake hat.

We all learnt something that day: you didn’t have to get in the way of Moni and Mila’s cupcakes.

“We could watch a movie,” Liam suggested joining us in the kitchen whilst he was texting. Probably Danielle. It was a shame she couldn’t come with us and I knew Liam missed her.

The only missing ones in the kitchen were Phoebe and Mila. Harry was sat next to me, stealing cookies. Louis and Eleanor were across us with his laptop watching silly videos on Youtube. Niall was hidden behind Alex, far away from Moni who kept sending death glares at the blond. I was sure Niall was never going to try to eat the last cupcakes. Ever.

“Fair enough. It’s snowing and I’m in the mood for a good movie,” Alex commented and before she could suggest what movie, all of us jumped.

“Not The Avengers, nor Thor nor Captain America nor The Amazing Spiderman. Please!” We begged as she loved those movies so much and were always her first choice. We all knew those movies by heart already.

“Not fair! Those are great movies!” Moni complained and I shivered. Now Alex had an ally in this. We were doomed.

“Let’s watch something better. A horror movie!” Louis suggested and I winced, not sure it was a good idea either.

“Boring! I don’t like watching horror movies with Mila. She gets scared at everything and she doesn’t allow me to laugh,” Moni complained and Alex laughed.

“I have the same problem, sister!” The black-haired girl exclaimed and both girls grinned evilly. If we indeed watched a horror movie, we were going to die because of those two.

“What problem?” Asked a new voice and my eyes drifted immediately to the entrance to found a confused Mila and a smiley Phebs.

“They want to watch a horror movie,” Moni told Mila walking to her to embrace her. “Tell them it’s not a good idea. Tell them the things I do if we watch a horror movie.”

Mila’s wide-open eyes looked at us with terror. “Please, no. She won’t let me sleep and will scare us all till we shit our pants. Let’s watch something else, like High School Musical. Everyone is safe with that.”

I laughed and almost choked with the cookie I was eating, but Moni sent me a terrifying glare.

“Let’s watch The Woman in Black,” Phebs suggested with her lovely smile still playing in her lips. “I’ve hear it’s quite good and it doesn’t scare, so I think that Alex and Moni won’t be able to scare us,” she explained and I wasn’t that sure because I saw Mila shivering and the look in Moni’s face started to scare me. What was she planning?

After a couple of seconds, everyone accepted and even I did, really interested in seeing Mila’s reaction during the film. Maybe she could look for shelter in me. I was totally up for that option.

“I warn you,” Mila whispered causing several of us to laugh. It couldn’t be that bad, right? We were a group of grown-ups; we didn’t get scared at silly horror movies anymore. We were safe, Mila was just exaggerating.

“I’ll get the movie,” Louis offered looking immediately for the movie. “Wify, just letting you know, you’ll have to protect me and El if we get scared,” he said offhandedly causing Eleanor to giggle. “Maybe she should marry you, too,” he went on and I laughed this time, too.

“You have issues, dear husband. And I think El will take care of your baby arse. I have to take care of this one,” Alex replied pointing with her thumb to Niall who smiled proudly. He didn’t pretend to be brave anymore when we watched horror movies and it was quite funny to see how he cuddled against Alex all the time, covering his eyes and things like that.

“Harry, can I talk to you for a second?” Mila asked and my eyes looked for her immediately. She didn’t bother to meet my gaze, she was just focused on the curly-haired boy who nodded before stealing another cookie and walking towards her.

“Shall we prepare the living room?” Liam asked Phebs and she nodded before both of them left the kitchen.

“We’re gonna take care of the food,” Niall spoke leaving his hiding place behind Alex’s back. His girlfriend giggled before helping him picking the humungous amount of food for a normal movie.

I kept my eyes on the door from which Mila and Harry disappeared wondering what they were talking about. Dying to know. I was so focused on that, that I didn’t notice when Moni sat next to me and stole a cookie. What was wrong with everyone stealing my food?

“You should know that Mila gets scared at everything. I’m not exaggerating,” she told me offhandedly. “And I don’t make things easier for her with this.”

“And you are telling me this because...?” I asked her meeting her eyes. She had this mischievous look in her eyes.

“‘Cos you two are my OTP and I think you could use this situation in your advantage,” she replied stealing another cookie. “Just make sure you get to sit next to her, though she will probably destroy your hand.”

I smiled taking note of that. If Moni was right, I was damn sure I was going to sit next to Mila and offer her all the comfort she would need. I didn’t have the slightest interest in the movie anymore, I was just eager to see how this evening was going turn out.

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