"Never forget how far you have come. Everything you have gotten through. All the times you have pushed on even when you felt you could not. All the mornings you got out of bed, no matter how hard it was. All the times you wanted to give up but you got through another day. Never forget how much strength you have learned and developed."

~http://www.lifelovequotesandsayings.com~

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This is true of life but I want to remember in context of my writing. I want to keep writing, even if what I have written reads like incoherent scribbles. Even when something I feel is good does not appear to be read by anyone else. Even if there are times when the ideas rattling in my head refuse to come out in the light of my laptop. Or when my fingers ache but still keep flying as the words come tumbling out. Even if my poems turn to prose, my prose is poetic and the story is pathetic and nothing makes any sense.

I want to keep writing because it is so easy to give up. I want to keep writing because it is easy to lose belief in oneself. I want to keep writing because it is a struggle at times. Above all, I want to keep writing because I love to do so.

I simply love how the alphabets can be arranged in combinations to form words, words which lend them selves to sentences and sentences that create stories. I love to write because it lets me know how much I have learnt and how little I know. I love to write because it teaches me new words and makes me reach new worlds.

In the end it is as simple as that - I am a Scripturient being.

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I had written the above words quite some time ago in another forum and had forgotten about them till my friend, Harshada, stumbled on that post. She not only said she loved it but in response to my words, posted this inspirational piece by Ms. Mary (a writer and writing coach and has a blog - verilymerrilymary.com).

The piece is just beautiful.

"The pen and the page were once your fiercest allies. The blank screen in your word processor used to stare back at you, prime and ready to receive all of the stories, thoughts, and opinions that had been ruminating in your mind for quite some time now. But as time passed, you realized that most of the writing had been going on in your head; the ideas were only thought of but never written, experiences lived but never inscribed. The meditative practice of materializing your narratives slowly became a thing of the past. And maybe, at some point, the last thing on your mind was whether not you would get back into writing again.

Maybe for you, life happened. And you began to feel sad, perhaps even guilty. Perhaps it was a new job that consumed more of your time and energies. Or maybe your bundle of joy innocently called for more of your attention. Perhaps it was something similar to the aforementioned situations. Or maybe it is as simple as you feeling like you've lost your writing mojo.

Whatever your situation, there are somethings you need to know.

Firstly, you are allowed to be sad. In this space, stifling emotions to perform a facade of rigidity is not allowed. Let yourself mourn if necessary. After all, mourning is a temporary ordeal.

However, so long as you wish to move forward in your desire to write, you are not going to be defeated. Feeling defeated is one thing, but being defeated doesn't have to be your reality. Your pen and your word processor were never your enemies. The words that you wanted to write but just never managed to were not out to taunt you. Your writing goals were not there to antagonize you with their incompletion. And if it was the rejection of your pitch that got you to abandon writing, know that it is one stepping stone closer to your "yes."

You are not a failure foryour hiatus. In fact, some unexpected lessons could come from it. As you stillconsider the word "writer" as a title, know that you are not an impostor forcarrying it; it still applies to you if you let it. You still have an opportunityto give life to that cherished title. And it will, in turn, give life to yourideas and stories while also giving life to yourself, even on those days whenwriting gets difficult and your writer's muse seems quiet.    

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So to all those writer friends who have lost their will or wish to writing, this is for you. And hugs to Harshu and a thank you to Ms. Mary.