I put the breakfast I made on one of our nice plates before placing it on the black tray that I had found in one of the kitchen drawers. I grab the mug that was still steaming from the hot coffee and place it on the tray as well. I pick it up before making my way up the stairs and into the bedroom where my beautiful fiance was still sleeping. I had woken up about an hour before I knew Julian usually does to make him breakfast for his birthday.

I set the tray on the nightstand next to him before tapping the tablet a bit to close the blinds over the huge windows that were letting in the bright sunshine. I turn the lights on a dim setting before sitting on the edge of the bed, noticing how peaceful he looks while he slept. I smile at his beauty before leaning down and setting my lips gently against Julian's. My hand comes up to settle on the side of his neck and after a few minutes of moving my lips on his, he starts to moan against my mouth.

I pull away to see his eyes flutter open before he smiles up at me. Before I could say anything, he reaches out to bunch my t-shirt in his fist and pulling me down to connect our lips again. He runs his tongue against my bottom lip, asking for entrance, but I pull away with a chuckle. I run my fingers over his cheek as he stretches on the bed. "Happy birthday, my fiance."

"Thank you, my fiance," he whispers, his voice still husky with sleep. I sit up from my spot next to him before grabbing his hands and pulling him up into a sitting position. He lets out a groan, but once he sees the food on the tray that I settle into his lap, his smile perks up again.

"Bacon, eggs, and pancakes. Your favorite," I whisper to him before crawling over his legs to settle into the spot on my side of the bed. I turn on the TV to watch Friends since that was what we usually watched whenever we were just waking up on the weekends. I grab the coffee that I brought up with me as I watch the show.

"So what do we have planned for today?" Julian asks me, holding a tiny piece of bacon out for me to eat. I lean forward, taking it in my mouth while making sure that I lick his greasy fingers as well to put that smirk on his face.

"You'll see. Just be prepared to let out your inner child for the day," I tell him, noticing how he thinks for a few minutes before giving me a confused expression.

"My inner child?" He asks, taking a bite from his pancakes as he keeps trying to think of what I could mean by letting his inner child out for the day. I knew he would get a kick out of what we were doing today because he's mentioned to me before that he would love if we went to this place together. I glance over at him with a smirk before focusing my attention on the show again while finishing my coffee for the day ahead of us.

"Once you're done eating, take a shower and dress in comfortable clothes. We'll be doing lots of walking," I say, giving him the one hint he'll get.

He puts the tip of his finger in his mouth, biting down on it a bit as he thinks of all the possibilities of what could be happening today. "Walking?"

About two and a half hours later, I'm sitting in the driver's seat of my car while Julian is texting on his phone next to me. He holds one of my hands, his thumb running along the back of it to bring me a sense of calmness. He looks super cute in black jeans, a white t-shirt, and a jean jacket. I had just thrown on some black joggers, a t-shirt, and a flannel wrapped around my waist because I really didn't care what I looked like today.

"You look cute," I blurt out as we drive on the highway, getting closer to our destination.

"Oh, do I?" Julian questions, putting his phone down before moving in his seat to be turned towards me more. I glance at him for a second before chuckling and looking back at the road as my GPS directs me to take the next exit.

"You always look cute, shut up," I tell him in a playful tone.

"You know that just two years ago, you would've never said that to me? You got scared when I winked at you, but now look where we are," he tells me, reminding of the first time we met and he winked at me and I spent the entire time worrying about what he meant by it.

"Well, I was a scared person, but I feel like I've changed. You like me more like this, right?" I ask, pressing on the brake before taking the exit that will lead us to the place I was looking for.

"I love you however you are, Mila, you know that. I don't care if you were still that scared little boy that was terrified to let his sexuality show. I wouldn't care," he whispers to me in a very serious tone. I glance at him for a second to see his soft eyes that make my heart flutter. The running of his thumb against the back of my hand picked up, telling me that his emotions were also picking up.

"Hey, don't get all sentimental on me. It's your birthday, we're supposed to be having a fun day," I tell him. He places a kiss on my hand before pulling his phone out again as I continue to drive towards the amusement park where we were going to spend the day riding the rides and playing games and eating our heart out. Julian's mentioned to me before that he loves theme parks and would love to take me to one, so I felt this would be a good birthday surprise for him.

It's only 15 minutes later until Julian's eyes look up from his phone and see where we were turning into. You could see the tall rollercoasters from where we were driving along with the huge sign that we passed that told him exactly where we were. I glance at him to see his shocked expression as he keeps looking from the large rides ahead of us before looking back at me. I let out a nervous chuckle as I stop behind cars that were paying the toll to park at the booths in front of us. "You like it?"

Julian genuinely looked like a child then by the way he shakes his head with enthusiasm and looks at me with a huge smile. I tighten my grip on his hand as my heart flutters at the sight of his excitement. "Yes, Miles, oh my god, I didn't think you would remember that I said that I wanted to come here with you."

I chuckle, placing a kiss on the back of his hand. "Of course I would remember."

He basically jumps in his seat with excitement and I wish I just had a camera to record his kid-like excitement because Nina would've actually killed to see this. I pay for parking before we make our way to the lot. Julian continues to look out at all the tall rollercoasters with excitement, looking at me every once and awhile. Once I put the car in park, he immediately jumps out and I grab my bag before getting out as well. When I get to the back of the car, he intertwines his hand with mine before practically dragging me to the entrance. I notice that he falters when he sees the crowd of people forming in lines at the gate and I pull on his hand to silently ask what was wrong.

"You know people will recognize us, right? I mean, it's only been a few months since our engagement was posted everywhere, so we'll probably be stopped for stuff," he tells me. About three months ago, a photographer took a picture of Mia and me at lunch on some patio and saw the ring I was wearing. The next day, there was news everywhere about Julian and I being engaged.

Wherever the two of us went, together and separately, paparazzi would be there or we would get stopped for pictures or questions from random people. I didn't realize how 'famous' Julian actually was until that moment and I'm not going to lie, it was a bit scary, but I got over it. I'm used to being stopped on the street now and random pictures of Julian or I surfacing over the internet, so I just try my best to ignore it.

"I know, I'm okay with it now. Well... maybe not okay, but I handle it better than I did at the start. We'll just take today minute-by-minute, right?" I ask, bringing up the conversation we had when all this stuff started to happen. Julian basically calmed me down and told me to take the days minute-by-minute and I've held onto those words ever since then.

Julian gives me a soft smile as we continue towards the places where we buy tickets and whatnot. We get through the lines swiftly and then we're in the park, trying to decide what to do first. He definitely seems like a kid as he looks through the map to figure out what he wanted to do since it is his day. He decides on getting food from some place since we hadn't eaten for about three hours and he was hungry. The place is across the park, so we start the tread to the place he wanted to go to.

"Did you go to amusement parks a lot when you were a kid?" I ask him, knowing that that question won't bring him as much pain as it used to. Over the past year, I've been helping him get more used to the idea of talking about his parents. I hated the pain that always came up whenever his past or his family was brought up, so I've slowly been helping him deal with that. So far, it's been good and I think he's officially moved on from all that.

He nods his head as he looks down at me. "Yeah, I did. We usually went, like, four times in the summer and then go to water parks a lot more than that. When I was a teenager, I would go to the Halloween stuff with my friends and would sometimes sneak my cousins along too since their parents never allowed them to go."

I've realized a lot more about his family through this whole 'moving on' thing. Like, he never talks about his uncles and aunts. He talks about his cousins a lot, but he just calls his aunts and uncles 'their parents', which makes me believe that they weren't the greatest to him. He also never tells me his parents' names. I just know them as Mr. and Mrs. Caldwell or 'Mom' and 'Dad'. Sometimes he didn't like to call them that so he used Mr. and Mrs. to address who he was talking about.

"What about you? Did you go a lot?" Julian asks me.

I shake my head. "No. I hated rollercoasters until I was about 17, maybe? My family also never really had the money to take us, so we mostly just did other stuff whenever Mom would want to take us out. I was fine with it because Ivy absolutely hates rides, so I would've had to go alone if I decided to go on anything."

"The crowds also probably aren't the best for her anxiety too," he says, referring to my sister.

"Yeah, she actually had her first panic attack at the state fair when she was 15, so I think it brings up a lot of memories for her," I explain.

"Ah, yeah, that makes sense," he says with a nod of the head. I notice two girls that were sitting by a fountain that had water shows at night and they were pointing at us while talking to a guy they were with. When they saw me looking, they immediately looked away to not seem creepy for pointing at the two of us. I smirk before looking up at my fiance, who was giving me a confused look.

"What?" I ask.

"You're pretty," he tells me with a small smile and I immediately start blushing as I retract my hand from his before snaking my arm around his waist. I loved this man, like, I really loved this man. With everything inside me, I loved him and I couldn't wait to spend the rest of my life by his side.

At about ten that night, Julian and I both decide that it's probably time to head out. We had basically done everything we wanted to do. We rode all the rollercoasters, played tons of games, saw a few shows, and ate so much that my stomach hurt from all the sugary substances. We had been stopped a few times throughout the day and we were even behind some people in line that were super interested in Julian and I's relationship. They asked tons of questions, some were a little to personal, but the line was pretty short, so we didn't have to deal with them for too long.

This has practically been the perfect day. I knew Julian had fun because I don't think I ever saw his smile drop throughout the entire day and I was happy for that. I had won him a big stuffed monkey since I was pretty good at the ring toss game and I knew he would probably put it in the library or something so he could cuddle with it whenever he read.

There was one point where Julian literally dragged me into this little alleyway thing between two shops and we started making out. He said he was 'saying thank you', but I think he was just caught up in the moment and got a little too hot and heavy. We could've easily gone to the bathroom and done something we probably would've regretted, but I wanted to wait until tonight because I had a little something planned.

When we got into my car, I caught Julian yawning into his hand. "Tired?"

"A little," he tells me in a cute voice as he leans back in his seat before running his hand over my back while I start the car. I chuckle at his affection that had been a constant thing today before backing out of the parking space and making my way towards the exit.

"Well, we better stop for coffee or something because there's no way you're going to sleep when we get home," I tell him, hinting at his final birthday surprise. When I glance at him, he has a smirk on his face as he continues to run his hand up-and-down my back.

"Oh, is that so?" He asks in a husky tone.

"Yep," I tell him, even though that just five minutes later, he's passed out with his head back against the headrest. His hand had gone flat against my thigh and I chuckle as I carefully pick it up and settle it into his lap. I start to think about how great this day had been and I was so grateful that everything had gone according to plan.

I felt like that, just for today, we had kinda switched roles in the relationship. I think it's obvious that Julian's the dominant one with calling all the shots and making final decisions, but that didn't happen today. Whenever he was unsure about something, I step in and took the lead. I had also paid for everything with my allowance since I wanted him to feel like I was contributing a bit. He definitely acted like a little kid today without the whole being needy part, but it was fun to see him like that. It's like he never let all his stress go, but today, he did.

I knew he would ask me tomorrow to not mention that to Nina or anyone, but I definitely would since he was actually so adorable throughout the day. He was very affectionate with me, even though whenever we were in public, he tried not to do that too much. We usually only held hands, but today, he broke that rule of 'no excessive PDA', not that I minded. I just wanted him to have an amazing birthday.

Julian stays asleep until I stop in front of the gate to our neighborhood. I put in the code before driving towards our house that was a bit further down the road. He was starting to sit up when he realized we were close and I grab the coffee that I had stopped to get before handing it to him. "What's this for?"

"You gotta wake up, we still got a lot to do," I tell him with a smirk. He chuckles before taking a sip of the coffee that was probably a bit cold at this point because it's been a bit since I got it. I park the car in the driveway before grabbing my backpack and getting out of the car with my fiance.

"Let's watch something first while I wake up," he tells me, grabbing my waist as we walk into the house. The lights automatically turn on when my foot hits the floor in the foyer and that little bark from our baby was now hitting my ears. When Bailey gets closer to us, Julian kneels down in front of him to pet him as he keeps his face away from the little pup since we both knew he would try to lick his face if he had the chance.

We go into the living room with the dog before settling on the couch as Julian puts on Grey's Anatomy since we've been binge-watching it for the past few weeks. Neither of us wanted to admit that it was a good show, so we just didn't mention it to anyone. Bailey settles between Julian and I, seeming worn out by his high when he saw us coming home. I knew he had been walked and fed today due to the note that was left on the counter from Lola since she still took him on his walk everyday.

I was starting to get nervous about what was going to happen in a little bit because it was definitely something out of my comfort zone, but I knew Julian would love it. I had been planning this for awhile and even had to go to a few stores to find the stuff I needed to make it perfect. I even had to ask advice from Mia since I didn't feel comfortable asking anyone else because they would definitely mention it or something. But she was super nonjudgmental about the whole thing and super helpful.

I knew everything would go great because things in the bedroom were always good with Julian, but I was just nervous. I mean, maybe he won't like how I look or he won't enjoy being sexual while I wore what I was going to wear. I don't know, but I'll just take things minute-by-minute. Just like we always did, I'll take things as they come and deal with them then.

Julian and I don't say anything as the episode plays out and Bailey snores softly between us. He had finished his coffee and looked a bit more aware of his surroundings, so I knew he would be okay to do stuff. Once the episode was almost over, I gained the courage to lean over and kiss his cheek, gaining his attention.

"Meet me upstairs in 10 minutes," I whisper huskily into his ear before making my way to the bedroom. My hands trembled lightly by my sides, but it wasn't a bad thing. It was just my nerves that were excited but also scared of what was to come. Once I get inside the room, I move towards my dresser and pull out the shoe box that had been holding the articles of clothing for weeks. I take out the tie that I had bought before laying it on the bed, knowing that I didn't want to just walk out in all these things, I wanted him to know something was coming.

Once the tie was placed, I go into the bathroom before shutting the door and setting the lock. I look in the mirror for a second as the box was practically staring at me from where it sat on the counter. I don't know why I was freaking out now, I was perfectly fine when I was buying the stuff. I stand there, just staring at the daunting box for a few minutes before gaining enough strength to start stripping. Once I'm completely naked with my clothes in a pile on the floor, I open the box.

The lace shorts were laying in the box, screaming at me that I wasn't going to look good in them. I online shopped for a while, just looking at all my options. All the men that modeled this stuff looked beautiful and I knew I would never measure up to that. But Julian thinks I'm beautiful, so I have to take his word for it. I glance at the mirror one more time before pulling out the article and slipping it on. I had only tried it on one other time to make sure it fit, but I never looked to see what it looked like. I take a few moments to look in the full length mirror and when I do, I practically laugh at how stupid I look.

I was a grown man, a scrawny grown man with practically no muscle, standing in my bathroom with bright red lace shorts on that proudly showed parts of my dick along with my entire ass. The back was definitely more lacy than the front and I didn't know how I liked that. Mia had told me that maybe starting with panties would probably be too daunting for me, so she mentioned lace shorts that would still be lingerie, but wouldn't be too much for me in the beginning.

I also grabbed the matching red lace socks that had some ruffles at the top along with a black small bow on the back. They only went up to my ankles, so they didn't feel too feminine, but they still had a quality about them that were. I looked in the mirror again to see how the two things worked together and they looks okay, but I still felt insecure. I turned around to look at my ass and realized that the lace was so see through that it was basically like nothing was there.

This is for Julian is what I kept repeating to myself. I knew that he used to watch porn before where guys would wear stuff like this, but I never expected that I would delve it. He knew that I mainly only watched straight porn before we got together and it's not like he would ever try to dive into that. I knew there were... toys... that you could buy that simulated straight sex, but I don't see him buying that for me. So why was I doing this?

It's his birthday. I say to myself, but I didn't look sexy whatsoever like I had hoped. I almost take the whole thing off and go just sit naked on the bed to still be enticing, but then, Julian walks in. I hear the bedroom door shut before his heavy footsteps travel to my ears. I knew he walked over to the bed by the rug underneath it covering his steps and I realize that he was probably looking at the tie.

"Baby?" Julian calls out before I hear his steps coming towards the bathroom. He knocks lightly and I basically shield my body, even though I knew he wasn't going to walk in or anything.

I clear my throat before checking myself out in the mirror again. "Um, yeah?"

I knew I sounded very hoarse at this point, but Julian didn't seem affected by it. "What're you doing?"

I almost take the whole thing off, but I knew he would be curious as to why I was in here and not in the bedroom when he came in. I saw no way of getting out of this without me telling him what I was planning, so I just turn away from the mirror to lean on the counter behind me. I let out a shaky breath before looking at the door that was separating the two of us. "Uh, can you... can you put the tie over your eyes?"

I could tell he was shocked by the small footsteps he takes back before he clears his own throat. "You want me to blindfold myself?"

"If... if you don't mind, yeah, I do," I say. He hesitates before he walks over to the bed, I assume by the direction his steps go. I wait a few moments before I hear his voice again.

"Okay, it's on," he announces. I freeze, realizing that this was probably the time that I should leave the bathroom, but I couldn't find the strength just yet. I turn to the mirror, looking over my body again. I guess I looked okay in this little outfit. It was pretty revealing, but that was the whole point of it. I knew Julian loved my body, so maybe showing it off would turn him on, but also maybe it'll turn him off. I honestly didn't know anything at this point.

I hear him clear his throat again and I'm brought out of my thoughts again. I don't even hesitate to open the door because if I did, I would just end up taking everything off. I knew Julian hear me walk out because he sits up a bit straighter. I see that he was no longer wearing his jean jacket and the tie was securely wrapped around his eyes. His fingers were tapping against his thigh as he waited for me, but they stopped once he felt me coming close to him. Maybe I could just keep him blindfolded the entire time and then leave once we were done to change out of this ridiculous thing.

No, not tonight. I realize that the other side of my thoughts weren't going to let me take this thing off without Julian seeing, so I make a decision to push through my insecurities for him. For Julian. I kneel in front of him before connecting our lips, surprising him by the way he jumps back a bit. He recovers quickly before deepening the kiss, snaking his hand out to wrap around my neck. I moan against him as he sticks his tongue in my mouth while his hands roam around my chest.

"Can I take this thing off now?" He asks against my lips, motioning to the tie still wrapped around his eyes.

I shake my head, not that he could see me. "Not yet."

He nods his head before continuing the kiss. I take his hands before pulling him up with me, going to unbutton his pants, but I freeze. I should probably just get this over with and let him see what I'm wearing, but I'm so nervous that he'll be disgusted by what he'll see. Julian pulls away from the kiss and I realize that I had stopped responding to his lips after a little bit. "What's going on, Miles? You're worrying me."

I glance down at the lace shorts and socks, realizing that I was starting to feel more comfortable in the outfit. Before I could do anything, my mouth moves on its own as I make sure that everything down below was in the right place. "You can take it off."

I watch as Julian takes off the tie, squinting his eyes as the lights in the room blind him for a bit. Before I realize what was happening, his eyes move lower until he sees the red fabric that was barely covering me. I notice his eyes widen before he takes a step back to get a better look at me. I nervously bite my lip as my hands subconsciously cover up my dick that you could clearly see. His hands reach out to grab my wrists, pulling them away so I wasn't able to cover anything like I wanted to.

"You're so fucking hot," he tells me with lust-filled eyes before he comes closer to me. He wraps his arm around my waist as our lips connect again for a more passionate kiss. His hands roam lower until he's gripping my ass through the lace fabric. I moan against his lips, wrapping my arms around his neck to deepen the kiss.

I let out a squeal when his hands grip the back of my thighs before he picks me up to wrap my legs around his waist. I can feel his boner against the back of my thigh as he slams my back against the wall next to the door. He separates our lips to look down at the shorts that were now bunching up due to the position I was in around his waist. When he looks up at me again, I see that his eyes had darkened to show me how horny he really was. I bit on my lip, trying to look as seductive as I could. "You like it?"

"Do I like it? I love it, baby boy. You're so fucking sexy, I can't even believe that you're mine," he whispers to me as his hands start to play with the waistband of the shorts. He smirks when he sees that I was starting to get hard, it being completely visible to him.

"I love you," I whisper to him before pulling our lips together again. I squeak against his mouth again as he grips my thighs before turning us around so he could lay me back on the bed. When he disconnects our lips, he immediately stands up and pulls pants off. While he works on his shirt, I run my feet over his bare legs, seeing how his body shakes with pleasure from the feel of the lace against his skin. "does that feel good?"

"Mm-hmm," he hums before discarding his shirt to the floor. I sit up on the bed as he comes next to me, playing with the lace shorts again while he leans down to suck on my neck. I knew he was trying to leave a hickey by the force he had against my skin. After a few more seconds of that, he pulls away with a smirk when he sees the work he just did showing. I press a peck to his lips before standing up on my knees in front of him.

"How do you want me?" I ask, motioning to the bed. He smiles against my lips before lightly pushing me away, so he could lay down on his back.

"I want you to ride me," he whispers. I smirk before standing from the bed to grab the lube from the nightstand. I crawl back over to him, quickly pulling down his briefs to let his hard cock loose. He lets out a groan when I squirt some lube on my hands before running it over his boner. Once I knew he was covered enough, I throw the lube to the side before climbing on top of him. His eyes never leave mine as he reaches down to push the lace fabric out of the way before pressing his tip against my bottom. "you ready?"

"Yes, please," I beg before he presses into me while I also slowly sit on his dick, naturally adjusting to his large size. We both let out loud moans as our bodies become one once I sit down fully on him. I could tell that neither of us would last long because of how tired we were and also from how long it's been since we last fucked.

I start to move along his body, loving the pressure that was already starting to build inside my stomach. Julian's hands grab the waistband of the shorts and pull them down, now moving my dick in his hand with the rhythm that I moved up-and-down. I bite my lip as a small whimper leaves my mouth when he hits my prostate constantly. "Faster, baby."

I listen to the man underneath me, rising on my knees at a quicker pace. I rest my hands on his chest, my fingers lightly playing with his nipples as I stare into his eyes. I love the facial expressions he made whenever we fucked because he didn't make many noises like I did, but he was very expressive. Whenever he was close to release, his nose would twitch lightly and he would trap his bottom lip between his teeth.

"Julian," I moan out, continuing to pick up my pace on his cock. When I look down at him, he looks so dazed and happy that I let out a small chuckle. He hears that and smiles up at me, picking up his pace on my cock that was now rock hard and waiting for release.

I let out a screech when he wraps his arms around my waist before flipping us over so he was sitting between my legs. He sets his hands on either side of my head before starting to pound into me hard. All you could hear in the room was the slapping of our bodies together along with my moans that were coming more frequently as I start to come closer to the edge of my release. My cock was out of the shorts, but the lace fabric were trapping my balls and it felt so good as they rubbed together to create a friction. Julian smirks down at me, pinching my nipples between his index finger and thumb.

"Are you gonna come?" He whispers to me, continuing to thrust into me at a super fast pace. He was brushing against my prostate every time, making spots block my vision. I could barely keep my eyes open as my stomach tightens, that fire feeling starting to fill my body.

"Yes, come with me," I pant out, my back arching when we both release together. My seed hits my chest while Julian lets go inside of me, filling me with a warm feeling that made my orgasm more intense. He lets out a low groan, falling onto my chest once his seed was completely inside of me.

"Fuck, Miles," he says against my chest. We lay like that for a few minutes, just breathing heavily as we come down from our highs. Once he had caught his breath again, he sits up to pull out slowly, earning a wince from me as my ass aches painfully. He sighs as he falls next to me, pulling me into the correct position on the bed before grabbing a baby wipe from the nightstand to clean the two of us.

I fix the lace shorts to cover my whole ass and putting my dick back into them, knowing that Julian definitely wouldn't let me take them off now. I could tell he loved them and loved that I was the one wearing them, which made me feel better about having them on in the first place. "Did you have a good birthday?"

He nods his head against my chest as he throws the wipe to the nightstand as he gets comfortable against me. "I had an amazing birthday, beautiful, thank you for everything."

"I love you," I whisper, kissing his temple before closing my eyes as tiredness starts to set into my body. From my orgasm and the long day, I could fall asleep any second, especially with my fiance against my body. He made me feel safe whenever he held me and it was like all my worries just washed away when we were touching and I was so happy.

"I love you," he whispers back before we both fall into a deep sleep together, allowing the darkness to warm us up against one another.