so i recently got a new haircut
and it fucking looks like trash

this morning i had to tell myself "you can work with this liv, i know you can. it will look good and everyone will like it"

i was so fucking wrong

so many people made fun of me today and i had to try and not break down during science today

i fucking hate myself so much

i dont even wanna go to school anymore

i know people are still going to make fun of me

ive been called so many mean names today that it hurts inside to even look at myself anymore

i'm actually crying so much right now

during science some girl yelled "dora!" and pointed at me and began to sing the dora theme song and everyone joined in

i had to laugh along to pretend i was okay

i had to keep my hood up all the time

kids kept trying to pull it down but i'd clutch onto it tighter

people made jokes about how bad it looked and i joined in to make it seem like i actually didnt like it too

i actually really do like it

but because of those kids i hate it

i hate how it looks

i hate how it makes me look

i hate how i look altogether

i thought this haircut would look good and that i would actually feel nice for once

but you know crying in my bathroom alone is fun too