im sorry if i freaked out anyone in the last chapter i posted

i was ranting and just went on and on

and if you guys ever need someone to talk to, im here

and dont worry i wont die, i know it gets better

remember to call 1-800-275-7144 if you feel suicidal or 911 if you harmed yourself or someone around you

heres a little update on my thoughts if you dont read 'diary of a girl in the bathroom' (aka you should read it if you wanna see my old journey with depression):

ive been thinking lately about my funeral and if people would attend

why people like me and why people put up with me

why do you guys like me?

would you guys attend my funeral?