I was going to do it.

        I was going to tell her how I felt. I couldn't take one more recording session with her; whenever we played minecraft we would never directly address one another. The constant tiptoeing and avoiding each other was making me go insane. The only way I could say anything to her was through Trott and Ross, and it made for awkward videos.

        I had spent a lot of time debating over it, whether I should say anything or just stop talking to her all together once the series was over. Trott put up with my emotions, talking me through it when I couldn't think strait. I had told him about the prospect of having a long distance relationship with her, and he was all for supporting me if it meant I would be happy again.

        I had practiced what I was going to say all morning, running it over and over again through my head. I even pondered writing down, but that seemed a bit tactless and emotionless. Even with all the preparation, I was still extremely nervous; my palms were sweating and I couldn't sit still. It took me five minutes just to click on the call button, and the wait for her answer seemed to last a lifetime.

        But her face did eventually appear on screen. She had on an oversized sweatshirt, not mine might I add, and a beanie. Thin tendrils of hair escaped its grasp, and overall she looked pretty disheveled. There were dark circles under her eyes and it was very obvious that she didn't have any make up on.

        "Uh, hey..." I greeted her, suddenly drawing a blank on what I was supposed to say. "You look...tired," I pointed out, trying to stall as I collected my thoughts.

        She looked over at something off screen. "Well, you did wake me up at 6 o'clock on a Sunday," she said, giving me an apologetic smile.

        "Oh, shit sorry," I stammered, feeling my heart sped up. I hadn't even considered the time difference; I couldn't believe how clueless I was being. "I just...I wanted to talk to you about something important..." I sputtered, tripping over my words.

        She scrunched her nose, something I thought was incredibly cute but also very inhabilitating. "How important?" she asked, "Can you give me like half an hour to clean up and shower?"

        No. "Yeah that's fine," I said, wishing I could just admit my love to her now. "Uh, I'll see you in half an hour," I muttered. 

        She jumped up out of her chair. "Thanks Smithy! I'll be right back!" she said from her bent over position, looking as if she was ready to run out. I watched her click something and then the call ended, leaving me in a weird haze. I felt so awkward talking to her after this month or so of avoiding her, and waiting even longer to tell her what I needed to made my nerves much worse.

        It was the longest half an hour of my life. I played a bit of skyrim, went on reddit and twitter, and even tried editing a video, but I couldn't concentrate on anything but the girl across the ocean. I was wound up tight like a spring, feeling as if I would break apart before Amanda ever called back. My stomach was knotting up, and I contemplated going to get something to eat when the Skype notification popped up in the corner of my screen. I nearly fell out of my chair when I heard the ring and saw her profile picture.

        I waited a beat to answer, not wanting to seem eager. "Hey!" she sang, looking a lot better than when I'd last seen her. Her hair was wet and wavy, cascading down her shoulders and occasionally dripped water. She had on a black long sleeved shirt, making her pale skin stand out and her eyes seem brighter. I was mesmerized by her cheery smile as she waited for me to speak.

        I took a deep breath. Amanda, ever since I met you I haven't stopped thinking about you. No one else can compare; you're beautiful, smart, funny, and everything I've ever wanted in a girl. I know you don't want a long distance relationship with me, but I will make this work. I promise that I will never hurt you, and I'll do everything in my power to be the best boyfriend you've ever had, even if we can't be together physically.

        "I like you. A lot," I blurted before I could stop myself.

        Shit...

        She didn't seem surprised by my outburst at all. She bite her bottom lip and looked away from the camera. "I like you a lot too," she sighed.

                The sad look on her face scared me, and I was desperate to explain myself better. "I know you don't want to date someone in another country, but I can't keep these feelings to myself anymore..." I told her, stumbling over my words. "You mean so much to me," I told her quietly.

        Her head snapped back to the screen, and she pierced me with a paralyzing gaze. She had this sad, defeated look on her face, and it did nothing for my hope. I knew this was a bad idea, and I don't know what I was going to do when she rejected me. I wouldn't even be able to think about her, let alone record videos or discuss business affairs.

        I braced myself as she sighed again, knowing but not wanting to hear what was going to be said. "I'm moving to England," she told me.

        That was it. I felt my heart sink with her answer. I couldn't believe I've been pinning for this girl for so long, only for her to reject me agai...

        "Wait, what?" I asked, feeling as if I had misheard her. She couldn't possibly be moving, it was too good to be true.

        "I'm.." she gave me a small smile, "I've started to apply for colleges in England. I haven't gotten many replies but..."

        "That's amazing!" I exclaimed, feeling like I could do a cartwheel or run a marathon right this minute. I was buzzing with the idea of seeing her again, and perhaps for longer than five days this time.

        "I mean," she continued, still with that sad smile painted on her face, "It's not set in stone. I still need a visa and working papers and none of the colleges are near you but..." she trailed

        I didn't care. It meant she would be closer. And if I had to wait and only visit on weekends and holidays for two years like I did with Ross and Trott, then so be it. I wasn't going to skirt around the subject anymore. "Amanda? Will you be my girlfriend?" I asked her, a huge smile spreading across my face.

        Her eyebrows furrowed. "Do you want to take that risk?" she asked, trying not to get her hopes up too quickly. "I don't really know how this is supposed to work," she admitted, "The timezones are annoying and if I can't move there then..."

        "Absolutely," I assured her, feeling light and giddy as I looked at her. A great weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I couldn't be happier. I didn't want to think of all the negatives, like the fact that she might never move here, or that we might not work out because of the seperation. Those were bridges to cross later, for right now all I wanted was to make up for months of aversion.

        "Then I guess it's settled," she said quietly, but then her face split into a genuine grin this time. She blushed and turned away, trying to hide it. She was beautiful, and now she was mine. I heaved a huge sigh of relief and felt myself smiling again.

        I didn't care if we were across the world from each other, and I didn't mind staying up til two in the morning to talk to her. It was such a change from what I was normally like, and I was suddenly hit with this realization. I had never loved a girl as much as this, at least not in the past few years, and I wasn't normally the guy who chased after a girl for months. It was satisfying to know that she wasn't easy and yet I had managed to win her over. Already she was changing me for the better, and I couldn't imagine what I would be like in a few months, let alone a few years.

        She smiled at me. "Do you want to play something?" she asked me after a minute.

        "Sure, Minecraft?" I asked, wanting nothing more than to finally be able to talk to her like a normal person. There was no more speaking through Ross or Trott, and as her laughter filled my headset while we played on her server, just the two of us, it felt as if everything was right with the world.

A/N Hooray! Closure! Sorry it was a bit late...exams and things sometimes take up all my time. Thank you, happy reading!