Fun fact: I now have a friend that I call Peaches. Life = complete.

(What I'm listening to: Fallen Angels -- Black Veil Brides)

~ JM/SS/CW

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"You know I still love you even if you aren't here, right?"

Obviously, there's no response, but I can imagine what she'd say. "Of course, Maya. I still love you, too."

I laugh a little as I look up at the blue sky through the tree branches. It's almost like she's sitting right next to me, but the reality of it is that there's nothing next to me save for her gravestone and a bunch of flowers.

Occasionally, I'll bring Auggie down to the cemetery with me, but I usually go alone. Today, I'm alone, and it's beautiful outside. I can lie in the grass next to the gravestone and talk like it were a normal summer day I was spending with Riley.

My phone suddenly starts ringing, and I answer it without looking at the ID. "Hello?"

"I need to talk to you." Lucas. "It's important, please meet me."

I don't even know what to say to him. It's been forever since we last talked, and now he wants to meet somewhere?

"O-Okay. Where? When?"

He gives me a time and place, and as he talks, I start to regret agreeing to meet him. Suzy may be the main reason for Riley's death, but Lucas still played a vital role in the whole thing by willingly talking to Suzy behind Riley's back.

"Hey, Maya." It feels surreal, almost, talking to Lucas Friar again after so much has happened.

"Hey." I let out a deep sigh, sitting down on a park bench. "So, why did you need to talk to me?"

He sits down next to me, opening his mouth to speak. But instead of words, a small sob escapes his lips. "I want you to know that I didn't want any of this to happen. If I'd have known Suzy was treating Riley the way she was, I swear, I would've done anything to stop her."

"Lucas, you cheated on Riley. And now she's dead because of your stupid mistake --"

"You think I don't know that?! Maya, I was taken to the hospital the day after I found out about Riley because my parents were afraid I was going to commit suicide." He starts crying again. "This is my fault. All of this is my fault."

Angry, he picks up a handful of pebbles and chucks them at a nearby tree. "If I hadn't started meeting Suzy in the first place, then maybe, just maybe..." Another sob. "Maybe I do deserve to die."

"Lucas --"

"I'm the reason your girlfriend is dead, Maya. You must hate me with a passion. Why would you care if I were to kill myself?"

I know he expects an answer, but I don't have one. I have no real reason for not wanting Lucas Friar to commit suicide. But at the same time, I really want him to stay alive.

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Is it acceptable for me to call Greg (aka Onision) adorable?