Do you ever just want to jump off a bridge because me all the time.

(What I'm listening to: Scene One - James Dean & Audrey Hepburn -- Sleeping With Sirens)

~ JM/SS/CW

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Surprised, I give up on eavesdropping and open the door. Cory, Topanga, and Auggie all look up at me. "Hey."

"Sit," Cory says, and I gingerly sit down on the edge of Auggie's bed.

After a few moments of silence, Auggie looks up at Topanga with a questioning look in his eyes. "Mommy, was Riley an angel?"

"An angel? I don't know, sweetie, I doubt --"

"She cut her wrists when she died, right? One of my friends told me that people who cut themselves are angels. Earth is destroying them, so they try to return to heaven. Did Riley return to heaven, Mommy?"

Topanga looks at Cory, who looks at me.

"Yes," I answer him, despite the fact that he wasn't talking to me. "Yes, Riley is in heaven. And she was an angel. A perfect, beautiful angel."

"Good. Mommy, Daddy, leave. I want to talk to Maya." They both look surprised, but stand up and walk out of the room together.

"What is it?" I ask, lying down next to him.

"She told me that she was going to kill herself. She said that she was sad, and that she needed to do it to be happy. I didn't tell anyone because I knew they'd try to stop her, and I wanted her to be happy...." He starts crying, immediately wiping the tears away. Like Riley.

"It's okay, I understand. But I just wish she knew that she could be happy without committing suicide. And that she was making me happy."

"She made you happy?" He rolls over in the bed, hugging me tightly.

"Yup. She was possibly the only thing making me happy." I hadn't told anyone how I'd been feeling lately because they were all focused on Riley. I was afraid that they might think I was looking for attention.

"Are you an angel, Maya?" Auggie asks, letting go of me and sitting up.

People who cut themselves are angels.

"Maybe. I mean, I used to cut myself but I stopped. Do you think that makes me an ex-angel?"

A small smile creeping onto his lips, Auggie nods. "Yeah. I think it does."

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Question: Why do people prefer certain eye colours on guys/girls? It's weird.

I like guys with brown or blue eyes, and girls with green or blue eyes.

Blue eyes will be the death of me.