You know what sucks? Modelling is something I'd like to take up. But there's so much in the way of that:

1. I'm not pretty enough to be a model.

2. I'm not thin enough to be a model.

3. I'm not tall enough to be a model.

4. I can't walk in heels.

~ JM/SS/CW

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After I calm down, Topanga calls the school to tell them I left early, then proceeds to tell me to lie down and rest until Riley gets home.

Crying makes me extremely tired, so I fall asleep almost instantly. As I sleep, I dream of her.

Not just her, but everything about her. It's almost like a daydream, how my mind fills with pictures of her face, and sounds of her laughter.

But the dream changes quickly, to something not-so-daydreamy. Her face, the way it looked when I told her everything. She looked shocked, confused, and afraid all at once. Maybe even a little bit disgusted.

"Maya." It's her voice, again. "Maya, wake up."

I open my eyes, blinking from the sudden light. Once my eyes adjust, Riley's face comes into view. But she doesn't look disgusted -- instead, she's smiling down at me.

Sitting up, I automatically start talking. "I'm sorry, Riley, I --"

"Stop. I want you to listen to me, okay?" I nod. "Don't interrupt, and don't say a word, got it?" Another nod.

"Maya, what you said at school -- about me not liking girls -- that isn't what I was going to say at all. I was going to say that I didn't know how to respond, or what to say. I was so shocked.

"And you know what, I'm sorry."

"You don't --"

"What did I say about interrupting?" I silently apologise, and she continues as if she had never been interrupted. "Because I didn't automatically react to your confession, and the way I did made it seem like I hated you."

Silence.

"Can I ask you something, Maya?"

"Of course."

"Why didn't you ever tell me? You know, that you like girls?"

The dreaded question. "I don't know.... It never came up?" She gives me a look, and I surrender. "Fine. I didn't tell you because I didn't know how you'd react."

"Maya, don't be silly. I'll always love you, no matter what." She hugs me tightly, and I can't help but smile.

I'll always love you too, Riley.