Eren lit a candle as he laid a few petals that Kuchel had gotten him.
"Aw! My son is going to love this! Having you all dolled up and in such a scandalous outfit on the day his rut is supposed to start! Oh I wonder if you'll get pregnant after this!" Kuchel says, she herself is dressed fancy, although it was in a suit and tight skirt for her convient date tonight. Eren sighed. He felt ashamed or doing this. He felt as though he had become so weak and desperate to escape that he played along with Levi's sick fantasy in hopes that one day, he would get the opportunity to escape.
"What do you think, Eren? Having kids?" Kuchel asks. Eren knew she was going to ask this at some point. In fact he had a response ready.
I would want them in the future, just not right now. Then I won't be able to spend one heat with him. Not to mention, we have all the time in the world, we don't have to have kids right now." Eren jokes,faking a chuckle. Kuchel seemed to be surprised at Eren's response.
"My my, Eren~ I never took for you to be the mature type. You almost like a grownup! Oh well, As long as you two have kids before I die, I won't come back to haunt you two~" Kuchel teases. Eren sighs, continuing to make the bed.

...
"I can't believe I'm doing this Kevin! I feel so ashamed! I know its not the first time but I hate the fact that I have to pretend to want this!" Eren cries, as Kevin helps Eren apply lotion and shave his legs.
"I know, i know how it feels Eren, I had tried the same as well. But trust me, it'll all be over eventually. Eventually you can just go back to sleep and have a temporary escape from the pain, thats what I always have and still do tell myself." Kevin assures.
Eren sniffs, he lets Kevin wipe away his tears.
"Thank you. I don't know what I would do without you Kevin." Eren sighs.
...
Eren feels embarrassed as he lays on the bed, waiting for Levi, dressed in lingerie that Kuchel seemed way to eager to buy for him. Eren can't help but feel ashamed. He's sleeping with the alpha who murdered his partners and friends! Eren remembers each and every one of their names. His mind ponders elsewhere as he lies on his prison bed, hoping to escape the moment.
...

"Bert? Bertolt are you there?" Eren asked, knocking on his front door. In Eren's other hand was a bento he had made for Bertolt, since he thought the tall alpha might be sick and unable to go to school today.
Eren waited patiently before he tried the handle. It was surprisingly unlocked which surprised Eren.
"Should I really though? Maybe he's taking a shower? This isn't right!" Eren could feel curiosity getting the better of him as he opened the door. Eren decided then and there to leave the bento in front of the door and shut it behind himself. Eren's nose too overwhelmed with the smell of Bertolt, his poor heart couldn't handle it.
...
Eren became worried the second day that Bertolt neither contacted anyone or even come to school.
As a result, here Eren was, talking to the councilor.
"That's interesting, so neither of your friends have heard from him since the night you had kissed him?"
"Yes. I thought he might have been ill so i made a bento to give to him afterschool, but he didn't answer the door, and the door was unlocked so I left it inside ad closed it. I'm starting to become more worried since I haven't heard from him." Eren explained. The councilor thought for a moment.
"If I am correct you've had experiences with losing loved onesin the past, am I correct?"
"Yes, my first boyfriend, Jean was murdered the day after we got together, my childhood friend Armin killed himself because people were bullying him for having a crush on me, and Reiner..."
"It's alright Eren, I am fully aware of the events that occurred. And I am deeply sorry for not having resolved two of those. However, I do believe that this might be contributing to your paranoia. Perhaps when you kissed Bertolt it made him conflicted to where he chose to hide in his room to try and process things, maybe his rut acted up, either way I will send a police officer to check out the house, I'll be sure to tell you what they say." Eren stood up from his chair.
"Thank you Miss, Zoe. I feel alot better now." Eren flashed the councilor a smile. Although Miss Zoe had once been a very silly and upbeat adult, im the last few weeks she had become more serious. Though her joyful self still shined through when she smiled back at Eren.
... (btw you'd have to see the yan devs newest video to understand)
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Eren cries when he realizes what has happened. Bertolt was killed on his way home from Eren's house. By Levi. Eren feels overwhelmed with guilt. I should've invited Bertolt to stay the night, I should've sent him off before sunset! And now, I am sleeping with Bertolt's killer. Eren pauses, the idea sickens him. His disgust only grows when he hears the door to the basement as it roughly opens.
"Eren~"

To bd continued

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