ARNAV

I kicked the car angrily once I had parked it outside my house, everything was frustrating me so much. First of all, me being stupid and actually planning some stupid things to break Khushi and Aditya up, I mean what had happened to me?

I was never this person, I wasn't this selfish, I dint hurt people so I could make myself happy, in fact that was one of the many reasons I dint get along with my family, they were all so selfish people and I dint want to be like them, but today I had done something really selfish without thinking.

I have no idea what power Khushi had over me, or maybe it was the blood of this family running inside me that no matter how much I tried to be a good person, at the end of the day I ended up being selfish.

And it doesn't end there, I can't believe I got angry on her for kissing Aditya and talked to her like that, she was right, it was her personal life and who was I to judge her, but only if I could tell her, I wasn't judging her, I just hated that she was kissing someone in front of me, it created some sort of fire inside me and I had no control over what I said.

Let's just say this past few days I haven't been myself, because all I did was selfish, finding ways to break Aditya and Khushi up was selfish, hiring a girl to kiss Aditya when Khushi was around was selfish, and even getting angry on her for kissing her boyfriend or ex-boyfriend was selfish, I dint want to be this selfish person but I was becoming him, and I dint know how to stop it.

"Arnav." I heard a voice, I clenched my fists angrily, all I wanted was to be alone right now, I turned and saw my mother walking towards me.

"What's wrong, why are you standing outside here? It's pretty late, you should get inside and sleep." She said.

"Oh so suddenly you care about me?" I folded my arms and looked at her seriously.

"I am your mother Arnav, I will always care about you, why are you so bitter with me, I haven't done anything to hurt you." She looked at me sadly.

"As far as I remember you are only the queen of this palace." I said pointing towards the huge palace.

"So you hate me because I am the queen?"

"I don't hate you mom, I just hate that you are the queen and you are supposed to set an example but the examples you are setting are terrible. Have you ever looked at yourselves and the rest of the family members? Have you ever looked at how they treat Ishani? Why do you all do that? Just because she's your son's wife, she doesn't share the same blood as you? So she's supposed to be treated like a maid.

Tell me mom, tomorrow if I get married does my wife also have to do this? Cook in the kitchen while the rest of you are seated? Oh and serve everyone food and wait for them to eat and then eat after they all are gone?

I mean who the hell made this rules? And why? You sent me, to a great school, you sent all of us, Ayush, Raj, me and Dhruv to huge schools and let us study however much we wanted but on the other hand what about Priya, Payal? They only studied until high school then were trapped into this huge mansion of yours to learn cooking? Why? Because they were girls?

I promise I won't let the same happen with Diya mom, and look at Ishani, how clever she was, all she wanted was to study further but I think she made a mistake of getting married to Ayush because now all she has to be is a housewife, is this what you call a royal family?

Where you can't stop discriminating because of gender? Look at yourself mom, you are a woman yourself, I wonder how you could be like this.

All the people in this house think is about themselves about some stupid reputation they have to maintain and for that they treat all the women here like crap and I am sorry I can't tolerate that." I vented out my anger that I had been holding on to for years now.

This was nothing, this family had a lot of stupid things going on and I dint want to be a part of it, I dint want to be a part of wrong things.

"Arnav." She whispered with tears in her eyes, I stepped closer to her, cupped her face and looked her into the eyes.

"I am sorry mom, I don't hate you, you are my mother, you gave birth to me and I respect you for that, but I can't tolerate this nineteenth century behavior, I just can't." I said as I headed inside and straight to my room.

I sat down on the bed, it was like each and every terrible memory since my childhood was coming up, I wouldn't say I've been a saint, while growing up all I saw was how the men in this house behaved with women in particular and I had almost become like them, for me women were nothing but objects, but once I went to a boarding school, stayed away from this family and got education, my views changed and I realized a lot of terrible things about my family which I had been a part of too.

Since then I changed, I distanced myself from them and promised myself that I wouldn't ever be that person again, but since I met Khushi, I was becoming that person again, I was thinking of her as an object wasn't I? That's why I was trying to control her life, just like every man in my house did, control the lives of their wives!

I dint want to be that person and I promised myself to try harder and never do something terrible like this again.

*****

Once I arrived at work, I headed straight to my cabin, settled down and switched on my computer, and the first thing I did after that was to look at Khushi's pictures.

If I had to be very clear about this, I was falling for this girl, and I had no idea how deeply, all I knew was that I just wanted to see her, be with her, spend my entire freaking day with her, but I also remembered the promise I made to myself, the one of not being selfish.

So I was going to sit here, in my cabin and do my work and let her do her work and I wasn't going to do any of the terrible things I did before today like breaking her and her boyfriend up.

Yeah, what the hell were you thinking Arnav?

A knock at the door disturbed my deep thoughts, I lifted my head up and saw Khushi walk inside my cabin, She was dressed in a black jean and a black top and she looked freaking hot, why did she always look this pretty, no wonder I did stupid and selfish things for her.

"Hey." She smiled at me.

"Hey, did you have a shoot with us today?" I asked.

"No, I don't have any shoot with you until next week I think, that's why I thought I'd pass by and check my schedule with Aman and also check if your mood was okay or you were still grumpy like last night." She giggled as she sat down.

"I am sorry about last night, I was stupid. I dint mean any of it Khushi, I am really sorry." I apologized.

"No, it's fine. Anyway I went to Aman's cabin to talk to him but he wasn't there, might you be having an idea how many shoot I have left? I've got another project and I just want to make sure it doesn't clash. I haven't been keeping the details about this." She pouted.

"Just a moment, I'll check." I smiled as I checked on my files in the computer while she waited patiently.

"You have only two remaining, they would be don't next week, it's on Monday and Wednesday and then you are free after that." I smiled at her once I was done checking it.

I had a strange feeling about this, it was kind of making me sad, all this while, we kept on meeting because we were working together, I would no more have excuse to meet her and that made me really sad.

"Okay, thanks so I'll get going I have work, I'll see you on Monday?" She smiled, I nodded as I stood up and walked with her outside.

"See you." I waved a goodbye at her as she headed inside the elevator and waved a goodbye at me. What was I supposed to do with my life now?

Since she started working with us, my life had started revolving around her, me feeling things for her and doing stuff for her, and by Wednesday, it was all going to be over. I dint even know if we were going to remain friends, if we were still going to hang out or anything.

Maybe I should tell her what I feel towards her, but what if she dint feel that way about me? Obviously Arnav, she dint feel anything towards you, she broke up with her boyfriend just yesterday.

Khushi! Khushi! Khushi! This girl was driving me crazy. I had never even thought once before approaching any girl, but with Khushi, it was different, I was actually scared, I was worried what was going to happen, I mean she was the top model, she was so gorgeous, she had everything, why would she like me?

I wished she could, but you know those crazy thoughts we all have about the person we have a crush on? Yeah, that was exactly my situation at the moment.