Dear mine,

How are you? Did you cry last night when we fought? Because i was worried when i heard your voice cracking.

  I couldnt sleep. Not only because i was worried but i was actually mad at you! You lied to me about the whole thing and i was stressing about it. I wanted to make you happy. I wanted to show you that you really matter to me though i didnt know how.

So when i came to you that day to fix things and you told me how sad you were and how you didnt accept me fixing the mess. I tryied hard to stay still, strong as ever. But when i knew that it was a lie !!! After me struggling to pull my self up!! Because i knew i didnt want to loose you!

That was the only thing i couldnt hold. I mean why would you do this ? You know how much i hate such things. You know as well that it isnt easy for me. And that i am not the type that trusts easily but you still try to break the trust after it formed.

The biggest and the saddest problem is that, i still do trust you! Even after all the fights after the many times i was completely broken. I still cant toss you away! I just cant.

So when i come back to talk to you normally. When i hold my self and look strong and unbreakable. It doesnt mean that i am heartless, like you once said and i stll remember how disappointed i was, it doesnt mean that i have no feelings or that i dont secretly cry on all the harsh words i sometimes get from you side. I am still positive that maybe, just maybe things will come back to normall one day!

So remember i am only strong so that i will not loose you ! I know its hard but the other way is harder. Stay safe.

Sincerely,

Me