Hai guys, I hope you don't get confused. This is gonna be the prologue , I don't really know how else to continue this. I am sorry if you guys are disappointed, I still hope you enjoy. I just thought it would get boring if I typed almost the same stuff for each chapter, so this is the end. Again, I hope you enjoy and please review ^_^ 

TRIGGER WARNING

Mikey sets up the  video camera and turns it on, as he sits on his bed. He turns it on,  "Hi Sarah..." he starts off. He runs a hand down his face and leans his head back and sighs. He looks back into the camera, "I don't want to do this anymore." 

Mikey pauses the recording why is he even doing this? Is it even helping him? He doesn't know at this point. His brothers still don't know about him talking to a camera to tell his feelings, he doesn't do anything with the videos he just keeps them on the camera. It makes him feel like he is actually talking to someone, that is why he named it 'Sarah'. He tries to ignore the feeling of everyone and everything that is against him whilst he talks. 

The turtle starts the recording again, why should he care what others thinks? "This is what happened," Mikey starts off. "I was trying to act happy, you know the norm, and I was trying to prank the others. Trying to have them take there anger out on me, instead of on themselves. I know how that goes... Just being angry with yourself all the time." He looks down at his lap and pauses, he takes a deep breath. He looks back up and smiles shakily, "I am just trying to make the others happy." His voice cracks, "I do whatever I can so they are happy, I don't care if I am or not. But I want them to be." He starts fake laughing, "But they can't see that I am trying my hardest!" Mikey's voice gets louder at the end.

"I just want them to at least try to appreciate what I do..." He trails off staring into the camera. You can see the dullness of his eyes in the little bit of light. The baby blues orbs, were not as bright and cheerful. They held secrets and pain and heart break. You could see his spirit screaming and begging for help through the windows that were his eyes.

A slight smile reached Mikey's lips, "It is okay though because I will do anything for them. I love them so much." He looks away smiling and then looks back, "And that is why I am gonna do one last favor for them." The orange bandanna-ed turtle stood up and went out of frame for a few minutes. The camera turned to the place Mikey aimed it at. It showed a chair, and a rope hanging from the ceiling. Mikeys face suddenly appeared in front of the camera, his face close up as he adjusted it. He moved back and made sure it was angled right.

The young turtle climbed up onto the chair and stood up, and put the noose around his neck. "Bros..." He swallowed the lump in his throat. "Bros, I love you all so much. So if you ever watch this, I want you to know I did this for you. I love you all. I love you Leo for being so strong and for being a great big brother. Thank you for guiding me through the things that scared me. I love you too Raph, thank you for protecting me. Please continue doing that for the others. Donnie, I love you too because of how smart you are. Continue using that big brain of yours. Don't doubt your intelligence ever, you have nothing to worry about. And last but not least," He paused as he was choking up and tears rolled down his face, "Master Splinter... Father... I love you so so so much. Thank you for training me and the others. It was the only thing I was decent at, not including me being able to play video games." Mikey chuckles sadly. "I guess that's it. I love you all. Never stop being you. I am happy that I knew you and I just want you to be happy, so this is from me to you..." He stepped on his tiipy toes and tied to the nose tighter. He lifted one foot off the chair, "Bye guys." And he stepped off. 

Michelangelo Hamato, the one that everyone thought was happy, and look how right they are now.