Music is all of the emotions I let build up; it's the anger of heartbreak or someone daring to underestimate me. It's the sadness of losing someone I love or a haunting memory stuck on repeat. It's the familiarity of the feeling I get when a certain name is said or whenever I lock eyes with the person I yearn for. It's the sickness of seeing them with someone else or a bad decision that leaves me numb.
There is always at least one lyric I find myself relating to. Whether it's about the way a guy looks at a girl or not being able to accept the harsh truth or feeling guilty over a mistake that was made, there is always something that resonates within me, deeper than the mainstream beat or the emotion pouring out through words. How can one song manage to make me feel every single emotion at one time?
I find myself getting lost in the lyrics, being taken back to a time where there wasn't a care in the world. What comes next is the flashbacks of the relentless unspoken frustration that we could never seem to lift off of our chests. I go back to the sadness trapped within your crystal eyes when we decided it was over but that we would eventually be okay again. And oh how the lyrics bring back the anger that coursed through my veins as well as the nauseousness building up in my throat at the sight of her hand wrapped up in yours and the smiles on both of your faces. I feel every emotion at once, reliving a part of my life that I hardly ever speak of. It's always been too painful to remember.
Four minutes of sounds that imitate heartbeats, humming, and laughter; four minutes of such honest lyrics brings me back to a place that I never wished to revisit, yet now as I sit here, music is making me feel one last emotion that I have never experienced until now: closure.
C.V.
a/n: i don't know if i like this one or not but i hope you liked it! thank you for reading :)