To: Kael

From: Michael Bell

Hey! Honestly, it feels so odd to be speaking to a fictitious person created by me, which isn't considered healthy by psychologists but there isn't a thing I can do. It seems that everytime I write to you is to express my daily things but just so you'll know, this is exactly for that. Five years have passed. I honestly feel horrible for not writing but there's nary a thing yet again I could've done.

After that day when I wrote to you that last letter, my Pappa almost threw me out of the house. Yes, as you heard it, at least it was in his intentions.

Here's what happened: Momma and Pappa picked me up from school and I decided to speak to them of some news I was terribly excited for. When I told Momma and Pappa on the car on our way home that the Director of my school offered me to tutor some kids that were older than me at his university. I took a test he gave me and I passed it with a 100% A+. The director seemed awefully surprised and excited and told me to ask my parents if I could tutor them and that the Director himself would take me there and offer food. Momma and Pappa didn't say a word until we got home.

When we did, Pappa dragged me home to our house by the.collar of my shirt and pushed me hard to the wall while he yelled. 'You think you're smarter than us? Huh? Just because that faggot Director asked you to tutor college kids? Well, guess what? You're not. You're just a stupid fu*king kid who thinks he's smarter than us all but isn't. You weren't suppose to be born. If it weren't for your mother,'

'Stop!' Momma schrieked. I thought she was going to deffend me but she actually didn't. 'Stop yelling Chad. And you,' Momma said disgusted pointing at me. 'You were a disgrace to me. You weren't meant to be born. I don't even know why I'm trying to be such a good mother. I'm tired of you being such a stuck-up bratty kid. We don't want you here and never did.'

My heart felt as if it had been sqeezed like an orange and broken in two. I couldn't breathe, nor speak nor move. Just start heaving and trying to no avail not to cry but tears miserably fell and Momma and Pappa just laughed viscously and left. I panicked and ran outside as fast as I could to anywhere far away from there. Was this a nightmare? I hoped so, but it was only the beginning...

Momma started drinking and drinking herself so much somehow she had a stroke and I was left with my father. Things got worse and he hit me everyday with his belt for fifteen times. If I didn't say anything I had 15 hits with a belt all around my body but if I said something or he was in a bad mood he kept hitting me until he said so. (His bad moods were everyday)

He almost killed me 10 times but unfortunately I was alive. And in all this time I isolated myself from everyone and although I did get all A's in classes I just slept and took tests, acing them all. Life was horrible. Unimaginable.

There was only one person I trusted and he swore to do something about this in my situation but I forbade him to and that person was my school Director. He was like a father to me and he was my best friend.

There was this new girl by the name of Esmeralda Mia and she always tried speaking to me but I ignored her. Before, I wished for this, a girl like her for a friend but in that time, I sure as Hell didn't want to. She was beautiful with her long auburn hair, tanned complexion and green eyes. Her height was more shorter than mine given to my 5'9 and her 5'2. She was also very sweet, super smart and unique in her own way. I could've liked her but honestly, I couldn't. I was way too drained from life.

Everything of my existence was a mistake and a failure. I wasn't worthy of anyone. Especially to the angel, Esmeralda Mia. So on fourth grade I tried to vanish my existence. Nobody will miss me. I was at the edge of a cliff about to jump. I extended my arms out and felt the cold breeze engulf me. I smiled and just as I was about to jump an angry voice yelled. 'Stop!' And that was how to this day Esmeralda Mia has saved my life and become my best friend. Gotta go!

                                                                                                                                          -Farewell Kael!

(16 of June, 2007)