Song: Locked Away by R. City
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"Okay...you remember anything new?"

"No, but I do taste the color purple."

Matt and I groaned.

"Well, that was spell number 137 failed. Let's try the next." Matt began to skip through more pages of his spell book.
All day long, Matt has been trying to find a spell to get Sparklez memory back. So far we've electrocuted him, turned various parts of his body green, and now he's tasting colors. We have not found a successful spell yet.

"Can we take a break? I think this green stuff is giving me a rash." He held up his arm, and it was covered in green goo.

"Yes go wash up and eat something, I'll try to search for more spells..." Matt murmured as he flipped pages.

Sparklez hopped off his stool and went into the bathroom to clean up. Matt sighed as soon as he left the room.
"I am beginning to doubt myself...these spells are so ancient and unstable. I haven't used them in centuries..."

"No don't give up. I'm sure there's something." There's gotta be something. I can't lose him.

"I know there is a spell somewhere in this mess but...I cannot find it. We used it ages ago when Botan first began his attacks. This poor young girl, Annabelle was her name, lost her memories of her family and friends. She was a blood soldier of Mianite and she was loyal, always ready to fight whatever harmed her god. She became so weak and fragile after she lost her memory. We managed to help her get them back, but she never became a soldier again. And then we began noticing even more attacks. Some humans were even killing themselves because they were so tortured by the horrible things he was casting on them. He was like a disease. We tried so hard to protect the humans..." he sighed sadly. "We just couldn't save them all."

My stomach dropped.

"What...other things was he doing to the humans?" I could feel myself getting sick.

"It was really horrific. He would torture them with his voice inside of their minds, constantly making them feel negative emotion. He would cause them to hallucinate, betray their families, murder the innocent. It was frightening how so many strong devote followers went insane. It took us so long to rid him from this world. And now he has returned...and he's already continuing his work."

"But you can get rid of him again, can't you? You did before."

"...I'm not so sure. Before we had two other gods on our side and we were all much younger. Now...everyone has gone their own ways. We are much weaker. I believe the only way we can defeat him now is if we have help from the champions and the followers of the gods. But now Botan has wiped out the strongest champion of them all."

Woah woah woah. Back the truck up. Strongest? Sparklez couldn't beat up a guy in a bar fight.

"Dude, Sparklez is not the strongest champion," I laughed. "If anything, it's gotta be Martha. She's the one who got the goddess powers."

"No, Jordan is the strongest. Ianite gave most of her power to him. I could practically feel it radiating off of him when I first met him. He was powerful and he still is, but he doesn't know how to control his powers. If we can get him trained, he could kill an entire army of men with just the wave of a hand."

"Is...is is possible for him to heal people too?" I didn't want to tell anyone about what happened the day of the party. When he healed that butterfly, and we both promised not to tell anyone and forget that it ever happened. But should I tell Matt about it?

"I doubt it would be possible, but I have seen a champion do that before. It was a very long time ago and-...I found it!" he exclaimed and pointed at an old scripture in the book.

"You did?! Will it work?!" Oh please god let it work! I want my Sparklez back!

"Yes! It's worked many times before and it never failed to...wait." His smile fell as he looked off towards the hallway where Jordan disappeared moments ago. "Tom, are you sure you want him back to normal?"

"What? Of course I am! I want him to remember me!" I wanted to scream at him get on with it. I don't want to waste another moment without my husband.

"But...he seems so much happier not knowing anything. Do you want him to go back to the way he was before? He seemed sort of miserable all the time."

I hadn't thought about that. He did act a lot happier like this. He was goofier and more energetic. Before he was so uninterested in anything. He didn't like to go outside. He wasn't eating as much as I wanted him to.
But at least he actually knew about his life and where he stood before he lost his memory. Now he just acts so confused and weirded out by everything. He's uncomfortable all the time.

This is a tough decision.

"I don't even know," I answered exasperated.

"It is a very difficult decision. Take some time if you need it."

"But I don't want to wait for him. I want to be with him and be happy again but...I don't know if he was happy before. What if he gets his memory back and he hates me because I made him remember all of the horrible things that have happened to him? This is so damn confusing."

"What if you ask him?" Matt said quietly.

"Ask him?"

"Yes, ask him. If he'd like to go back to remembering you and all of his friends. Or would he rather stay as he is and not have to deal with his losses."

Sparklez entered at the worst time possible. He was drying off his arm with a towel. "I got it all off, but it still turned half of my arm green. I hope thats not-...did I interrupt something?" He raised an eyebrow at us.

Matt spoke first. "We found the spell to give you your memory back, but Tom would like to ask you a question before we do anything."

Dangit. He made me ask him.

"Okay. What's the question?" Sparklez asked me.

"...do you want to go back to being yourself? I miss you and I want you to remember our marriage but...if you don't want to deal with all of the crap you went through when you still had memory, then I understand. It's up to you. It's your life." God that hurt so much. I don't want him to choose. I want him to be with me and remember our love.

He furrowed his eyebrows and frowned. "I'm not gonna abandon you Tom. I want to go back to how I was. I'm sure it sucked dealing with everything, but I still had people who loved me at least. Go ahead and do the spell." He smiled affectionately at me.

I let out a huge breath. "Oh thank god. I love you so damn much."

"Okay then. Let's get on with this spell. Are you ready Jordan?" Matt raised up his book and his hand in preparation.
Jordan nodded. "I'm ready."

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"I DIDNT KNOW HE WAS GOING TO PASS OUT!"

"DONT YOU REMEMBER HOW MANY HUMANS DIED FROM THIS SPELL YOU TWIT!"

"STOP YELLING, THIS SOLVES NOTHING! FOCUS ON THE BLEEDING HUMAN!"

"Fine! Where's the damn doctor in this town? He's bound to have a concussion..." Tom murmured unhappily.
I didn't know what to do. Matt cast the spell on him, and he just fell over and started bleeding out of his nose and ears. I dabbed at the dark crimson blood spilling from his mouth as the wizards talked. Matt called them over to see what went wrong. Apparently the death percentage of this spell is 75%. Which meant there was a huge chance that he could have died right when Matt did the spell. But Matt didn't know because Matt never casted the spells, Tom was the one who did it.

I am so freaking furious.

"You never cared to tell me you weren't the one who did the spells?" I growled.

"I didn't think it mattered!" Matt shouted. "None of you ever told me that some of the champions died!"

"We never told you because we didn't want to scare you! Why do you think we didn't allow you to go on missions with us?!" Phil asked angrily.

"I just thought I was weak and a bother to all of you! Thats what I've always thought! I didn't know...I thought I could do it on my own. I am so sorry Tom..."

I propped Sparklez head further up on my lap. It's been a whole damn twenty minutes, when is this bleeding gonna stop? Why can't things just go right for once in my life and his?

"Let's just go to Decs. The bleeding won't stop and he won't wake up."
I scooped him up into my arms and carried him out of my house, while the wizards silently followed behind. I'm surprised they stopped arguing. They hadn't stopped since Phil and Tom got here.

I flew off in the direction of Decs place, ever so often looking at Sparklez peaceful face.
"I'm sorry so much shit happens to you," I whispered.

~

"Well the good news is that the bleeding has stopped," Dec stated as he hooked an IV to Sparklez arm. "The bad news is he does indeed have a concussion."

"And the even worse news is that he isn't waking up and if he doesn't wake up soon he'll probably go into a coma. Just saying." Champ coughed awkwardly.

I groaned loudly and buried my face in Sparklez shoulder. I was laying beside him in his bed holding his hand. I don't want to let go of him, because then I won't be able to feel his pulse and I won't know if he's alive. Plus...I haven't been able to cuddle with him in the last few days...and this is the closest I can get.

"Oh Tom I'm so sorry...I've ruined your life." Matt covered his face with his hands and wept.

Phil wrapped an arm around his brother. "Matt don't cry, you didn't mean to do this. You were only trying to help."

"No I've killed poor Jordan and I've made everything worse..." he cried.

"You didn't kill Jordan, he is only sleeping. And you didn't make things worse. There is a chance he might have gained his memory back after all of this. Don't worry yourself to death about it Matty." Tom patted Matt on the back.

"Yeah I mean he's probably not gonna die, so no need to get all messed up about it." Champ chimed in. Everyone sent him angry glares from across the room, and he raised his hands up in defense. "Just saying."

Dec cleared his throat and brought our attention aback to him. "Well Tom, is there anything we can do to help the situation? Or would you rather be alone?"

"I'd rather be alone to be honest. Thanks for the help though guys. You're the best doctors in the realm." I smiled at Champ and Dec, and they both nodded modestly.

"Okay. Tell us if you need anything dude. We'll be right across the hall." Champ opened the door and let the others out, and then closed it behind him.

And then I was all alone with Sparklez.

I moved closer to him and cuddled into his neck. For the first time in these last horrible and brutal days, I actually felt comforted. That stupid fight in that bar was brutal on me. I tried being enthusiastic about it towards Sparklez, but god I'm aching all over and my nose hurts so damn much. I wanted him to hold me in our bed and tell me he loved me over and over again until I fell asleep. But he did help me in a way I guess. I was drunk off my mind and I was yelling profanities at him, and he helped me. I guess even with his memory gone, he still loves me deep down.

"Tom..." I heard him whisper. I didn't jump up and yell or rejoice about him waking up, I just smiled because I didn't want to move from where I was.

"I'm here." Does he remember? Does he love me again?

"I had...the weirdest dream."

I laughed into his shoulder and he laughed too.

"Really it was so weird. It was like I lost my memory and I didn't remember you that much and it was so sad...wait, where are we? Ow, why does my head hurt?" I heard him wince as he tried to get up.

"Ill tell you later. Right now you need to do one thing and one thing only."

He turned over and faced me, a confused smile on his lips. "What's that?"

"Kiss me." I brushed a thumb over his cute stubble.

"Okay then," he laughed. I eagerly pressed my lips to his soft ones, and once again I was reunited with my husband. The one that loves me without a doubt and won't stop loving me until the day I die.

I hope that day isn't for awhile.
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I need a bucket of chocolate, a shower, and amazingphil's videos in my life. I also need a friend to hug me and genuinely say, "its gonna be okay and your life isn't over and you aren't a horrible person." That would be great right now. *sniffle*

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- Lee