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Toms p.o.v.

"Ughhh why couldn't you go first?" I asked Mot, who was grinning like a sly ass beside the stage.

"Cuz you lost Rock Paper Scissors. Go ahead Tommy, make your move." He gestured towards the row of levers in front of me. I suck at this game. Why did I agree to play it again? Last time was a disaster.

I tapped my chin in thought as I stared at the levers. I don't understand why he's so good at this game. Sometimes I think he cheats, but I can never call him out because I didn't have any proof.

"I can't believe you're playing this again." I heard Sparklez groan from the bench nearby. Ianita was picking flowers beside the bench and she had made Sparklez a flower crown. It was freaking adorable. And did I mention he looks extremely sexy in flower crowns?

I shushed him. "Shush, I'm focusing. I have to beat his ass."

"Don't curse in front of Ianita..." He muttered. Protective sausage. I wish he was that protective around me.

"Yeah yeah. God I can't pick! Help me, you sausage!"

"Um, I don't really know how. Just er, look into your heart and maybe you'll see-"

"I don't have a heart." I interrupted him.

"Oh. Then just...pick a number between one and five." He scratched the back of his neck awkwardly.

"Three." I chose randomly.

"Then pull the third one." He advised. I watched Mot take a step back and Sparklez pick up Ianita to walk somewhere safer.

Here goes nothing.

I grabbed the third level and pulled it down. I actually chose right? Awesome!

Just as I was about to rub it in Mots face, I heard a small click.

"Oh shi-"

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"You are never playing that stupid game again. It just gets you hurt." Sparklez pressed the bandage harder on my cut and I winced.

"Hey, easy. That stings. And I can't help that the game is fun." From the blast hitting me so hard, I got several cuts on my face and neck. Everything else was fine. I don't understand why he's being so uptight about it.

"You think almost getting your face blown off is fun?" He asked in disbelief. He practically slapped the next bandage on my forehead and I squeaked.

"Stop abusing me! I think you keep forgetting I'm a Dianitee...I like having my face almost blown off. I know you like safety and peace and all of that hippie junk, but I'm not like you. I like danger. It's what I live for."

He sighed and put down the bandages he was holding. "I'm sorry. I just worry, you know? I like having a husband whose face isn't crispy."

I laughed and ruffled his hair. "Don't worry, I won't be getting crispy anytime soon. I'll stop playing the game if you want me to."

"Thank you." He pecked my lips and gave me a hug, which I returned back.

I like seeing my sausage happy.

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The more Sparklez spent time with Ianita, the more jealous I became. It wasn't something I had control of. I knew she was just a little girl and she had no intention of taking Sparklez away for me, but I couldn't help but hate her.

Every single action I made, Sparklez would scold me and say something about not doing it in front of Ianita. I missed my husband and his puns and his sweet geeky nerdiness. And sometimes when I laid awake at night in my thoughts, I would begin to wonder if this is what it's like to be a parent. Always being hateful towards eachother. Never being able to kiss or hug or do anything in front of your kid. Wishing everything was how it use to be.

I miss my Jordan.

I stared at him and her as they slept. He had a protective arm over her body and she was cuddled next to him. I didn't even realize I was crying until I felt wetness on my pillow. I really did miss him. My tears proved it.

I saw Sparklez eyes open suddenly and they immediately went to me. I turned over quickly and wiped away the tears. He didn't see me, did he?

"Tom what's wrong?" He whispered. I didn't respond. It would be selfish to say I was jealous of his love for his daughter. It would be selfish to say that I hated his daughter for existing.

"Tom why are you crying? Was it a nightmare?" He put a hand on my shoulder, but I shrugged it away.
It was a nightmare. This whole thing was a nightmare. My husband had a daughter with someone else and he loved her more than he loved me.

"Tom say something. I'm sure I can help whatever it is."

Really? Could you maybe delete your daughter from existence? Yeah, didn't think so.

"I'm gonna go walk...I'll be back later..." I pulled back the covers and began to get to leave.

"Okay...come back soon." He called to me quietly. I slipped on a shirt and left out the door. He doesn't care. He just wants his kid to sleep.

I walked by the shed and picked up a sword and a bow. I might as well kill some mobs if I'm gonna go out here and sulk all night. I headed off towards Sonja's place where the forest was. Most mobs spawned there because it was dark.

I passed the towers as I walked by. They were practically abandoned now that Sparklez spent most of his time at my tree and now that guard Tom was gone, no one took care of the place all that much anymore. He disappeared awhile back a week or two after Ianite left. I was still wondering what happened to the dude. He just up and vanished.

I walked down the bright colored stones that led to Sonja's house. Why I was going to Sonja's, I didn't know. Maybe it's because she usually knows what to do in these situations and I really needed her advice.

I raised a fist to the door and knocked a few times. I hoped she wasn't asleep. I really needed a friend right now.

The lights in her house turned on and a few moments later, the door swung open. She was wearing pajamas, but she didn't look at all like she had been sleeping. She smiled as a greeting when she saw me. "Hey, what are you doing up this late? Thought you were babysitting with your husband."

"That's what I wanted to talk to you about. Can I come in?" The inside of her house smelled like warm cookies. It made me instantly feel a thousand times better.

"Sure. I've got cookies baking if you want some." She opened the door wider so I could come in. I stepped in and took a seat on her huge pink couch. She disappeared into the kitchen and returned back later with a tray full of fresh chocolate chip cookies. She placed them on the table and sat down next to me.

"Okay, so what's up?" She bit into a cookie as she talked.

"So...you know how Sparklez has a kid now?" I took a cookie too.

"Yeah. What about the kid?"

It was gonna be really hard to say this without sounding like a selfish jerk. "He loves her so much. He spends every minute of every day with her..."

"And you miss him?" She finished my thought.

"Yeah but it's more than that...I hate that kid. I can't help it. The fact that she's Sparklez and Ianite's kid just makes me angry. I feel bad that I hate her so much but what can I do? The more Sparklez is with her the more jealous I get..."

I sounded so selfish I was actually ashamed of myself. I shouldn't be angry that Sparklez is finally happy.

"Okay let's try to sort this out. Have you told Sparklez this?" She sat down her half eaten cookie so she could talk to me.

"No. He would probably yell at me or something. That's all he's been doing lately."

"First of all, you need to tell him you miss him. Second, he needs to chill with the yelling. Don't tell him how much you don't like Ianita. You gotta understand Tom, she's his daughter. He wants to protect and love her because she already has a screwed up life. Her mother left her to die and Jordan is all she has left. He wants to be that protective father he never got to be."

"I understand that, I do. But wouldn't you be slightly angry if Tucker had a kid with someone else and loved that kid more than you?" I remembered when I asked Sparklez that question.

She thought on it for a moment and shrugged her shoulders. "Yeah I guess I would be pretty pissed. Especially since he hates children." She laughed and I did too. I knew for a fact that Tucker hated kids. He never did like Decs niece when I had her around. He'd complain about her always being with me.

"But if he loved the kid a lot, I guess I wouldn't mind all that much. If he loved it more than me, then there'd be a problem. I think I see your issue now." She agreed.

"Then what do I do? Compete with a kid for my place as Sparklez favorite?" I knew he would choose her over me anyday. He said so when I first found out about her.

"No, you can't compete with a little girl that cute. You'd lose. What I suggest, which isn't an extremely helpful idea, is making Jordan jealous somehow. Do you have a bond with someone else that he doesn't?"

I thought on it for a bit. Who else did I love enough to make him jealous?

Tiff.

"Tiff! I could hang out with Tiff and Lola! Wait, do you think he'd get jealous from that?"

"Probably. I'd give it a try. And if that doesn't work, you always have my boyfriend to go to." She snickered.

"Yeah, that salt shaker." I rolled my eyes.

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"TOMMY!" Tiff screamed when she saw me at the door. Lola ducked out of the way so she could tackle me to the ground. Oh boy.

"I missed you! I missed you! Whatcha doin here?" She asked as she sat on my lungs. I tried to answer but I couldn't breathe.

"Oh! Sorry." She snickered. She stood up from my chest and yanked me up with the force of a freaking gorilla.

"Gods T you're like a body builder..." I bent over to take a breath.

"Try cuddling with her. It's like getting a hug from a wrestler." Lola rolled her eyes and shut the door back. They lived in Steve's old house now. Steve told them they could stay in cherry farms 2.0 until they wanted to go back to Urulu since he was off on another mission in the outback. No one really knew where he disappeared off to now. Martha had been spending every moment of every day at Wags place, so she didn't know either. I'd have to check on Steve sometime.

"So whatcha doin here Tommy? Are you here to see Nicky?" She raced over to the baby crib sitting in the middle of the living room.

"Aye! I haven't seen him in ages. Let me see him." I walked over to the crib where she was trying to get him out. She gently picked him up from the crib and handed him over to me. He started to cry a little, but stopped when I started rocking him. I missed this kid.

"Aw he loves you Tom." Lola laughed.

"Least someone loves me around here..." I sighed. Nicky raised a small chubby arm to my face and touched my cheek. I chuckled and held his little arm. I loved this kid. This was a kid I could learn to love and care for.

"What's wrong? You and Jordan at it again?" Lola asked worriedly.

"It's complicated. I think he's starting to love someone else more than he loves me." Although Sonja's words were encouraging, I still couldn't get over my anger towards that kid.

"Nah he loves you more than anything Tom. He wouldn't love somebody more than you. Even if that somebody is his daughter." She smiled knowingly. They knew who I was referring to.

"Yeah, I love my Nicky but I love my Lola just as much. I think Sparklez feels the same way Tommy. He loves you and his baby equally." Tiff gave me a pat on the back.

Maybe they were right.

"What if I don't like his daughter? Am I a terrible person for that? I've always wanted a kid that was ours...it's different if it's just his. I don't love her like he does."

"You're not a terrible person. I don't suppose you have to be completely head over heels in love with your step child, but at least try to like her enough to be around her. I think Jordan would understand if you didn't completely love her."

I need Lola and Tiffs advice full time. They were like actual therapist.

"I just feel like I can't raise a kid that isn't mine. It just doesn't feel right. I'm good with kids and I love em all to death...I just can't take care of her."

"And why do you think that? Why doesn't it feel right?" T asked. She sat down on the couch and patted the seat next to her, so I sat down too.

"I don't know...I feel sort of betrayed. He said he didn't sleep with Ianite and nothing ever happened between them but...how else would this kid have been born? I just feel like he cheated on me and it hurts."

"Have you ever told him that?" Lola inquired.

I shook my head. How could I tell him that? He'd get so upset.

"Then you should. Tell him you can't love Ianita because you feel like he cheated on you and made her." It sounded so simple coming from Lola's mouth, but it really wasn't. He was sensitive and I knew he'd get upset if I told him that.

"I can't. He'd get upset. When that happens, we always get into a fight and I can't take that right now. I just got him back."

"Would it be better if we were here when you told him?" Tiff asked me. I shrugged my shoulders. I guess that would help.

Lola pulled out her cellphone from her pocket. "Then let's call him over."

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Lola said Sparklez agreed to come over as soon as he dropped Ianita off at Mots place. I was nervous. This could either end in yelling or hugging, and I was ninety nine percent sure it would end the first way. I already had planned what I wanted to say in my head. I just need to spit the words out when he came by.

The doorbell rang and Lola got up from the couch to answer it. I gulped. Please Dianite let this end on a good note.

"It's okay Tommy. You can do it." T gave me a hug.

I sighed and hugged her back. "I hope so."

A few seconds later, Sparklez entered the room with Lola following behind. I didn't make eye contact with him. I was terrified of the look I would receive when I confessed to him. He sat down on the other couch. We all sat in silence for awhile.

"So...Lola said you wanted to say something important?" He broke the awkwardness.

I tried to open my mouth, but it remained glued shut. I was gripping my hands together so tightly I could feel my bones popping.

"Tom wanted to admit something, didn't you Tom?" Lola tried to help me. I kept trying to swallow a huge lump in my throat but it wouldn't go down. It was fear, I realized.

"Tommy, spit it out." Lola slapped me hard on the back, and suddenly all the words came tumbling out.

"I don't love Ianita! I feel like you cheated on me to make her and I can't like her because of that! It hurts to know that you had kid with someone else before you had one with me! And it hurts even worse when you yell at me because I'm being myself and it's not like I can help that...I'm a Dianitee and I'm your husband. I don't care if you take care of her, I don't. But I want you to know it hurts when you don't even treat me like your husband. It hurts when you love someone else more than you love me."

There was a long silence after that, and then a sigh broke it. "Tom...I already told you I didn't cheat on you. And I already told you I'm raising Ianita, with or without you. So if you can't be around her while I'm taking care of her, then maybe you should go somewhere else. I made a promise to her and I'm going to keep it, even if that means leaving you out of the picture."

I would have preferred the yelling.
I would have preferred him screaming on my face and telling me I'm a selfish jerk over this. I feel like he just broke me. He broke everything we ever worked for. All the times I protected him and he protected me. All those times we said we loved each other and we promised to never break apart. He just said it himself. He'll choose her over me.

Lola coughed. "Jordan I think that was a little harsh..."

I felt a hand go around mine.

"Tommy? Are you okay?"

I couldn't take it. He loves her more than me, his own husband. He always will. I could already feel tears running down my cheeks. I let out one sob, before I stood up and ran out. I could hear Lola and Tiff calling after me when I ran out the door.

I didn't know where I was going. I just knew I needed to get as far away from him as possible.

I hate that little girl. I hate Ianite. I hate the gods. I hate myself. I wish I was still in the land of Mianite. I wish I was still Dianites number one champion and Tony and Josh and Nade all looked up to me. I miss the chaos. I miss the purges. I miss hating Sparklez with every inch of my being. I miss hating everything and devoting my entire life to Dianite.

I stopped running for a second to catch my breath. I looked to see where I was. I was at Sonja's house. Did my mind just take me here without me even knowing? I guess so.

I knocked on the door and waited while my tears continued to drip down my cheeks. What do I tell her? I came here to cry and whine about being rejected?

The door opened, but it wasn't Sonja who answered it. Tucker stood in the doorway looking exhausted as hell. He squinted when he saw me and made a confused face. "Tom? What are you doing here? It's like eight in the morning dude. Go to bed." He yawned.

"W-Where's Sonja?" I forced out through a sob. She's the only one who can help me. She's the only one who won't diss me about whining.

"She's at Wags getting potions. Wait...are you crying?" He squinted again and stepped closer.
I stepped back and looked down so he wouldn't see my face.

"No...I'll just come back later." I turned to leave when I felt him grab my arm.

"Get in here. You've got no where else to go, do you?" He pulled me inside and shut the door behind him. I didn't really know what to say to him. He didn't get what was going on so he wouldn't understand why I was crying.

"Look, I'm smart enough to know now that its always Jordan who makes you like this. What'd he do?" He crossed his arms and narrowed his eyes at me.
I need to tell someone. Anyone. Even if it's him.

"He chose her over me!" I bawled. I covered my face with my hands and let the tears flow.

"Damnit Tom..." He growled. He pulled me in for a hug and I took it. I bawled into his shoulder like a bitch. I couldn't help it. I was hurt.

"He loves her more than me Tucker...I'm his husband...he doesn't care..." I sobbed. He just patted my back and kept hugging me.

"Chill you're not gonna die. Everything's gonna be okay eventually. Let's go play poker. It'll take your mind off this shit."

I don't think I could've been comforted in a better way than that.
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JORDAN YOU JERK FACE YOU HURT YOUR HUSBANDS FEELINGS!

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