Si Hesus lang ang tanging solusyon.

I want to dedicate this special chapter to all people who are depressed, who have suicidal thoughts, who are broken, who have panic attacks, who have eating disorders, who have mental disorders, who are bullied,who have anxiety.

Alam mo ba kung anong araw ngayon? Every April 16th of the year, people remember this day as special. Are you familiar with this hashtag #Semicolonproject416? If not, it is to raise awareness throughout the world about mental illnesses.

Why it is special? For me it is special because it reminds me to stay strong for everyone. Hanggang ngayon kasi nilalabanan ko yung depression ko. Minsan it hurts to see that people think that it is a choice. Depression po is an illness and it is not from God, it is from the enemy. So keep fighting it with God's words.

So to all you of you na kagaya ko, keep holding on, kaya natin ito. Malalampasan din natin ito sa tulong ni Lord. Keep the faith.

Itong tandaan mo, hindi mo deserve saktan ang sarili mo, hindi mo deserve mag cut sa wrist/legs mo, hindi mo deserve mag binge eating, hindi ka worthless, stop saying that you are a failure. Habang may buhay, may pag-asa May nagmamahal sa iyo, hindi ka nag iisa, kung nag sa-suffer ka ngayon, hindi ka nag-iisa, I'm here for you and most importantly JESUS will be there for you.

When I was 16 years old, I tried contemplating suicide but I know that if I die, It would only cause pain to everyone. So what I did is cry out to God, na sana kunin niya nalang ako, kasi sobrang sakit na, sa murang edad may depression ako, pero hindi nangyari kasi na realize ko kung gaano ako kamahal ni Lord, and the thing is, it could hit anybody, young or old at masakit isipin na some people don't understand kung ano ang pakiramdam ng may depression, tapos sasabihan kalang na "drama lang yan", "ikain mo lang yan". No, you don't understand. Only Jesus can understand.

Sa mga tao na hindi nakakaintindi, please stop judging also. Down na down ka na nga sa sarili mo tapos may mga tao pa sa paligid mo na mag dodown pa lalo sayo, sobrang sakit nun. Pero kailangan paring ipagpatuloy ang buhay. Humugot ka ng lakas sa Panginoon. Remember always na "By His stripes we are healed". To be honest with you also, the book 365 days with God is a book which is a product of depression. I wrote that book to motivate myself to live and I will give all the glory to God, Jesus at Holy Spirit kasi siya nagbigay sakin ng wisdom kahit sobrang depressed ako nang sinusulat ko ang librong yun. I also deleted the original version before kasi na depress na naman ako but people were encouraging me to post it again and it makes me happy to post it again.

The greatest revelation from God while I am fighting my own storm is that, you can still be a blessing sa kabila ng mga pinagdadaanan mo. Kaya I'm here writing because I hope there is atleast one person na masabihan ko na "ui mahal na mahal ka ni Lord, hindi ka niya pababayaan, please stay kasi may purpose ka, kapit lang kay Lord ha, magiging okay din ang lahat :')

Hindi ko man alam ang mga pinagdadaanan mo, umiiyak kaman ngayon sa sakit, keep surviving, keep breathing, keep living. Ipagpatuloy mo ang buhay! Smile sa kabila ng unos. Kaya mo, huwag kang susuko. Hindi pa huli ang lahat sa iyo. God is not done with me and you yet.

There are also times na I want to shut this account down kasi ang lakas ko maka encourage sa iba na mabuhay pero sa sarili ko hindi ko magawa, I am such a hypocrite :( but grabe si Lord maka encourage, tagos hanggang bone marrow, but I realize na napaka selfish ko kung e shushut down ko ito, I have to continue Gods purpose for me, specially kapag naalala ko ang life verse ko na nakasulat sa Luke 4:18-19 and that is sharing Him and living for Him. This is my calling and I'm not here for the reads and votes, I want to share Christ with you all. His LOVE.

See? In every struggle that we encounter, God will reveal His purpose on us.

At kung sino kaman na bumabasa nito, thank you so much kasi binigyan niyo po ang buhay ko ng purpose, maraming maraming salamat, thank you for making me alive :') lalong lalo na kay Lord. Siya ang inspirasyon ko. Siya ang dahilan ng lahat.

Sa lahat din ng nakakaranas ng mental disorders, I pray for your healing. Walang imposible sa Panginoon.

STAY STRONG CAUSE WE ARE UNBROKEN!

Stay strong mga kahugot! God Bless you all.