Siddhant's POV which you will find a little later in this chapter, here,refers to the Truth about Avyakta's condition.

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The morning incident, grew her restless and Avidity of the unanswered questions hidden deep, with Siddhant. Carelessly and ruffling,each book in the shelf, she tried to find the book she was in need of. However, her mind was occupied somewhere else.
Avyakta like always busied in her work and people who always despise us are always present in any of the workplace you go. Same was with her. Since the time she came back in hospital, no one really spoke something that may hurt her instead they only supported her. But today those interns, literally made her to question herself― Who was she in the past two years? What really happened that made her like this?
They stood at the corner of the canteen backbiting their senior.
Why people have this habit to know about people's life? Can't they just enjoy what they have in their life. Why to be an intruder? Who are they to question her sanity?

After searching for nearly ten minutes in the lower shelves, she finally decided to look for the uppermost shelf. She stood on a wooden stool unlike Siddhant who stood on a plastic one.
Though, she got her book but as soon as she took that out two files dropped down.
Taking both in her hand she analysed each one of them. One was Siddhant's office file, another..she didn't know. But that other one had an answer for her question.

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"You have changed alot..Siddhant!"
Vijay caressed his son's head with affection. He nodded his sideways, denying to him.

''No..I'm not changed just..Circumstances changed.. that's it.."

"They are still there, Papa..
But one of them tried to run away this morning and was caught back."
Siddhant looked out of the window massaging his head and spoke after few minutes.

"We are still left with the case, Siddhant.But that doesn't mean that we will lose it. Victory is in our hands only. Then,why are you still tensed,beta?"
Vijay asked his son.

"I-I don't know.. I still have some different..unusual feeling in gut. Something..I really don't know..."
Siddhant had a sad, emotionless eyes that gazed at his father.
"Plus, I really don't know..how I'm surviving after knowing too about Avyakta's condition. I can't see her like this. It..It pains..

I have the fear of that day when she'll question about her condition."

"Sid..look..brother.. you are the most strongest amongst us and Avyakta is more stronger than you..
She survived that night then what's scaring you?"
Abhay kept his hand on his shoulder.

"When she'll know the truth which is still hid-den.
All is..my fault..my.."
Glint of tears formed in his eyes.

"Beta, I can understand..
Listen..Truth has to come out the day or the other. You just need to adopt patience and being strong while telling her.
I know..you are my strong boy.. we all are with you Siddhant beta.."
He hugged her consoling his son.

"Papa..we have just one week's time. After that..she has her hearing in the court. How Am I going to confess? How will she?
Ah! This is such a confusing and difficult state for me.."
He sighed.

"Like for about many months, someone asked Avyakta to believe in herself. Be strong. Don't fear.etc etc... Then, When the situation comes with you, why are you stepping off?
Look here..In my eyes."
With his welled eyes, he stared in his father's eyes.
"Maybe, Papa..It's easy to say out those words to others but they are more harder when we enforce those same words, on ourselves."
His voice was cracking.

"Okay..then. I say out those words to you.
Beta..Have confidence. Believe yourself.
This is just a test of life for you, for Avyakta, which only the strongest one have the audacity to bear.
Take your fear out! Everything is for good."
He was filled with a different energy, within. This is something that was need of the hour,for him.

After talking for a while and feeling good from his father and friend cum brother-in-law's words, he came out of the room. Life's been really tough for him. It's just an another difficult exam which he has to crack while Avyakta being in her side. He was totally involved in his thoughts,while he was going to his room, when someone caught his wrist and took him to the room. The person completely closed the door after knowing no one's around.

"Avyakta?
What happened? Why are you in a hurry?"
A frown marred his face.

Avyakta sighed and roamed in the whole room. Didn't know where to start from. Siddhant, still baffled at her sudden changed behaviour.

"What happened?"
He tried to ask again while sitting on bed.
"Your medecines are finished? You want me to bring that? Your head's paining? You-"

"Siddhanttt!!"
She shouted making him quite.
"Quite..Quite.. I still have my medecines."
She whisper shouted and continued moving here and there.

"Then?"

Avyakta stopped and took a file kept in the table and moved towards him.
"What's this? Whose file is this?"

Siddhant took the file and when he opened it, shock ,a big shock was evident on his face. The most dreadful moment was here now. His breath got hitched. He was not ready for this. Really, Not ready.

"Look.. Tell me the...whole..truth..NOW!!"
Avyakta's face showed that she may cry anytime soon. She bited her lips.
"Siddhant..you know.. Since many days, I've been avoiding this topic, knowing your comfort but today....
I'm not gonna hear you avoiding it.
Tell me today..NOW!"
Siddhant flinched and saw her eyes a mess. Her kohl was out of place.

"How...did you get..this?"
He whispered.
Siddhant's eyes moved from the file to her face, that had only a bindi sticked on her forehead.

"What did I ask?? Hun?
WHAT?
Siddhant..Don't divert from the topic.. you..are trying to hide these questions from past..I even don't know from how many months but..not know..
What's behind these pictures hanging on the wall? What happened to me? Who is the Culprit behind ruining our..our lives..Siddhant..who???
Tell me this instant!!
My head will burst..burst anytime.."
She was behaving like a maniac. Her eyes, were completely drowned in red. She was kind of threatening him, who still sat like a statue.
"SPEAK.. YOU..SIDDHANT!!"
She shouted and held his collar. Both looked at each other's swollen red eyes that had many emotions of pain and agony.

"You were..Pregnant.. Avyakta!"
He whispered and with her plaintive cry,drawn from the depths of heart,she fell back down on her chair. Her hands immediately slipped down from his shirt. Avyakta stared at him with her ocean of tears like eyes.
"What..What did you..say?
Pre-Pregnant?"

"Hmm..you were..nursing our 5 months ol..old..ba..baby..
This file...is..about that...''
Siddhant broke down in tears. How much he avoid his tears infront her but today he failed.

"My..My..This much..happened..whithout my...kn..lnowledge.."
Avyakta was uncontrollable of her emotions. She was crying like anything. She touched her belly which was barren,now.

"I'm sorry..Avyakta.. I never really..wanted to tell you...because it's a forgotten... past..past..that has no..importance now.."

"Importance??
It has mister! Tell me..this instant..what happened that night? I heard you were talking with uncle about it.
Who are the culprits??
Do you even know how it feels when people ask me about you and this family? Those things that happened in that past 2 years?"
She spoke in a challenging tone while tears coming down like stream.

"Leave it na..Avyakta.. why.."
But she was so eager to know everything. Gaining some power and praying to the Almighty, he got the courage, walked up to the window and was ready to tell her everything.

Siddhant's POV

I'm director in Ministry of External Affairs.
We were working on a mission and we were like..about to achieve it. It was sort of a deal with other countries, Something that would earn good benefit to the whole country. I was the head of that mission.

One evening,while I was coming back home, I heard one of our officers who was on call and instead of working for our team , he was planning something against it, that could surely help in the failure of our mission. I heard everything he said, then...

Then, I caught him. I got to know that not only him but some others were involved in the plan. He asked me not to tell anyone else but I threatened them that I would soon unmask him but..that harmed me instead.

They threatened me..that..that..they will harm any of my family members. Still, I was firm on my decision and was collecting strong proofs to prove them wrong.
A call came to me one day, while I let it heard to my seniors,too. That day, I got to know the man behind all this.
Shekhawat.. his name. Well, we all heard it for the first time but after taking out information about him, we found that he was a mafia,involved in various illegal works. His only target was to harm our country.

Due to those incidents, I was tensed, which resulted in a situation that I never wanted.
I was so tensed that detiorated my health resulting in my sudden headaches and High blood pressure.
I was surprised at myself,that I was this devoted to my job and country.
Once, after all these hectic schedules plus the work of collecting correct proofs against them,so that I can file a case against him, left me all tired that Avyakta suggested to take few days-off. Though, my condition and the threats that Shekhawat and his men gave to me were kept hidden from other members of the family until that night. 7th January.

"Sid..You are okay na?"
Avyakta asked with a worry laced in her voice.

"Yeah. I'm fine,Darling. Why are you so worried?"
I asked her while sitting on bed.

"Huh! Siddhant..
You know na..you aren't fine these days. I'm stressed for you. Your sudden calls,these days makes me worried about you."
Her tone was quite sad.

"Stressed? Ptch. Listen..okay! I'll not call you,then.
Come home soon..."

"No..No..Siddhant.. it's not like that. I'm just worried about you,darling..
So....tell why did you call?
Want something? Samosa? Icecream? Chocolate? Which I'm not gonna bring at any cost."
Avyakta asked from the other side. I know that my poor wife was juggling between many things,besides carrying our 5 months old baby. I giggled at her words.

"Yes.
Medecines.. they're are all finished.. You'll bring that or they are too excluded from my list?"

"Ohh! Yeah! I forgot..
Hubby..just wait I'm bringing them..
Okay?"
After talking for few mins, I waited for her arrival. Whole day in the house, without her seemed too dull and boring.
Little did I know that she would become the person to help me meet my death. Yes. You heard it right. Avyakta, was about to kill me, unknowingly.
As soon as,she came back home. A gush of relief washed over me. She was back home .
Those days, I was really worried for her, her pregnancy. Our baby she was nurturing, should be safe plus My Avyakta, too. Since the day I got to know about our baby, I never left a chance to leave her alone. She would go to her workplace with me,only. It's just due to my sudden illness, she asked me to stay home and would go herself. When others insisted to help her drop to the hospital, she would deny and would go by herself.
But that day,was going to become a biggest D-day for us. Our lives were about to get destroyed.

"Sit."
I held Avyakta and helped her to our room. Though, it was only her 5th month but she was complaining alot about her back pains and abdomen pains, common to the pregnant ladies. After our dinner,which seemed to be a last happy family dinner, we both came to our room and made Avyakta sit on bed, saying a good night.

I was about to get up when she held me. Her eyes showing an emotion of love and comfort. Those days,I knew what Avyakta was craving for. My support and love,which would remain through out our lives. We knew how busy we were in our works but taking out time for each other, we would accompany. Being a pregnant woman too, my lady didn't made me feel,hopeless and tensed much about her. She was acting as if she had delivered two or three babies before this one,who was now our first, showing as if having a full experience.
Advantages of getting a gynecologist wife..

I asked her through my eyes what happened but Avyakta shifted closer ,keeping her head on my heart and I held her tightly. Caressing her cheek and stroking her hair, I hugged her tightly with my other hand.

"Wifey? What happened?"

"Hmm.. Nothing.
Can't I just sit in your embrace for sometime?"
Her sweet voice hit my ears and I saw her relishing the moment. I never want her to go away from me but God knows what was about to come.

"Sid..How are you,Now?
Your headaches? I'm worried for you,hubby..Very much!"

I knew how much she was stressed for me. Her voice and her actions told that.
"Wifey..when you are with me..then, what do I worry about? Everything will be okay,Avu."

"That's fine..but I'm scared.
Why do you take such risk?"

"It is not risk. It is my work. I need to show them proofs,day after tomorrow. Then,everything will be normal. We are safe. Our baby is safe."

"My wishes are always with you. Siddhant... Do it. Then.
It's for the sake of your mission. Get them behind the bars,soon. I'm always with you.."

"Let's leave Avu!
Get some rest in my embrace."

"What about you?"

"I'm getting it.
You are here no?"
I sensed she smiled keeping her face against my chest,while a smile occurred on my face too, our eyes closed.
For about ten mins, we kept sitting in the same position. She dug her head more inside my chest,closing her eyes, getting her comfort and I wrapped my both hands around her, closing my eyes,too, living up the moment.

"Siddhant..
It is quite tough."
I heard her voice and knew what she was referring to.

"I know..Just 3 more months..Avu!
If I would have known, that you would have to bear so much pain and irritation...I would have never ever touched you,that night."
I said and saw her coming out of my embrace with a frown. I looked at her bemused and there came her smack,on my head.

"You are Stupid!
You would never touch me? Did you rape me,hun?
Fool..that is called to make love! Whose result is our baby.
Moddu!"

"Yeah! That is what I wanna say."

"Uff..
You are fool. You wanted baby na and I also wanted. I have to bear pain being the mother of the child,it is common,Sid."

"No..this is not equal..
I'm not having the same pain you are suffering from. It is not balanced."

"Then,you take my womb and nurse it inside you. Okay?"
A chortle came out her mouth, leaving me gaped. She was in her playful mood. This is what I wanted to see since morning.
"Siddhant.. it's normal and natural. I have to bear this pain. This is not much. Every mother is bound to feel it as she is connected to her baby. Those feelings are rare, these pains are beautiful, this bump is adorable. Why? Because it has a life inside me. Mixture of our blood and flesh. This is new for me but it is serene."
Her eyes, face was gorgeous at that time, the smile that made her face while explaining things to me.She was no more a fit girl but a chubby and healthy woman.
"Hmm..say it directly no? It's the result of our hardwork.."
Avyakta widened her eyes and my face had a mischievous smile.
"And from the things I heard..it feels that gestation period is not tough for you as you said,a moment before. Hehe.."

"N-No..
I meant..that It's tough..tough to get out from your embrace. That warmth is beautiful."

"Oh!" That could only came out from my mouth and soon I hugged her.
"Then who stopped you? This embrace..this man is all yours, darling..."

"Wait!" Avyakta was about to hug me but she glared me. I saw her sitting straight with suspicious eyes.

"Medecines? Did you take them?"
I knew she would ask for it but I totally forgot about it. With a sly grin, I stood up and held the glass of water. She took out the medecines from her handbag and handed it to me. I gulped them with water one by one.

"Madam. I did my work.
Diiid you take?"
Bending down,I held her legs and put them on the bed.

"Mister..I'm not careless like you."
We both grinned. I helped her sit back properly,while applying a cushion behind her and myself settled beside her.

"Come now." I widened my arms and she snuggled close to me, keeping her head against my chest. Feeling her warmth,in this January month, I closed my eyes contented with the feeling.

"Siddhant..."

"Avyakta..."

We both spoke together, and this made us smile. I asked her to speak first because wife first,Then you.

"Siddhant.. did you thought any name for this baby?"
She spoke while playing with the end of the quilt on our bodies.

"Yea! But it is a secret which only me and my lil one will know and after that you!"
Avyakta pouted and bit on my cheek, leaving me whimpered. She asked me to speak and I asked her.
"Avu? On your Baby shower..what do you want?"

"Your love."
She whispered in my ears,leaving her hot breathes.
In return, I gave her a wet kiss on her cheek.
"It's always with you. Tell me what gift do you want?"

She held my both palms in her and eying to them, she spoke.
"Nothing.
I only want you. Your presence. That is my gift. I want nothing else."
Her words always touch me. Facing her towards me, I cupped her face and kissed her forehead, then nose,cheeks,finally a long needed kiss on her lips and joined our heads.
"You are my love.."
After staring for sometime, I held her close again, patting her head.
"Avu! It's been such a long time..to hear your sweet voice..I mean sing a song for me..please.."

Avyakta glanced me and again laid down on my chest. We were in half sitting position, when her melodious voice hit my ears. I could feel myself relaxed. My soul as if, was drowned into the warmth the lady beside me,provided as she kept her head on my chest. Her voice reverberated inside me,with her soulful voice. I felt her closer to me as I wrapped my hands around her. I was drowned into ecstasy along with her as the silence only witness her soulful song.

We both gritted our teeth at the sound of the phone. Avyakta stood up lazily to get her phone. It felt as if a crow interrupted a Cuckoo while she was singing. I huffed in frustration.
I saw her expressions changing from happy to tensed. She would frown sometimes and bit her lips,while she was talking and the last thing that came out of her mouth was 'Okay,I'm coming.'

Sadly, she kept her phone down and looked at me.
"There's an emergency, Siddhant.
I need to go."

"But why??
Hello..Don't they know, You are a pregnant lady. How can they call you? It is not fine. They can call someone else,too."
I was on fire. How did they even tried to ask her to come back late at this hour. It was 10.

"Siddhant... I know..but no one was available.. I asked them..myself, to replace someone else but no one is free..''

"But what about you?
Avyakta it is enough. Give me your phone. I'll talk to them..
No! You give me.. It is not at all fair."
I was full of rage. I got up and saw her getting up too. But her face stopped me to say further,anything.
"Sid...
Siddhant.. listen!
Listen..I need to go..
It's a question about a mother and a baby's life. I need to go. If I would not go on time, anything might happen to them...
Please..."
I kept quiet. But no, this was not fine.

"Avyakta.. then, I also have a mother and her baby with me. What about her hun?"
I insisted her but she was reluctant.
"Avyakta..please...okay..I'll drive you to hospital. It's late night.
Please!"
I had started feeling quite dizzy,suddenly. Maybe, because of the heavy doses of medecines. Whatever!
I need to go. Help her out.

"Look at you.
You aren't well. Sid,You be here. No need of coming. I'll go myself.
You need to listen me.It's not something big. I'll come soon by 12...
You have to rest here.
Swear on this child!"
Lo! And the latter left me,rooted on ground. This was not good of her. She took Vow on our child. Why didn't she understand?

With a heavy heart, I looked at her and before sitting in the car, she pecked my forehead, saying 'She'll come soon'. I wanted to stop her but my wife's stubbornness, led to something which was soon gonna make us cry for our decisions...
But we were unaware of this fact. So,giving a last glance,while my eyes said those emotions,that would try to stop her but she went away, on a mission to complete her duty.
This was the last time I saw my old Avyakta, never knew that I wasn't going to see,her,the old one..
Again....

*****

With a heavy heart I came inside my house. Everyone was asleep and I didn't find it right to wake them up just to let them know that she went to perform her another surgery. I closed the door and walked towards kitchen to get myself a glass of water. I was very angry on her. I had decided that I wouldn't talk to her even after when she would try to reconcile.
I held the glass and saw everything around me dizzy. The vicinity,around me looked spinning. I was not fine. I could fall down anytime soon. I could hear the sound of glass falling down,slipping down from my hand. The noise might have woken them up,by that time. I didn't know. The situation with me was becoming difficult. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't stand properly, stumbling I walked forward to only find,everything dark like a dark room. I touched my mouth and found white foam sort of thing,coming out through my mouth and there my head, with a thud,touched the ground beneath me. All I could sense was the white foam and my whole body shivering and laying down like a dead body. Last thing, I saw my sister,Priya walking to me,completely horror struck,shouting my name. Waking me up and giving continuous calls to Maa and papa.
Until, I shut my eyes,drowning myself into the world of darkness which was engulfing me.
I didn't know anything.
I was dead.

Avyakta, What did you do?

*****

This is so unimaginable. I couldn't breathe. Restlessness, was at the highest peak. I searched for Avyakta's warmth everywhere but She was no where.
With a jerk, I opened my eyes and my eyes met with a white ceiling. I saw my face covered with a breathing mask. I wanted her. Avyakta.
How did that medecines or whatever it was,How did they react on me ? I doubted if I had food poisoning but no..It was medecines only.
Avyakta.. couldn't do anything. Never in my life I can think Avyakta doing something like this. No!!

I saw it was midnight and roaming my eyes, I saw it was hospital.
What really happened to me?
Where was my Avyakta?

Then only I saw someone to my left, I can sense the tingling sensations on my left hand. Like someone was taking out that pierced object out.

I widened my eyes and saw a man with a white coat. Probably, it was a doctor, who came out to check on me. A sigh of relief escaped my mouth. I knew someone was behind my condition and guessed who it can be.
Until, A lamp beside me turned on and I could clearly see the person's face.
Though,it was covered with a mask and all I could see were his eyes.

''Hello.. Mr.Siddhant?"
His husky yet stern voice hit my ears. I was known to that voice but didn't know where.
"How are you feeling?"
I saw him playing with the syringe pierced deep inside my hand. I didn't feel it right.
I nodded.

"So...did you recognise me?"
I frowned. Why would a doctor ask me to recognise him? Did I know him?
He slowly came towards me and unmasked me,taking out my oxygen mask. It was quiet difficult to breathe but..I can stay like that for sometime. Just for sometime.

"Sorry Dr...Do I know you?"
He smirked and took out the syringe,harshly,throwing down on the floor.
"What..what did you do?
Who are you?"
I tried to shout but could only shout with a low voice.

He laughed and laughed and laughed.
I heard it somewhere. This laugh. It was recognisable. My eyes could surely came out of my sockets. One thing,only one name came out from my mouth when he asked again who he was.

"Sh-Shekhawat!!"

*****

I was drowned in sweat. I have to reach there anytime soon. But where should I go? I ran all along the road. No..this cannot happen!!
She was safe. My Avyakta was safe.
It was difficult. I saw my father calling me from behind. Due to weakness, I fell down on the floor. Things were really becoming difficult. It was just a day I discharged from hospital. I was intoxicated with heavy doses of medecines allergic to my body.
My father held me, I couldn't live if she was not here. He hugged me. I cried, streams of tears flowing down my eyes.
"Pa-Pa...thi..s..is..not..true..
Nothin..g...can happen to...her.."
My phone buzzed and took the call while someone maybe the police informed me something. With a jolt,heaving, I ran.. getting up,roughly from my father's embrace to see an unbelievable sight infront of me for which I can never forgive myself.

To be continued....

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So a segment of truth is out..and...
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