April 9, 2015

Dear Abby

I had a few breathing attacks last night. I hated it so much and all I could think was that I was going to die earlier than expected. I wish I didn't get so scared easily. That I could be strong for you and my family, but I can't. I am dying. I know I am, my body is already slowing down a lot. I can't run like I use to, I can barely sing. I can't do anything.

Why?

Why are you still here with me?

Every day you visit me and act as if I am normal. You act like my situation is not bothering you, but I see the rings under your eyes. You are not sleeping. I see how you are loosing weight. You are not eating properly.

Here I am worrying that after I die you are going to get a man that mistreats you when I have been mistreating you all along.

Please don't harm yourself because of me.

I am not worth it.

                                        Love, Wes