April 2, 2015

Today is the day I found out that I have stage 4 lung cancer. I know I am not going to make it... unless by some miracle that the chemo works and I am cured but I doubt it.

To tell you the truth I am scared. I really am. I don't want to leave you. I can't imagine heaven without you. It would be great to talk to everyone and get to finally meet Robin Williams like I always wanted to, but I don't know if I can do it without you. I may be shy, you were my rock. You eased all of the anxiety and pain, and I know that one day I will get to see you again but it will be awhile.

I want to believe I can make it but I have already researched it and I know there is probably no hope for me. I decided to write a letter for you everyday until I die. Please don't be mad or sad when you read this. Don't take this as me being corny or cliche but I am with you always. I wonder if I can be your guardian angel or something when I die. I don't know if God would allow an angel to watch over another angel but I will ask.  Do you think so?

I love you so much that is why I am here writing this for you. Please find comfort in my words and know that all I think about is you.

                                          Love, Wes ♡