Dear Mermaids,

sorry I'm unworthy, sorry for being happy, I'm so unworthy of living, sorry for everything. I had a best friend called Ilyes, we met in league of legends, quite a while ago. I told him about my depression and he was comforting me, but little did we know, that my depression was making him depressed. We made two promises; not to self harm, or kill ourselves. I broke the self harm promise, I self harmed for just 5 seconds, if only I could've resisted. If only I wasn't so stupid, he fell for me and confessed yesterday and he knew I had a boyfriend yet he confessed anyway. I didn't say yes or no. He asked if it was ok and I said yes. After telling him that I was sorry for breaking the promise, he refused to listen to me, asking me which way was the best way to die. Also, he started self harming to try and stop me, he smashed a cola bottle and used a piece of glass to self harm. I created a monster :( I really don't deserve to live now. It's my fault he's dead, he actually committed suicide. He broke our other promise.... Even though I deserve to die, I told him I'd never break that promise because I love him, sorry for ruining your life Ilyes, sorry for everything, I love you. Bye mermaids...