I hear laughter

And snippets of conversation

As my parents and siblings

Share stories

Happily

Around the dinner table

I shift

Uncomfortably in my chair

Around my muscles

I feel the ugly fat

Perched

Like it owns me.

I try to smile

With my family

And laugh at the right places

I try hard

But all my mind sees,

Focuses on is my

Plate of Food

Sitting

And staring

Straight at me;

Go ahead.

Eat me.

I dare you.

The steak taunts me silently;

Of course she won't

If she does

I'll make her even fatter!

The potatoes sit

In a threatening pile;

Its silent laughter

Echoes in my ears,

But the worst

Is the cheese

Its silent stare

Melting;

Mouthwatering;

Fattening.

I instantly regretted

That one bite I had

When I first sat down.

My mind screams

Don't you want to fit

Into that little black dress?

But wait,

There's a friend!

A small, meek pile

Of salad

Smiles;

It's okay.

I'll help you.

I smile and look up

My family

Still oblivious

Chatters on

I carefully divide

My new friend

Into small, small portions;

They look friendlier.

As I chew

Chew, chew

Chew some more

Till my mouth

Feels almost empty,

My eyes land on

A magnificent presence

In a corner of the room

Dad's stationary cycle

Hey!

Jogging twice a day

Isn't enough

To loose that fat!

You should also

Come to me

Use me

Everyday

And I'll make your wish

Come true.

A/N. The struggle with anorexia is very real for many people, of whom many are teenagers.
Pay attention to your friends and family as it can happen to anyone and can continue for a long time if someone fails to notice.

You are worth more than your eating disorder. I believe in you all.
For anyone seeking help
https://www.b-eat.co.uk/support-services