A/N. This was the most horrible thing I could ever imagine. Thisu is my friend. Today was just horrible.

I remember

When we first met

You were the new girl

We sat together

Because there were no spaces left

I knew you were smart

I thought you'd be my competition

Jealous and fierce

I'd seen enough of those

So I tried to ignore you

But you were so sweet;

So unselfish and kind

Always with a smile

And a reason for others

To do the same

I remember

You loved the things

-School activities-

I adored

We were thrown together

For project after project;

Every one an adventure

With you.

After a while;

Our classes changed

With our choices

But we stayed close

Through those extra curriculars.

When I knew we were

On the head board

Together

I was overjoyed, you know.

You only got

Three chances

To wear your new badge

The only chances

You'll probably ever get.

I knew something was wrong

When you didn't answer

Any of our calls

Or messages.

Then that one day

Two weeks ago

You replied.

I knew if you wanted to tell me

You'd have done so

So I didn't pester

But I knew it wasn't okay

When you told me

They took your ovary.

You had gone so far

For treatments

There was nothing I could do

Except talk to you.

But then you went

On radio silence

Again.

I cannot imagine

How you felt

When you found out

Because this morning

When this girl told me

The illness you had

Was not something

So small

In fact

It had spread

To your womb and other ovary

I said to her then

"Does it spread like cancer then?"

And she just stared

At me

Then looked down.

I could see her swallow

And lick her dry lips.

My heart stopped.

I could only whisper

"What?"

"I'm sorry"

She just left

And I just

Stood there

For who knows how long

And then ran

To the girls' room

To throw up my feelings

And I just cried.

My darling Thisu,

I know if I'm like this

You must be

A hundred times worse.

But know

That you're not alone

You have us

Your friends

Your boyfriend,

The whole school,

Because you're loved by everyone

And your family

By your side.

You're not alone in this.

It's probably

Going to be

A roller coaster ride

Of emotion

And pain.

But we're here

To share it

To hold you close

To always remind you

You are loved

And nothing that life throws at you

Can change that.

We're here

To make you smile

Like you did to us

For so many years.

So hold on, Thisu

Don't give up

Just yet.

Stay strong.

Stay strong, Thisu. We love you.