Ok so you see what's on the title yes? I don't do this at all due to me keeping things to myself...which is what I do best. Now, I'm just gonna have a tiny rant...if that's possible so if you don't like rants, then don't read this chapter. This is not for attention. I'm not that type of person who wants to be in the spotlight.

Thanks for your understanding.

If you REALLY want to read this chapter/rant then continue down.

And please no one take this offensive. This is a rant after all. I'm never pointing fingers.

Think before you act.

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(I go off topic a lot)\/

OK! For one, I'm starting to get quite annoyed with a few things. One! What the hell happened to the nice and friendly environment?! I mean for fucking sakes! And I expected good things like being nice to others! I do good at that?! And trust me I have my own haters, just not on this app though. I mean! There's a reason why I go on this specific social media for a reason, to get out of the drama and shit and get some stress out! And I usually don't do these rants cause I just don't want to let you guys know and be burdened with that exact same feeling! Even typing is getting a little harder for me cause my fingers are numb. (That was unnecessary) but also, it's not just that, it's just that I expected more from this, like an actual friendly environment. But not everyone is mean! I still love ya all but sometimes...there are times where you have to keep things to yourselves. (I'm not pointing fingers! This is a rant after all!) it's just that I've been though and seen drama for years! YEARS! I even get bullied! I even get sad, I even get lonely, I even try and block the world! But that's not possible cause it's FUCKING REALITY!(that too was unnecessary) it's hard trying to keep your cool I know but still. There are times when a volcano erupts when it MUST. I have over reacted to some other things in the past and I rather not bring it up anytime soon (BUT, this is a rant after all.) anyways...it's just that, you guys barley know me and I'm just talking about random things in random spots of this chapter. And to tell ya guys, I act nice for a reason. And you guys already read that. I may most of the time use my kind words here and there but I keep all the other emotions just bottled up.
(This is off topic)
It's just that even myself have to keep my cool. And I don't want anyone, and I mean ANYONE! To fall into a freaking pit of fucking despair. Also. I know I'm just some girl sitting behind her phone typing and drawing away. But I know I can so much more, I just don't have the courage (not encouraging you guys to encourage me) I even have stage fright! ...

(This is even more off topic)/(not for attention)
But when I was little, I was always afraid of the spot light. I once had a nightmare you know. I was 4 or 5 I think? I was dancing on the dance floor with parents, adults, children, babies all staring at the dance floor as me and some other kids danced and danced. I felt so happy and confident, full of pride and courage, but all of that soon burnt away when tripped. I fell and the music stopped. I was scared, I tried to get up but, my foot was on my little dress and it ripped, I felt humiliated as everyone and I mean EVERYONE, started to laugh at me, pointing fingers at me, making fun of me. But I soon woke up and starting crying out for my mom. The fact that I had that nightmare, I never felt the same, I was never the same. Just me being started at by a small group, teacher, family, audiences, etc...it gives me stage fright, and I never faced it for the past (I think) 8-9 years. But soon after, I started to open up a little, taking long forgotten baby steps. Even now I'm still going. I'm still trying to open up to others around me.
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I just reread all of this and I despise it. I usually hate doing these rants but, I guess my bottled stuff can't last forever?
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This was stupid. I'm quite surprised you read the entire thing.
Sorry if this wasn't a good one. I feel like skit at the moment, I only got 2 down today...
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You know what. That's enough of me talking now.
Why are you still reading this? There's no point. It's just a rant.
That's all.
Bye
 
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