CHAPTER THREE || THE TRUE BEGINNING

tw: smut at the end (m receiving)

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Alex had rushed out of the cell block, leaving the rest of the group to deal with the situation now it was safe as she sat in a guard tower alone. a cigarette hung between her lips as she inhaled deeply, guilt tugged at her heart. She kept replaying the situation in her head, how she'd pointed the gun at the governor. she couldn't sworn it was him. how close she was to pulling the trigger. but it was Sam. She'd almost shot Sam. but it wasn't she saw him. She saw the governor. her mind played awful tricks on her, tormenting her. She thought it was over, she thought she was getting better... now she'd just blown up, in front of everyone.  she exhaled flicking the ash from the cigarette with her thumb as her hand ran through her hair, her mind began to drift as she looked out beyond the fences.

"Lex it doesn't matter how bad things get out here, we're together."

Eli's voice echoed through her mind, and how she wasn't sure if that was even what he sounded like. she was starting to forget. and maybe that was the worst pain of all. she'd lost enough to never need another lesson in heartbreak again. But with this world; heartbreak was inevitable.

her throat threatened to close as she held back tears, her jaw clenched as the anger that comes with losing someone consumed her. The hatred, the anger always circled back to herself. no matter how hard she tried to be happy, it never worked out the way she wanted. she couldn't figure out what she'd done to deserve this, to deserve the loss, the way her mind would constantly play tricks on her, torment her. there was nothing she wouldn't do for the memories to stop haunting her.

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Carl ran up to Rick upon seeing him leave the cell block, Despite Ricks objections Carl rushed into his Arms pulling his dad into a hug, thankful he was okay soft cries left Carls's lips despite trying to hold them back. the pure panic that echoed through the prison enough to cause Carl overwhelming anxiety. 

he saw Alex rush out, he saw the look on her face, the pain that etched her features filled him with dread when he hadn't seen his father leave with her. rick held his son trying to calm his anxiety yet his was just as high with what had happened.

"I didn't see you come out... Alex she looked-" The fear that laced carls voice, he was terrified of losing another parent. he was terrified of losing anyone. Rick rubbed his son's back in an attempt to comfort him yet dread pooled in his own stomach. 

"It's okay, I'm here. I'm fine. you need to back away" Rick warned after discussing what caused the walker problem, only to discover it was caused by a flu-like virus. a virus that could possibly wipe out the whole population at the prison...

"Patrick got sick last night. some kind of flu. it moves fast, we think he died and attacked the cell block... I know he was your friend, I'm sorry. he was a good kid... we lost a lot of good people. keep your distance from anyone who might have been exposed. carl help michonne in, then try and find Alex" Rick explained as Carl backed away from him, Michonne and Maggie stood behind him in disbelief as they listened to what'd happened.

Rick knew Alex's soft spot for Carl, he knew he could make her feel better. it had been the same since the PTSD started, the young boy somehow made her feel calmer like her problems were gone when he was around. she never once spoke to him about them, or let him see her when they were troubling her... but he was a happy kid, he had the same effect as Eli in some way. he could lighten the mood. 

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seeing Carl had made Alex compose herself, well at least enough to drag herself to the meeting the members of the council were held to discuss the problem and how to fix it. considering half of them had been exposed to the virus.

 Alex sat at the table hands crossed over her chest, dread still pooled in the pit of her stomach as she remembered how they'd all looked at her. those looks of pity, fear, and concern. they always made her feel worse, crazy even. especially when they came from people she cared about. and the more she thought about it the worst she felt, embarrassment now spiralling through her stomach. Glenn's eyes were Glued to the woman across the table from her, as he replayed the moment in his mind.

"Patrick was fine yesterday, and he died overnight. two people died that quickly? we'll have to separate everyone who's been exposed." Carol explained, Alex stayed silent looking around the table, noticing how Glenn stared at her, She hated it. That pity in his eyes. yet she tried to distract herself. focusing on carols words. 

"That's everyone in that cell block. that's all of us" Daryl reminded, Alex stared at the table her mind elsewhere as she tried to pay attention to the situation while she picked at the skin around her nails. everyone was exposed. everyone was in danger. how had things gone downhill so quickly?

"We know that this sickness can be lethal. but we don't know how easily it spreads. is anyone else showing symptoms that we know of?" Hershel Asked yet it was followed by an uncertain silence and a few shaking heads.

"We can't just wait and see, there's children it isn't just the illness. people die, they become a threat" Carol resorted, They didn't was people to panic either. and definitely didn't want anyone else to turn. it was beyond dangerous...

"We need a place for them to go" Hershel suggested, Alex sighed running a hand over her face as the seriousness of the situation escalated. they had to keep everyone safe, they had to keep each other safe. fighting was Alex's strength, an illness? she couldn't do anything to stop that hurting people.

"cell block A.." Alex suggested, Her voice wavered as she looked up from her hands, Hershel and Glenn's eyes falling on her.

"death row" Glenn sighed rubbing his chin as he looked around the table, Knowing Alex wasn't okay he wanted this meeting over quickly so he could talk to her, and try and make her feel better.

"I'm not sure that's much of an upgrade" Glenn sighed thinking this whole situation was morbid, they'd finally begun to believe they had a shot and having a life here, then things go wrong. this was exactly what Alex was worried about. they were safe until something else happened.

"It's clean. that's an upgrade" Daryl remarked, Sasha nodding in agreement.

"I'll have Caleb set it up" Hershel confirmed before the sound of coughing filled their ears, everyone shared a concerned look around the table as Carol got up Following the noise, Everyone around the table followed suit. instant worry filling the air. 

"you don't sound so good" Carol resorted seeing Tyreese and his new girlfriend walking past the meeting room, Alex stood beside Glenn, her arms crossed over her chest.

"We're just taking her back to my cell so she can rest" Tyreese confirmed, as his arm held the coughing woman close to his body, Knowing this sickness was deadly Alex wanted to pull Glenn further away, make him stay in a guard tower till it was over so nothing would happen to him.

"Tyreese I don't think that's a good idea," Hershel stated the look on the couple's face shifting to one of confusion and worry as they asked what was going on;

"We think it's the flu or something. that's how Patrick died." Glenn Explained, Sadness hung in the air as they thought back to the tragedy that had taken place that morning. Alex reached for Glenn's hand needing some type of comfort. Despite actually being his girlfriend, she barely believed it herself, rarely showing much affection in front of people. but for the first time after a flashback, she didn't push him away. She reached out to him, holding his hand. their fingers intertwined almost instantly bringing her solace.

"Judith is in that Cellblock. she's vulnerable, anyone that may be sick, or exposed should stay away." Hershel explained.

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"Alex, what happened this morning?" Glenn asked As they stood in a hallway of the prison, Their hands connected as he stood in front of Alex the familiar look of concern covering his face. She couldn't think of an excuse, there was nothing she could say.. she aimed her gun at Sam. She almost shot him, and she was going to shoot him. The thought made her feel sick. 

"I thought he was the governor.." she revealed, her voice wavered as she avoided Glenn's eye contact, He sighed releasing one of her hands as he cupped her cheek gently tilting her head up to look at him his brown eyes staring into hers like she was the only thing he cared about, and how quick she just melted under his gaze. 

"Alex, I want to help you. I want you to know you can talk to me" He sighed looking down at Alex, she nodded but she thought she was okay. it all happened so quickly, the blood was everywhere. then she saw him. She didn't get a chance to breathe or think. she just saw him. but it wasn't him, it was Sam.

"I was okay. it was just the blood- I just... I need to talk to Sam." Glenn nodded pressing a kiss to her forehead, if he could take away her pain he would. everything she'd told him rushed through his mind... it was all too much for someone so young to handle. 

"If there's anything I can do, just tell me" he whispered, Alex nodded. His pure soul still surprised her almost every day. She wrapped her arms around him as she pulled him into a hug which he happily accepted hugging her back, his arms wrapped around her waist enveloping her in his warmth that eased the anxiety pooling in her chest. 

"you're so beautiful" he whispered as he buried his face into her shoulder, there wasn't a day that went by he was thankful for her.

Alex and Glenn laid beside each other covered by the sheets of their bed, Alex stared at the Ceiling as the stress of the day began setting in, her fingers tangled in Glenn's soft hair as her fingers ran along his scalp, a hum leaving his lips as she gently played with his hair bringing them both an ounce of comfort. he eased her anxiety yet the thoughts still wouldn't leave. The fact she still needed to speak to Sam... The fences almost giving in. She couldn't help but hope the illness wouldn't spread.

"How are you feeling?" Alex asked shifting so she could see meet glenns eyes her fingers still tangled in his hair as he turned his head to look at the woman he'd grown to love.

"yeah, I'm okay.. just a long day. Are you okay?" he asked his eyes examining her features as she nodded, a soft smile tugging at her lips despite the rough day. 

"yeah... I'm with you." Those words meant more than what it seemed. A smile grew on his face at Alex's words, that's all he wanted. he wanted her to feel okay. he wanted her to feel safe. And she did. when she was with him, it was the safest she'd felt in a long time. She never really knew safety, that content happiness, that warmth that fills your chest. She never felt that feeling, never this strong. until him. 

she wanted so badly to protect him from the world because she knew all too well how bad it could be. and she never wanted to feel the pain of being Alone again. not like those weeks before she met Glenn. That time alone changed her, She never wanted to be alone again not without him by her side.

those words meant a lot more than just that, almost as if she was telling him how much she loved him without actually saying those three words, and he knew. their eyes connected as they shared a mutual comfort that came with just being with each other, a small smile tugged at Glenn's lips as he admired her. he gently placed a kiss to her lips, which Alex gratefully returned. her hand wandered to his bare chest as their lips connected softly. 

Despite the rough day they'd had, they needed to find the comfort they gave each other. people had died, yet they were okay. Every day that past the risks just seemed to be increasing, the hope she'd fought so hard for almost all diminishing in less than a day. the feelings they had for one, another were so strong they hadn't even realised how much being with each other affected their mood, the stress of the day being forgotten as their lips met. 

Deepening the kiss Glenn's hand wandered to Alex's hips as he guided her on top of him. shifting to straddle his lap, Glenn's hands on Alex's hips carefully pulled her down, guiding her to grind against him before his hands trailed down to her thighs, gently squeezing them as he remembered the first time they had sex and how desperately he wanted to be crushed between them as she kissed him deeply.

Since making it official they'd barely had time to please each other considering they had to rebuild the fences, work on building a community, going on runs. They'd been so busy they just wanted to be in each others company rather than focus on sex. Of course, they had a few times, but with the added pregnancy scare it had been a while Alex ground her hips against Glenn's lap as he deepened the kiss his hands gripped her thighs as she felt him harden beneath her as he whimpered into her mouth sending a pleasant shiver down her spine. Alex broke the kiss pulling away to kiss down his neck, her hot breath trailing down his neck before leaving a trail of kisses back up to his ear.

Her breath fanning down his neck sending rush of heat to his hardening length, Feeling him harden beneath her sent a rush of heat to her core. his breathing becoming heavier as Alex began grinding against him again, causing a soft moan to escape his lips. she began kissing down his body, starting with his neck, Slowly making her way down to his chest, before she reached his stomach where she starts taking her time, basking in the way he quietly exhaled her name from beneath her, he whined unsure of what she was doing his hand going to her hair as she looked up at him from between his legs the sight of her kissing his lower stomach making his muscles clench as blood rushed to his already hardened cock. her fingers toying with the waistband of his boxers before he spoke;

"no-no-" he panted slightly. "I won't be able to last if you do that"

He panicked, he wanted to please her, the mere thought of not lasting for her made him want to cry. he wanted to worship her, make her feel good in every way. Alex looked up at him through her eyelashes. he was so pretty

"Shh, I want to taste you Glenn" She reassured, releasing him from his boxers, his cock hitting the cool air of the room making him whimper softly as Alex took in the sight of him, making her mouth water as she wrapped her hand around him, her thumb wiping over the pre-cum oozing from his tip. feeling herself grow desperate to have him in her mouth.

This man was driving her crazy, watching his stomach contract as he desperately tried not to buck his hips as he laid there his body perched up on his forearms so he could easily watch her, yet he looked so innocent.

"but-" Alex cut him off as he went to express how he wanted to look after her, by wrapping her lips around his tip. moaning immediately at the taste of him, the vibrations and feeling of her warm mouth on him erupting a string of whimpers from his lips as his head fell back.

"please-" he whimpered reaching out to feel her only for his fingertips to brush against her skin, he needed more all the thoughts of the day dissipated as he focused on Alex's touch, a twinge of embarrassment washing over him at the realisation he was naked and she was almost fully clothed. she slid her mouth further down his length getting rewarded by the sounds leaving his mouth. despite the growing desire to close her eyes and relax into the feeling of him in her mouth, he looked so good beneath her, she couldn't tear her eyes from him. She began to bob her head, listening to his soft moans that only spurred her on. even the sound of his voice turned her on. sending heat between her legs. she looked up at him, his chest heaving eyes tightly shut as he gripped the sheets his knuckles turning almost white.

"I'm gonna-" Alex picked up the pace, taking him further down her throat, making him choke on his own words.

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a/n- accidentally gave Glenn a bit of a thigh kink idk how that happened but it did lmao