Demi

"What?"

Wilmer looked down, "Nothing, forget I said anything."

I shook my head, "No, tell me. You said I was pregnant."

He sighed and nodded, "About a year into our marriage you started showing all the signs of pregnancy, morning sickness, bloated, cravings, but we didn't really think much of it. Your hormones were all over the place, literally horny every second of the day. So, we went to a doctor and found out you were pregnant. Two weeks later, you miscarriaged."

I looked down, "Oh."

Wilmer sighed, "We'd gotten through it together, and every year on her birthday we release balloon into the sky in Central Park, in New York."

I nodded, "You should've told me that."

He leaned his head back against the pillows, "I was gonna, when you asked if we had any kids. That's the reason we don't. You were so scared of having a miscarriage that you don't want to take any risks. For like, six months after your miscarriage we didn't even have sex. And for the first two, you wouldn't even let me sleep in the same bed as you."

I giggled, "Was I that crazy?"

Wilmer smiled, "No, you were just scared, and didn't want to go through that again."

I nodded, "So where is one of our places?"

His brow furrowed, "What?"

I smiled, "Come on, we have to have a place we go to, like a usual spot."

I tilted his head, "Let's see if you can remember that."

I looked down, "I can't remember anything Wilmer."

He cupped my cheeks, "I want to try something. Just humor me and close your eyes?" I smiled and did as he said, smiling wider when his lips pressed against mine softly, "Now think." He whispered, "Don't get frustrated, just let yourself think." I bit my lip, letting my mind sift through the hazy and blurry forms of memory. "Just relax, latch onto anything, just grasp it." Wilmer's low voice coached in my ear, and I breathed out.

Suddenly, a burst of light erupted in my ear and I was on a bed, Wilmer hovering over me. I could smell the ocean, I could hear the waves.

"I love you." Wilmer's voice came through his lips and I smiled hugely. For some reason I felt elated, completely at bliss. He leaned down and kissed me, making my toes curl as he moved to my ear, "Mrs. Valderrama."

I opened my eyes and looked up at a nervous Wilmer, "I saw a memory." I gripped his hands, "Of us."

A smile spread over his face, "Really?"

I nodded excitedly, "Did we go to a beach place for our honeymoon?"

He eyes widened and he cupped my cheeks, "Bora Bora."

I touched his chin, "I could hear it, the ocean, I could smell it. And you were there, you told me you loved me and called me Mrs. Valderrama."

He nodded, "That was our first night. We've been to Bora Bora before, and you absolutely loved it. So, we went back for our honeymoon. I surprised you."

I smiled, "I felt so happy. It was the weirdest feeling, like I'd never been so happy in my entire life, like it was the best day of my life."

Wilmer leaned down and kissed me, "It was the best day of mine too."

I sat up, "Let's try it again."

Wilmer shook his head, "How about this, once a day, at night, we'll try. We don't need to rush this and I don't want you to get overwhelmed. Right now, I'm happy where I am, right here with you."

~*~

It was amazing to me, how much love can grow in your heart for someone you barely know. How safe, and secure, they can make you feel, when you're laying in their arms. I feel that love, the unconditional love that he feels for me, laying here, as we watched a movie. I feel it when he runs his thumb over the back of my hand while he holds , or every now and then he leans down and kissed my forehead. Even though I agreed to one memory a night, I was still constantly sifting through my brain. I wanted to remember him desperately. I wanted to remember what it felt like on my wedding day. I wanted to remember telling each other we love the other for the first time. I wanted to remember what it felt like to have sex with him for the first time, and every time after that.

I wanted to remember loving him.

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