Steve: What's happening?

Fury: Captain, stay calm.

S: She looks doped.

F: She is. Did you think it would be a hypnosis session?

S: No, but...

Hill: Steve, relax.

S: But nothing is happening!

W: There's too many voices.

Cho: People, silence, Wanda needs to concentrate.

Wanda struggled to rummage through Natasha's mind, she could see what Natasha was visualizing in the form of a dream. But the images are being showing to her, is still from the last few hours.

Cho: Wanda?

W: They're still recent memories.

Cho: Focus, Wanda. Look for more into the past.

W: I'm trying!

Wanda closed her eyes for a few seconds and began to turn back the time in Natasha's mind, she managed to see the memories of the day before that, and the one before, and more before that.

W: I'm getting there, but...

Wanda frowned.

W: So slow...

Cho: It's fine, you're doing great.

Wanda felt her body get more tired, but she has a huge affection for Steve Rogers and she will do anything to bring his wife back.

Wanda arrived in the memories of the mission in Saudi Arabia, then she jumped to the one of London, that jumped to the day of the coma, and then the memories started to come one after the other, successively and very fast.

Wanda's head hurt.

Cho watched her.

Cho: Wanda?

W: It's going too fast!

Cho: Wanda, the control is all yours. Remember that. It's not your powers that command your body. You command them.

W: It's very strong, I can't!

Natasha's body trembled a little, then Natasha's face moved side to side and her arms began to shake. Steve was ready to run to Natasha, but Fury and Hill grabbed his arm.

F: Captain, I told you to calm down.

S: There's something wrong, can't you see?

F: Cho is here so if you interrupt Wanda, it can cause more damage in Natasha's mind. You don't want that, do you?

Steve looked at Fury and as much as he wanted to know what was happening to Natasha, it was true that he could make it everything worse interrupting.

Wanda sweated and gritted her teeth, trying to take control of her powers. Natasha's body calmed down a few minutes later.

Wanda managed to make Natasha's mind stop pulling back.

Cho: So, Wanda?

W: I see a baby.

Cho: A baby?

S: James... or Sarah.

Wanda shook her head.

W: No. It's her.

S: Sarah?

Cho: Natasha...

Wanda nodded.

W: She's very small, they're taking her somewhere.

Cho: Wanda, is not this memory we're looking for, can you go any further?

W: I'll try.

Wanda took a deep breath and struggled to make Natasha's mind move forward.

W: I see a redheaded girl. She is 6 years old at the most. She's stealing food. She hasn't eaten in days.

Cho: Wanda, move on.

W: They got her. The police. She's going to an orphanage.

Steve sighed, impatient, he doesn't know about Natasha's past, but he knows it was painful for her.

W: She's 8 years old, she's dancing ballet and... and they are making her repeat a dance step, again and again. They want her to be perfect, but she is exhausted.

Cho watched as Natasha's breathing grew heavier and faster.

W: She missed one step. Oh my God!

Cho: What???

Natasha moaned loudly and bent her knees, then relaxing again.

W: They're hurting her so she doesn't make another mistake. They're hurting her too much....

Wanda was feeling hurt for seeing those scenes, she was almost crying.

W: She is just a child...

Cho: It's okay, Wanda. Advance more. Get out of there.

Wanda nodded and concentrated again.

W: They're celebrating her 10th birthday. There are 10 children invited to the party.

Wanda smiled, feeling finally relieved with a happy memory of Natasha.

W: There's a man next to her... He handed her a gun and... Jesus, he's making her point the gung to the kids and.... Oh, no! Natasha! NO!!!

Wanda lost her breath and all her focus, she began to shake herself.

W: Oh my God! She killed them all. The cake is covered in blood... Oh, Natasha. She is very young. They are celebrating.

Cho: Wanda, I know it's difficult, but you need to work harder to go forward.

W: I can't go faster!

Cho: Okay, Okay... Take your time.

W: She's 12 years old, she's a great sniper. She has classes in etiquette and languages. She never smiled... Now she is 15 years old and they brought 15 boys and girls for her birthday. Oh God, Natasha is with a knife... I DON'T WANT TO SEE THAT

Wanda interrupted the speech to scream, Wanda lost the strength in her legs.

Cho: Wanda! Please focus.

Wanda had to kneel down to keep control in Natasha's mind.

Cho: Move forward, Wanda, move!!!

W: She's in a red room and...

Wanda frowned.

W: I think I know that man.

Cho: What man?

W: I know him. He has a metal arm.

S: It's Bucky.

W: He's feeling sorry for her, he's helping her.

Steve frowned and took a deep breath. It's just a memory of the past, but it still hurts him.

W: He's her only friend, he wants to get her out of there. Someone is coming and fighting with Natasha and the man. He grabs Natasha's arm and Bucky defends her. The other man tells Natasha to attack Bucky.

Steve looked at Wanda, puzzled.

W: She has her gun pointed at him.

Steve doesn't want to hear that Natasha shot Bucky.

W: She can't shoot him. The man takes her gun and shoots Bucky anyway, Natasha is crying, they are taking her away. She thinks he is dead

Natasha started to get her body agitated again, she clenched her fist tightly and her lips trembled.

W: She's trying to push me out of her mind.

Cho: You're stronger, Wanda. Control her!

W: She's in a room, there are devices attached to her head. Oh God! Why are they doing this to her? They have to stop, this is killing her.

Cho: No one is killing her, Wanda, remember it's her memories, it's not happening now.

Natasha let out more groans and her breathing changed again.

Cho watched Natasha's nose bleed.

Cho: She's bleeding. We need to stop.

F: No, she can handle it!

Cho and Steve looked at Fury in shock.

F: I know she can handle it.

W: They're trying to make her forget things. They're playing with her mind.

Steve took a deep breath and closed his hand, he was no longer able to hear it all, to know that Natasha is suffering and he can't allow that to continue. Even with Fury's protests, Steve walked over to Wanda and ordered her to stop immediately.

Cho: Steve, it's not that simple.

S: I don't care! Stop right now!

W: I'm feeling weak, she's not letting me in anymore.

Cho: It's all right, Wanda. You have done enough for today

Wanda removed the powers from Natasha's mind and sat down on the floor, trying to recover. Natasha opened her eyes at the same time and sat down, feeling her heart beat very fast.

Natasha remembered all the horrors she had made and what she did to several people, innocent and guilty ones. It was a lot of information that she kept hidden in her mind so she wouldn't suffer over it.

Natasha couldn't help the tears, her whole body shivered involuntarily. Steve stared into Natasha's eyes, but she was looking through him, it was like she wasn't there.

S: Natasha? Natasha?

Cho approached and checked Natasha's vital signs.

Cho: She'll be fine, she just need to rest. We can try another day.

S: No! I don't want her to remember that way. I won't allow this to happen again!

Steve was very angry, he took Natasha in his arms and left the room.

Steve put Natasha in the car, and she quickly fell asleep, he took her home and asked Cindy to pick up the children and stay with them in her house until the next day. Steve doesn't want the kids to see their mother in that state

Steve carried Natasha in his arms all the time, it was difficult to have to deliver her to bed. Yes, even to bed it was hard, because no one can take better care of her than he, nothing is reliable enough.

As soon as Natasha felt her body touch the bed, she awoke. Her eyes were heavy and she was slow to open her eyes. When she opened a breach, it was very foggy.

S: Shhh...

Steve sat on the bed next to Natasha and laid a hand on her forehead. Natasha seemed to struggle to stay awake, she began to pull the air hard, trying to reinvigorate herself. Finally her view cleared and she managed to look at Steve.

Natasha knows she couldn't get to the end of that experience and she is very sorry to have finished with Steve's last hopes of getting her memories back.

N: Steve?

S: I'm here. Take a rest.

N: I'm sorry...

S: It's okay, don't worry about that.

N: I wanted to remember... I really wanted to.

Steve stroked Natasha's face and showed empathy with his gaze.

S: I know.

Natasha struggled to get up and became extremely agitated.

N: The children! We have to get them.

S: No... Calm down, Cindy picked them for me.

Steve made Natasha lay down on the bed again

N: You should have gone.

S: I'm not going anywhere until you're okay.

Natasha looked at Steve and she wanted to smile, but she was weak and too disappointed with herself.

Natasha sighed and closed her eyes.

N: I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Steve noticed that Natasha was still sleepy. He took her hand and stroked the back of it.

Natasha dozed for another half hour and woke up more aware, Steve was still sitting on the edge of the bed looking at her.

Natasha doesn't understand how he can smile at this moment, he must be devastated and yet he wants to make her feel good. No one can think so much about someone else. It's not normal.

S: Are you hungry? I can prepare a soup...

Natasha made negative with her head.

Steve ran a hand over her forehead, removing a few strands of hair from Natasha's face.

S: Are you feeling better now?

Natasha nodded.

S: I'm sorry you had to go through all of that.

N: It's not your fault.

S: I didn't want you to go through that.

N: It's alright. I am fine.

S: And I'm sorry for everything that happened to you...

Now Natasha has changed the look on her face, she doesn't talk about the past, it's too painful and she doesn't want anyone's pity. She gets annoyed when someone ask too much about it and she was afraid Steve was going to try to talk about what happened, but all he said was that. He didn't insist. Natasha breathed a sigh of relief.

N: Steve?

Natasha looked into his eyes.

Steve raised his eyebrows.

N: Can you lie here with me? Just a little bit.

Steve looked at her and nodded.

Steve took off his shoes and settled next to Natasha. Steve lay with his belly up and Natasha lay on her side, hugging Steve's waist and laying her head on his chest.

Steve sighed and hugged Natasha's back, he stroked Natasha's arm as if to say it was okay, and she felt the comfort he was giving to her.

Who should have been comforting someone, it was Natasha, she knows his heart must now be tight and knows that he probably lost all hope of her recovering any memory of the life she had with him. He's so good, he's just too good for someone like her.

Even if I am feeling something now, what right would I have to be with such a man? At the end of it, I know very well how it will end. He'll end up like Bucky, like Alexei and like Clint Barton. Shattered and doomed to suffering. I can't do that to him. Natasha thought with her eyes open, but Steve couldn't notice she was still awake.

I need to give it up on him. Natasha thought again and this time she felt her heart tighten because she, now, realizes that she has grown some feelings for Steve and this feeling grown each day she spends with him.

But her feelings for the other guys grew up too, and that didn't stop her from getting rid of them, with no remorse at all.

Natasha turned her face to Steve's body, she let her nose rest against Steve's chest, and she pulled the air hard enough to smell him, as if it were the last time she could do that. Natasha sighed once more and lifted her face, Steve was still awake and he gave a small smile as they met each other's eyes.

Natasha rested her hand on the bed and moved her body higher, she leaned her face in the direction of Steve and he in hers. The two kissed tenderly, Steve reached a hand up to Natasha's neck and slid down to the nape of her neck.

Steve kissed her for almost forty minutes straight, deep down he seemed to know what was going on, he knew it was a goodbye and the way he was kissing her was a way to ask her to not do that, to not leave him.

Natasha placed her hand over Steve's and pulled lightly to her face, she released Steve's lips and kissed the palm of his hand, then she looked into his eyes and moved her body over his.

Natasha sent over Steve's legs and removed her shirt over her head. She removed her bra and Steve unbuttoned her jeans.

Steve hugged Natasha's waist and turned her body, laying her down on the bed, he kissed Natasha's neck, then her belly and she ran her fingers through Steve's hair.

Steve continued to spread kisses down on her body.

Steve grabbed Natasha's jeans and kissed her navel as he forced to remove the pants from her body. Natasha lifted her legs up in the air to help Steve. He removed her jeans and then held the sides of her panties.

Steve kissed beneath Natasha's navel and slowly slid her panties down.

Steve made love to Natasha almost all night long, he doesn't even remember when they both stopped and fell asleep. Steve only knows that the next morning, he woke up on the floor of the bedroom, covered with a comforter and alone.

Steve looked around and didn't see Natasha and he didn't look for her in the apartment because he knows that Natasha is gone.

♫ Don't you forget about me

Don't don't don't don't

Don't you forget about me

Will you stand above me?

Look my way, never love me

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down

Will you recognise me?

Call my name or walk on by?

Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling

Down, down, down, down

Don't you try to pretend

It's my feeling we'll win in the end

I won't harm you or touch your defenses

Vanity and security

Don't you forget about me

I'll be alone, dancing you know it, baby

Going to take you apart

I'll put us back together at heart, baby

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

As you walk on by

Will you call my name?

When you walk away ♪

Simple Minds – Don't You