"Tag! You're in!" My brother tapped me as he ran away. "Haha! You can't catch me little sis!" His head facing backwards as he kept running. "I'm gonna get you big bro!" I gnarled. "No you won't!" He stick out his tongue.

"No!! Dan!! Wait STO- AHHH".

I woke up panting heavily. I was just a dream. I reminded myself. I stood up to get a glass of water from the counter but I had a sharp pain and immediately fell down.

I wailed in pain hoping someone would come to my rescue.. I needed my tabs and it was out of reach. I didn't care if mum saw me with them I just wanted the pain to be gone.

I was still wailing when Heath came in... we hadn't talked since the last time he kissed me."Shit! Scarlet you're bleeding" I looked terrified. "Your mum's not around let me just call her" he said pulling out his phone from his pocket.

"No...no..." I panted. "What do you mean no?! You're clearly unwell!" He scolded.

I just ignored and pointed at my closet "Closet... Drugs..." I managed to utter as he rushed to my closet and frantically searched for the meds. He got them and a glass of water and gave it to me.

I took the drugs but it didn't stop the pain, I took a second dose... Nothing happened. I picked up the meds taking as many dose I could hold and was about to drink it when Heath slapped it away from my hands.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?!" He yelled at me. I smiled at him as I slowly passed out.

When I woke up I saw him lying on my bed pushing his fingers through his hair... He was panicking.

I moved slowly towards his and touched his hands he looked back and I smiled.

"You crazy baffon!" He hugged me and then suddenly he pulled out of the hug. And I knew he was going to ask me questions so I was already prepared.

"Why do you have meds in your closet?" He asked. "Because!" I answered. "You're lying... You were at the point of dying! It there something wrong?" He asked and now he was shouting  "no" I shrugged. "Scarlet if you don't talk I swear I'd call your mum!" He threatened. "Okay! It's because I'm on my period okay!!" I yelled back at him... It was now I realized how embarrassing it was to say something out loud even if I was lying. "Oh..uh... I-I didn't know you were..." he fake coughed.

I just rolled my eyes at him. He asked the question so he deserved the answer.

"I should pretty much get going since you're better now" he said as he rubbed his neck. "No please stay...." I said in a low voice as I patted the space besides me signalling for him to sit and he did.

He took my med from the bed and kept it in my drawer. He stopped and looked at something.

"Who is this?" He asked as he picked an old photo of me and my brother. "Is he your favourite person?" He asked jealousy in his speech.

I just rolled my eyes "yes he is my favorite person" I answered.

"Where is he now?"

"D-dead" I bit back tears... I didn't like to admit my brother was no more. Heath noticed my current mood and shifted closer to me "I'm sorry... I didn't mean" he forced my head into his chest which was somehow comforting.

"I wiped tears off my face... I didn't want him to see me cry. "It's okay... You can let it all out..." He said calmly and I don't know how and why but I  just found myself telling him about Danny.

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7 YEARS AGO......

"come on... Let's go to the park today. I promise it will be fun" I said dragging my brother. "Carly... Let's go some other time, I really don't want to go" but he wanted otherwise. "Big brother! Mum said it's a family thing... Please come" I persuaded him. "Ugh alright!" He finally budged. "How can I say no to my cute little sister" he said pulling my cheeks.

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When we got to the park, mum and dad decided to go set up our picnic site leaving me and Danny to play tag.. my favourite game

"Tag! You're in!" My brother tapped me as he ran away. "Haha! You can't catch me little sis!" His head facing backwards as he kept running. "I'm gonna get you big bro!" I gnarled. "No you won't!" He stuck out his tongue.

"No!! Dan!! Wait STO- AHHH" I screamed. I was too late. A truck had already hit Danny.

I froze right there on the spot feeling helpless.

My scream caught the attention of my parents because they came rushing like mad chickens... "What is i-oh my baby!" She screamed when she saw what happened. And she began crying too.

"I-im sorry.." I repeated that words countless of times.

"Dan.. he said he didn't want to go to the park but I forced him, I begged him to.."

"Dan..."
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THE PRESENT?

"i could have stopped his death.. if only I wasn't so carried away.. he wouldn't have died" I took a deep breath to continue. "If only I could go back and change the past... He only cared for me and I used that to his advantage and got him killed.. if onl-"

"He even made me promise him that I'll be happy as long as I thought of him... But how can I be happy when I killed him?" I yelled and cried.

"You didn't kill him... That was just his fate" Heath who has been listening consoled me. "Your brother would be really proud to see how grown you are" he teased "he would be so proud to see how stubborn you are too and how well you've grown if you were happy..."he paused looking for the right words to say.

"How would you feel if your brother whom you promised to be happy saw you now a crybaby?!" He asked. " But I-i killed him" I said.

"The fuck is your problem?! You didn't kill him and your brother fucking knows that and he is happy you didn't die in his place! Unless you're jealous of him, why can't you be thankful for having such an amazing brother?!"

He was right. I loved my brother but in the real sense, I was also jealous of him. He was the perfect one and I was nothing like that, I was far from perfect. He was good at everything but I had many flaws. I sometimes wished I was him, he could do anything and it would be perfect even if it was his first time doing it. But I loved him, I really loved my brother.

I became silent not because I didn't have what to say but I didn't know what to say because there was nothing to.

Heath hugged me and patted me on the head "I'm sorry I yelled at you...your too cute to be yelled at. I might not know much about your brother... But I'm sure he meant a lot to you" she said as he planted a kiss on my forehead.

"C'mon now let's go have breakfast" he said dragging my lazy self out of the room.