when I started this book this was the first memory I thought about sharing but some recent revelations had changed my view towards this memory and made me feel like the biggest fool of the world, hence the name but previously this chapter was named "A LOST FRIEND" and with name my feelings are also changed so the chapter is diff from what I had initially envisioned it to be.

So welcome to the world of my bitter and better memories. hope you enjoyed it and can relate to me.

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This is a memory of my polytechnic days which I joined after completing my matriculation (10th). As I had already told you in previous chapter that during my school life I was a loner and never had any friends.

I never thought that there will be a time when I would make friends. But with school changing into college my feelings changed too. And for the first time in my life I made friends.

I did not even realised from where this need for friend came nor I realise when I started calling my classmates friends. It never happened before in my life where I felt a need for someone, but the need was there do was the urge to make friends, and I did made friends. I was not the only one for whom this was strange but for my family too. they never thought I would make friends ever but they were proven wrong for which they were glad.

With Friends many things came in my life. Having friends changed my life In many ways, the most prominent change was feeling emotion. emotion I haven't felt in so long. The first emotion was happiness. Spending time with friends, talking to them, fighting with them everything made me happy. I never felt that happy not in at least six years. this happiness was due to my friends Manu and Sonam.

I considered both Manu and Sonam my first friends, because honestly I don't remember

who was the first one I made friend with. I started talking to both of them at the same time, and it took us only a few days to became friends.

In time we came really close. All three of us started spending so much time together that in no time we bacame inseparable.

With my emotions one more thing changed. In all my school life I was never one for talking, be it primary or middle school I never talked but in college yhat changed. Now all we did was talking.

I remember in school one of my teacher called me and Anu the 'silent duo ' of our class but now in college our trio was declared the most talkative trio. How things changed we don't even realised, It is only now when we look back and see how our behaviour was changed.

Being talkative had really damaged our reputation, even our teachers were irritated with us because of our continuous chattersin the class during lectures and threatened us sometime with suspension but there threat never hit the mark and we never stopped talking.

With time we were coming closer and we thought our friendship was strengthen but that was only Sonam and my case but not Manu.

I am not saying that Manu was distancing herself from us, No, we were still together, she still share her feelings with us but its only now that we realised that it was all but a string of lies. If she really was our friend then why she lied to us?

Every time when she did something wrong she put all the blame on others, aspecially on her cousin, who was our classmate.