TW: derealization

Life felt like a movie,
As if I watched from far away.
I knew my role,
I knew my lines,
But the voice - it wasn't mine.

The world spun on without me,
A stage where I did not belong.
Trapped inside my restless mind,
Last thoughts clutching at reason's edge.
I tried to step back in,
To grasp reality again.
But the door was locked,
And I stood outside.

I am not my body,
Nor my brain.
Someone shut me down.
It feels like a dream,
A dream I can't escape.

A spark of feeling touched my mind,
I won’t dare to let it fade.
At last,
I see again,
Not through a wall, but through my eyes.
I can join the world once more.
But God, where had my mind been?

~vanellajojo

--> As I struggle with derealization a lot, I thought I'd try to write about it