"Somehow I felt understanded. As if some invisible voice said to me: "It's okay. Everything will be okay. Look, even the sky's crying, so it's okay if you do too." ~Me

It's okay to cry and to scream! It's okay to not know what to do. And it's also okay to be not okay.
Instead of feel the smoke leave my lungs I listend to music yesterday and screamed at the top of my lungs to the song.
I don't really know what that song sets free in me, but it was enough to make me feel at least a little bit better.

"Cimorelli - Headlights"

I've already said it a million times but I don't understand how the bad things always happen to good people..
Like what did they do? What have they done to deserve such things?
As if the universe thinks 'Hm.. okay, you and you, you're too good to be true. There's something wrong with you. And if not, now here's something that will teach you something.'
I just don't understand it.
Can't I just load everything bad that happens to this person on my own shoulders?
It doesn't matter to me what it is, give me the stress, give me the disease, everything. I can handle it.

But maybe I'm just too much of a heart-person.
It just hurts me to see my friends suffer. I would literally do anything to make them happy or at least feel a little bit better.

Dear God..
Please just give her the luck she deserves!! And let her be healthy.
I know you can hear me.
Thank you!
Love, S.