Time goes on sitting dully in class.My grades are apparently 'slacking'.It's hard to focus due to the two girls that sit behind me.Smiling and giggling. As much as I would love to call them dumb bimbos they have the top grades in the school.They go on giggling talking about my boyfriend. I hear them wishper his name.And then paper being drawn on and crumpled up due to the obvious crush they have on him.I wouldn't really care if they where normal girls. But these two are his 'best friends' one of them his ex girlfriend of two times and one he 'had' a crush on.It's fine.it's nothing.I don't care he is mine and loyal to me right?.At the back if my mind something wishpers.That's what they thought too.Officially pissed off the bell rings after a millennium.I'm shaky and light headed as I stand.A feeling I'm all too used to.Like I might start shaking any minute or pass out.He gives me this feeling.And I hate it.It's so pathetic. I can't bare to not be in the same room as him without feeling feeble and helpless.They rush out the class to go wait for my boyfriend at his classroom door.At this point I'm to drained to interfere.He leans on the wall cooly,as they talk.I act like I don't even notice them there as they twist their hair and giggle.I walk past.I know he is probably fliting with them.But I will deny it,to myslef till the end I'm sure."Hey baby" He calls out to me.I lightly wave and carry on.Quickly he ends the conversation with them and catches up to me.Instanly my anxiety vanishs the light headness and everything else.Im fine agian.This physical need of him is ridiculous."Baby what's wrong? "
Nothing I smile.His eyes grow concerned.Not even phased the slightest at my lie. "Baby please tell me." He says while leading me into the café out of sight of teachers.How could this sweet angel even do something like that to me.simple he wouldn't. I convince myself. I'm being stupid and paranoid as usual.That ruined my last relationship. "I'm serious it's nothing babe."He hugs me tightly and a goodbye kiss before I head off to my next glass One of my friends Valentina motions for me.I of course go.she pulls out her phone of a video."I took this in da morning. Dis what happens when you no here." She speaks through a thick Mexican accent.Her English is improving. She pressed play and I see my boyfriend Matthew there with the two smart bimbos Jessica and Jennifer.He plays with them.But there is a thin line between his playing and his flirting. I was once the victim of this game as well.And he is crossing that line.Did I mention she is also one of his many exes.But I try not to let everytime I see a Hispanic girl that she is his ex get to me.He dated them all but I'm sure that I'm diffeent right?Ive been arguing with myself all day about his careless actions.Untill the last straw.His ex girlfriend THE ex gf.the one he cut himself over the one he dumped me for becuase he was still in love with her is wearing his jacket. His favorite jacket.as he has hers in his arm while what talking and 'playing' with Jennifer and Jessica.I look away and pray for my ride to pick me up this is too much.I stand there alone and upset until I'm being lifted off the ground by a pair of very masculine arms might I add and hugged tightly.He burrys his head in my neck as he puts me down."Hey baby" he smiles. all angers disappointment is gone and I'm just elated to be with him."I love you" he cooes. "I love you too babe."
With a goodbye kiss my ride pulls up and he has vanished. I step into the vehicle with a mix of jumbled feelings and one thought on my mind him.Convently he texts me.Even though it hasn't been 5 minutes yet it reads 'I miss u so much baby' I smile to myslef dismissing any doubt about us.This is all fine,right?