I layed down and was out like a baby*.I sat there in fear.Rage flared in his eyes. The man that made my life hell.The man I feared more than anyone,my Father.He towers over me a chair firmly in his grip."I told you to make this damn house spotless!"He spat through slurred drunken words. I didn't dare speak
"Answer me boy!" He reached down and his hand connected with my face sending me into a wall.I crumbled to the floor.my side surely bruised"I-i-im s-sorry"An evil galre spread across his face. "Your sorry? A deep chucke rumbled in his throat." I'll make you sorry."He sqauted down to make eye contact."Rember that game we would play Major?His clod fingers rubed my lips."p-please d-d-don't.He ran his hand down my stomach and grabbed my face.C'mon major have fun with daddy.Giant arms scooped me up and carried me into his room."click" the sound of the door locking and my stomaching churning. "C'mon baby boy,daddy is going to make you feel good.I cried as he came closer." Shut up you fucking piece of worthless shit!" He barked. cold fingers tore off my shirt off exposing my bare chest.He was already naked."Remember what we did last time?"He whispered In my ear I violently shook his breathe reaked of ahcool.By the time he finished his sentence I was bare."Daddy don't " His lips attacked mine roughly."We are going to have fun and your going to make daddy feel good for your 6th birthday.Your going to do big boys things."He turned me over.
I awoke screaming,and my face drenched with tears and sweat.I just sat there,and let the tears flow free down my face.I hate my life,this fucking pathetic life."Die,fucking die you piece of shit" "I hate you" "worthless" "mistake" my walls they talk to loud and the voices someone please help me."no one wants you"they taunted. I knew deep inside that the voices never lie.Only people do.Everyone,every I love you,you'll be okay,lies! 'I was there when no one else was' 'I won't leave you even if your worthless" the voice said.I just need to make it stop,time stop,the pain and voices just stop. adrenaline overcame me.anger light every muscle in my being.I should be dead they just had to fucking find me.I WANT to be dead.who do they think they are they can't make me live."they don't care anyway" the walls whispered.Major Quinn Navada a boy never meant to be alive, or born for that matter.my mom told my I was an accident.this isn't my life I pleaded with anyone who might listen or hear me.