I jump into relationships fast. 

I think thoughts that I think are supposed to be there.

But really, in reality, I rush it.

I rush, because I think that I like them already. (crush wise)

I rush it because, I'm afraid that I'll become nothing.

I rush because, the last time I waited, he fell for him.

I rush because, I'm afraid I'll be a distant memory. 

I rush because, I hate being alone. 

I rush because I don't know love.

I rush because there's a thrill.

I rush because I don't know any better.

I rush because, no one's ever waited for me.

I rush because, no one's ever stayed.

I rush because, no one takes the time to know me.

Like I took the time to know them.

I rush because I live in the past.

I rush because I can't let go of the regrets.

I live in the past because that's where some happiness lies.

I live in the past because back then, I had emotions that lasted.

I live in the past because that's when I was loved....I think.

It was before, I'd slip in and out of depression. 

I'm not bipolar, but I have depression. 

Fuck late nights and lonely thoughts. RIP

idfk probably will delete this chapter.