Its been a month since i saw Dean.

I miss him.

I never knew how much he effected me until now. I still talk to him, but only through small sentence letters that explain my day or night. I kept them in a box, in the closet right next to my window where we always meet. I made sure no one saw me when i put in new entries, not even Gabriel knew where it was.

It was my secret.

I swore i saw him one night. I was putting away a letter, and i glanced up, i saw his piercing green eyes and freckled face. He smiled back at me before disappearing again; i didn't see him since.

Ever since that day, i wrote even more, hoping he saw me in the cracks of my window or during my walks to the cafe.

I still believed he was real, but the fact that he wasn't near didnt help. I remember running up to my room that night to see our polaroids. I grabbed a handful of them from my wall and saw they where only disoriented and blurry; only a fragment of my hand or the floor was seeable, the rest, empty and useless.

Now Im sitting here writing another letter in the cafe where we met. It still smell like chocolate and coffee, the aroma so familiar and sweet. I ran my hand across the table i was at, a faint smile on my lips as i basically felt him slide the piece of paper to me.

But when i looked up, he obviously wasn't there; he never was.

I sighed as i took a sip of my coffee, a small frown in my face as i folded the letter in my hands. "See you again tomorrow?" I looked up and saw the guy who made my coffee, Sam, wave at me. "Y-Yeah, sure." I smiled slightly as i stood up and grabbed my things carefully.

I walked out and was hit with the cold breeze of the morning, my arms instantly warming against the hot cup in hand. It was a weird feeling yet i always enjoyed the tingles it sent down my fingers.

I hummed a song that i became familiar to once Dean left, it was slow and it calmed me down as i walked down the concrete path.

In minutes i was back home, the feeling of relieve swarming over me as i opened the door to see Gabriel sitting on the couch. "Back so soon?" He smirked slightly as he kept his eyes glued to the screen of the tv. "Just finished my coffee faster than usual." I hummed as i quickly slipped the paper behind my cup as i made my way to my room.

"Max?" I saw the dog wag her tail franticly as she laid on my bed. "I thought you ran away, oh you little-" i put my things down and happily jumped right next to her as i ran my fingers down her fur. "We can bond later, i have to put something away real quick." I whispered as i patted her head one more time before getting up.

I grabbed the letter in hand and sighed slowly as i walked over to the closet to get the box. I moved over a few things, most i don't remember being there, and saw the small storage filled with letters.

My heart dropped as i saw it was opened, because i know i closed it earlier. "What the hell.." I reached down and put my letter away to see a smaller grey card placed over my other ones.

It was from Dean