After I was obducted by the rebel alliance I was held prisoner.

For the first month I was so mad at my.... Mother... The resistance... And her...

I began to plan an escape and Finnish what I started... but... Killing my mother... And her resistance followers...

If I do that... she wouldn't talk to me...

I felt her presence there but... She never came.

I visited her once... She was with a man... He was holding her hand...

I got so angry I grabbed her hand away from his... She looked at me... She was so surprised...

She blocked me out... I haven't been able to reach her for days...

I knew my men we're never coming for me considering there leader is now a selfish imposter pig.

And I knew the rebel alliance was planning to do something with me.

Perhaps kill me, or make a threat. Honestly Im done fighting... All I want is Rey... but Rey doesn't want to see me...

I fear... She'll never talk to me ever... She'll never forgive me... Maybe I should just die... I mean it's not like I have much to live for anyway....

I shouldn't be forgiven for what I've done...

I should pay for my sins...

Tears drop down bens cold dirt covered cheeks. He sniffles and leans against the cold rusty wall and closes his eyes he sits on the cold ground and sets his hands on the ground feeling his energy fill through out his cell. Tiny rock shards floated and dirt circled around him. He squeezed his eyes and pictured Rey. He pictured her smiling while holding the man's hand. 'She'll never look at you like that.' He began to strain and sweat. He grunted and squeezed his fists. 'Just stop. ' He then let it all go and breathed heavily while straining. 'Shes never gonna listen to a "murderous snake" Like you.' He uncrossed his legs and leaned against the wall and exhaled softly. He softly whispered, "Rey... " The sound of his gentle voice echoed in his stall. A single tears slid down his cheek as his body then slumped with Exoustion. He slumped to the side and his head hit the ground.