She escaped from the class to the restroom away from the taunts and mockery to the silence

She took the support leaning her back on the wall trying to steady herself ... Her whole body shivered with the mocks and taunts he was throwing on her way ...

Her eyes brimmed with tears as she continuously rubbed her cold and shivering hands in order to control her anxiety... Trembling she walked to the basin ... Opening the tap letting the water flow ... The water flowed felt like all her emotions flowing with in herself ... As she closed her eyes her chin wobbling as she took the support of the basin

Her tears felling down no one was there in the restroom .. she let herself flow some tears ... Before she took some cold water splashing it into her face ... Rubbing her face in a stressed circular motion with her trembling hands. .. she opened her eyes looking into the mirror at herself

Why is she like this ?... Why can't she be strong enough ...

Why can't she gather her courage more tears flowed down making her more drained his continuous mocking ringed in her ears like an ugly music ... Eyes fell closed in a complete motion as she remembers and whispers in a complete vulnerability

"Mai bachpan se hi aisi hu" Her chin wobbled when she whispered ...

"Bachpan se hi aisi hu ... Kbhi apne liye nhi lad payi ... Kbhi nhi ... Kbhi bhi nhi" tears fell down ... As she remembered

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5 year old Sana was swinging in the garden humming a tune ... When all of a sudden from somewhere two girls probably 8 years... Came infront towering nd stopping her swing...

"Ayy bachi ... Hat yaha se" One of the girls said in a harsh tone. Which made Sana shiver ...

"Didi maine abhi liya ... Ap dusre jhule par chale jao" Mustering some courage little Sana whispered when suddenly the other girl took her hand and pulled her from the swing in a sudden motion that Sana fell ..

And they started laughing over her mocking her ...

That time also she couldn't bring herself to muster enough courage to tell her mother about that incident ... Sana knows that this incident is not much big now ...but to that small 5 year old girl it left a huge impact ... From that time to now she has just been quite and submitting not wanting to get involved with people as she knows people only hurt ... No one is good enough to be with anyone ...

That girls mocked laughing ringed in sana's ears as she closed her ears with both her palms taking a step back closing her eyes tightly pushing all those incidents deep inside her ...

"Shhh ....shhhh ... Kuch nhi hota ... Kuch nhi hoga .. it's ok it's fine your ok your fine ...shh shh" Her voice trembled as she whispered those soothing words to herself ...

She washed her face again drained from her continuous anxiety she knows right now she can't face anything it would lead to worse of her health and she didn't wanted to breakdown infront of the whole class ...

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"Darpok" He snickered whispering to himself mockingly ...

The bell for the other period ringed as sidharth kept sitting on his seat the other side was empty... He kept looking at the gate waiting for her to come ... It's almost been 30 minutes when she didn't came .. he jerked himself that he doesn't care ... But maybe he wanted to mock her more ... Or maybe he just wanted to see her ... He nods his head in no ...

No he can't be soft towards anyone he didn't wanted to soft towards anyone ... He is the cold bully ... He can't be attracted to anyone but somehow her eyes are always his weak point ...

"Sidharth ... Where's your bech mate?" The teacher asked all of a sudden ... Sidharth shrugged his shoulders.

"I don't know mam ... Last period se nhi dikhi" He sat down on his place ... When kushal said all of a sudden

"Mam maine usse sickroom ki taraf jate dekha tha" His words grabbed sidharth's attention all of a sudden ... Sick room ... What happened to her

A part of him all of a sudden grew concerned as what happened to her in some moments that she have to go to the sick room but his ego was big enough to suppress his concern for her as he mocked she just wanted to run away from him because she can't handle him how weak ... He smirked

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"Yaha kya kar rahi ho ...Sana" He whispered in her ears extra sweetly ... She felt shiver ran down her spine as his voice ringed in her ears ... Her head was down as she seated near the stretcher keeping her head low resting on her snaked hands...

She looked up at him ... Suddenly getting away looking here and there in the room.
finding her self and him all alone

"Kya hua Sana ... Dar lag raha hai mujhse ?" He asked his voice dripping with sarcasm as she gulped the lump formed in her throat

She pushed her chair back ... Standing up trying to go away when he held her wrist standing up ...

She wriggled her wrist and he held it tight he could feel her shivering

She looked down her eyes brimming with tears again ... As he took a step closer ... With his index finger he made her look into his eyes ... He felt as if her teary eyes stabbed into his heart ...

Before he could say anything ... The voice came from behind ...

"Sana chlo beta mumma agyi hai" She was coming yelling her name giving them time to make distance in between themselves Sana wiped her eyes taking her bag she walked away ... While he felt his heart dropping as he couldn't get the image out from his mind ...

The whole day he stayed quite ... Feeling the guilt that prickled into his heart ... His ego continuously mocking hum that why does he is getting soft towards her. ... When he felt someone approaching him ... Richa sat on his table looking at him .. while applying her lips gloss

"Bhag gyi wo ?" Richa laughs ...

"Good job sidharth ..  i just love the way she got scared ... Ye cheap ladkiya by God"

"Kitni attention ki bhookhi hai wo usko she pretends all vulnerable taaki sab uski taraf sympathy dikhaye oh my god ... How can a person be this weak....hushh"

"Just her cheap tricks ke koi ladka inpar fisal jaaye or inko attention de ...god"

Richa's words crushed the concern that rised for Sana within herself ...

As he felt anger building inside himself that he was about to fell for her trap ...

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"Sana bache ...kya hua beta ? Ajj half day lene kyu bulaya ? ...tbiyat kharab hai kya bache teri ? ... Doctor se appointment lelu kya ? ... Kuch problem ho ra hai kya ?"

"Kuch nhi maa ... Kl dawai Lena bhool gyi thi ... Ajj subha khai thi lekin shyd wo asar nhi Kara ... Anxiety jyada ho rhi thi toh apko bula liya ...sorry" Sana whispered she felt the guilt to call her mother after looking at her still in her office dress ...

"Apko aapke kama se aana pada meri wajah se" She bites her lips standing in front of her mother her head hung low ..

"Kaam zruri hai lekin terse Jada nhi bache ... Or waise bhi ... Kitna waqt hua Humne saath time bhi spend nhi Kiya ... Ab office ki chutti hogyi ... Mitti paa"

!Tu change krle beta ... Mai bhi change krti hu fir hum dono maa beti baith ke Netflix dekhenge"

"Netflix and chill yooo" Her mother giggles making Sana laughs finally who wants a friend when she has a mother like this ...

"Mumma I love you" Sana hugs her mother tightly trying to feel some love ... The love she has been craving for ...

Her mother kissed her head softly trying to take her daughter's pain away ... Why did Sana have to suffer so much through anxiety... Sana never told anything what she faced and now her mother doesn't forces her for the things she knows that are going to affect her health ...

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Both mother and daughter duo sat in the drawing area ... While her mother was watching the series intently popping the chips in her mouth Sana stayed quite at the corner of the sofa

Her mind drifting back to the scenario happened in the class ... Painting is really personal to her ...she was trying to get her peace back and he ruined it ... Perfectly ruined painting ...

Her chin wobbled again as she slowly moved to her mother laying her head on her lap ... Her mother shuddered a little as she was too lost she slowly caressed her hairs letting Sana close her eyes ....

"Sana tu thik hai na bache ?" She turns off the tv caressing her hairs slowly calming her down ...

"Maa mai apko ek kahani sunau ?" She asks in her slow and low voice making her mother both worried and curious

"Hn bache bol na"

"Ek ladki hai jo bohot chup chup si rehti hai ...kisi se kuch bolti nhi ... Dari sehmi rehti hai nazre uthati hai toh lagta hai jaise sab usse dekh rahe hai ... Khud ko chupati hai sabse jaise usne kuch gunah kiya hai ..  usse lagta hai jaise wo is duniya ke kaabil nhi ... Usse lagta hai usse koi pasand nhi karta ... Kyuki usmea isa kuch khas hai hi nhi"

"Ek ladki jo simat rakhi hai apne andar ... Aise jaise ek pinjre me bandha pakshi ho .. ek ladki jisko lgta hai sab usse kayi zyada khoobsurat hai ... Ek ladki jisse koi pasand nhi krta wo khud bhi nhi ... Wo sambhal rkhi hai ... Pinjre mai bnd jaise ... Or tabhi uski zindagi Mai ek toofan aata hai ..  wo toofan jo usse dheere dheere taklif de raha hai ... Jo toota hua dil hai ladki ka usko dheere dheere choor kar raha hai ... Ek ladka hai ... Jisse sakhti mai rehna pasand hai ... Jiske andar dil hi nhi ... Jisme koi feelings nhi ... Ek ladka hai jisko kabhi dard nhi hota ... Ek ladka Jo is ladki ko dheere dheere barbaad kar raha hai ... Wo kyu aaya us ladki ki zindagi Mai maa"

She uttered softly murmuring her tears felling down ... She waited for her mother to respond. .. when she turned around she looked at her mother drifted into sleep ... She smiled sadly ... And got up from her lap paving her way to her room ...

No one is there to listen to her. ..

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That is it for today.

Hope you all like it. Not everyone is strong enough to fought for themselves, everyone is different, same as Sana, sometimes past incidents make us weak. Past incidents, whether painful or traumatic, can deeply affect one's sense of self and confidence, making some more vulnerable. These experiences shape how we interact with the world, often creating emotional barriers for self-protection. Strength, therefore, isn't always loud or visible; it can be found in quiet perseverance.

Thanks for reading ❤️