Songs used for this chapter:
Valerie by Naya Rivera(Santana Lopez)
Beth by the Glee boys and Mark Sailing(Noah Puckerman)

Warning:Contains mentions of self harm,suicide and rape.

Santana

"If you wanna win this better take notes"I smirked at the boys and girls behind me.Those newbies were worse at dancing than Finn"Five six seven eight!"

Me (New Directions Girls):
Well, sometimes I go out by myself
And I look across the water
(Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh,
Uh, uh, uh-uh)
And I think of all the things,
What you're doin'
And in my head I paint a picture (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh,
Uh, uh, uh-uh)

'Cause since I've come on home (Aaahh, aahh)
Well, my body's been a mess (Aaahh, aahh)
And I've missed your ginger hair (Aaahh, aahh)
And the way you like to dress

The boys and girls were paired up while trying to follow Mike and me.Either Brenda would step on Thomas or Mihno would step at Teresa.Sometimes Alby would bump into Harriet and Gally along with Ben,Jeff and Frypan would constantly fall.Honestly,Finn might as well danced better than them.

Me with New Directions:
Won't you come on over?
Stop making a fool out of me
Why don't you come on over Valerie?

Me (New Directions):
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Valerie-e-e (Why don't you come on over?)
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Va-a-lerie yeah (Valerie, Valerie)
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Valerie-e-e (Why don't you come on over?)

Me (New Directions Girls):
Did you have to go to jail
Put your house on up for sale
Did you get a good lawyer-e-er? (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh, uh, uh, uh-uh) (New Directions:Lawyer-e-er)

I hope you didn't catch a tan (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh, uh, uh, uh-uh)
I hope you find the right man who'll fix it for you (New Directions: Who'll fix it for you)
Now are you shopping anywhere (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh, uh, uh, uh-uh)
Changed the color of your hair (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh, uh, uh, uh-uh)
And are you busy? (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh, uh, uh, uh-uh) (New Directions: Are you busy?)
And did you have to pay that fine (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh, uh, uh, uh-uh)
That you were dodging all the time (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh, uh, uh, uh-uh)
Are you still dizzy-y-y? (New Directions: Are you still dizzy, dizzy, dizzy?)

So their dancing was pretty much a disaster.Only Sonya and Newt did a good job.The blonde Hitler due to the cheerio practise and blonde Puckerman because of his mother.

Me:
Since I've come on home (Aaahh, aahh)
Well my body's been a mess (Aaahh, aahh)
And I've missed your ginger hair (Aaahh, aahh)
And the way you like to dress

Me with New Directions:
Won't you come on over
Stop making a fool out of me
Why don't you come on over Valerie?

Me (New Directions):
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Valerie-e-e (Why don't you come on over?)
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Va-a-lerie yeah (Valerie Valerie)
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Valerie-e-e (Why don't you come on over?)

This song was always my favourite.It reminded me of my past years with the glee club,it also reminded me of Brittany.She doesn't talk to me and neither do I.

Me (New Directions Girls):
Well, sometimes I go out by myself (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh, uh, uh, uh-uh)
And I look across the water (Uh-uh)
And I think of all the things, what you're doing (Uh, uh, uh, uh-uh, uh, uh, uh, uh-uh)
And in my head I paint a picture...... (Uh-uh)

She could just apologize to me.I did nothing wrong!Okay maybe kissing Smythe wasn't the best idea...but he is gay!And so am I!So it doesn't count

'Cause since I've come on home (Aaahh, aahh)
Well, my body's been a mess (Aaahh, aahh)
And I've missed your ginger hair (Aaahh, aahh)
And the way you like to dress

It's her fault anyway.How bad is that I wanted her to spent some time with me and Mihno?

Me with New Directions:
Won't you come on over
Stop makin' a fool out of me
Why don't you come on over Valerie?

And since when does she care about science?

Me (New Directions):
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Valerie-e-e (Why don't you come on over?)
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Va-a-lerie yeah
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Valerie-e-e (Why don't you come on over?) Valerie (Valerie Valerie)
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Valerie (Why don't you come on over Valerie?)
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa) Valerie Valerie (Why don't you come on over?)
(Pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa, pa)

She was never the sharpest knife in the drawer so why having an interest now?

Me with New Directions:
Why don't you come on over Valerie?

I hope Quinn doesn't have the same issues with Puckerman.

Noah

I looked outside the bus' window and drifted away.All those thoughts were torturing my mind from stories about those homeless men outside to the global warming.

No,under normal cicumstances,this wasn't me.Usually I would never travel alone to England,usually I would be home smoking a cigarrete in secret.

I got down and walked inside the old flat.Beth's apartment was empty and clean,sure some chairs and tables were still there along with her ripped posters.

I laid in her bed and closed my eyes shut.

"I'm sorry angel"I whispered.My head was touching rough,I lifted the pillow and found her journal.I guess they forgot to pack it.

I went through the pages until my eyes landed on one specific,three months ago.

It was my first party.I know I sound like a nerd and a bookworm but,I never felt like going.You know how I am,I can't make friends easily so I tried to only talk to my friends who invited me.Apparently they were too busy with their boyfriends.

It was an akward night for me,until a boy came to talk to me.He slumped against the wall next to me and offered me a drink.I didn't want to take it but he insisted I should,for the experience,so I did.

The one turned to two to three until I couldn't say anything.He started touching me.

I felt the anger rising inside me.I didn't want to know what happened next,though I had an idea,but as a father I knew I should.

He raped me

She wrote it while trembling,you could see the marks,and it was wet from the tears.I saw nothing more than black after that,Quinn texted me when I would go home but,I kept going through the pages and words.

I woke up alone and naked.I went home and threw up,stayed hours washing myself.I feel disgust with my own body.

Her desciptions made me feel her pain.It was like I could see her crying,vommiting,scrubbing her skin.

The tears started to roll from my eyes as I went to the last page.

Dad, I know you'll probably be the one to find this.Mum won't be able to handle going through my bedroom and Newt...lets hope he doesn't.Daddy I'm sorry,I can't handle this anymore.Mommy take care and Newt I love you very much.Whoever is reading this,go and tell them that.

As I took the flight back home I stayed for some hours in the bar.I drank and drank until I couldn't take it anymore.I had never seen the connection before,never until now.

I got back to the house,Quinn was sleeping but Newt was awake,I sat next to him and told him everything.The real reason why I went to England.

Me:Beth I hear you calling
But I can't come home right now
Me and the boys are playing
And we just can't find the sound

He looked at me with tearfull eyes for a while.Eventually he just took my hand and held it tight.

Me and Newt:Just a few more hours
And I'll be right home to you
I think I hear them calling
Oh, Beth, what can I do?
Beth what can I do?

Newt:You say you feel so empty
That our house just ain't a home
And I'm always somewhere else
And you're always there alone

Both:Just a few more hours
And I'll be right home to you
I think I hear them calling
Oh, Beth, what can I do?
Beth what can I do?

Me:Beth, I know you're lonely
And I hope you'll be alright
'Cause me and the boys will be playing all night
All night

He slept late at night with his door shut.Meanwhile Quinn was sleeping peacefully.

Those thoughts occured my mind once again.Why?Quinn was with me for real,not because of Beth,not because she wanted to get pregnant nor because she was trying to give me a reason to stay.

Quinn is beautiful,I never treated her like that,I never thought I had to.Sure both Finn and Sam had been better to her but I was the only one who didn't saw her as the devil they did when she betrayed them.Maybe I could have appreciated her more.

But why is she with me?

Perphaps she thinks she doesn't deserve something better.

I wrapped my arms around her and held her closed while planting a kiss to her forehead"I'm so sorry"

"For what?"

Quinn didn't open her eyes,she just stayed there and rested her head to my arms.She was dreaming,she was happy.

"What do you dream about Quinn?"

"Mm?"

"Do you dream about me?"

A long sigh escaped her lips as she whispered softly"Her..."

And Quinn had fallen back to sleep dreaming about her.While I was curcled up with the sheets and fought my thoughts.

"I'll make it right to you"

A/n This chapter has zero Newtmas and Faberry,of course there is a simple reason for that...I had to kill off Beth.

But the 'why' you shall find out later on...

P.s Does anyone play Dragon Mania?I'm currently obsessed with it