I tried to ignore Leah and Sarah's gawk throughout all the morning but it was kind of disturbing.

"All right I got it, I said he was hot! Now stop trying to make a freaking hole in my skull with your staring!" I wanted to yell but I didn't. I was just too plain embarrassed. Plus, admitting it out in the open would be like... well it really wouldn't be a good thing.

At lunch I grabbed a soup and a juice box at the cafeteria and sat at our usual table but I was all stressed out. Would they talk about it in front of everybody? Gosh that would be so embarrassing. How did all these crazy teenagers managed to survive through High school when they had crush after crush and constant awkwardness like that?

But I tried to set that issue aside because Matt, my all time best friend, was going to leave and hot or not hot I had to do something about it.

"Not feeling so good?" Matt asked me while he sat right in front of me.

"What?" I asked.

"You aren't eating" he answered gesturing towards my soup.

"We're not all pigs like you mister." I told him while staring at his four slices of pizza, two cheeseburgers and plate full of fries.

"You should be proud of me I took a salad" he answered with a huge grin and pointed a little bowl under the pizzas.

"You're not leaving." I said point blank.

"And how are we doing that?" he asked and took a mouthful of cheeseburger.

"Can't you stay at your house; I mean you're almost legal?"

Matt just shook his head.

"Explain!" I demanded.

"You know my dad. He would never let me live alone. You know how overprotective he is since mom... I mean he wouldn't even let Kat leave and we both know how much of a pain she is!" he answered me after swallowing.

I already knew that but I still had to ask.

"Okay then...Can't you say something like Jasmine is very emotionally unstable and if I leave she might kill herself?"

"Dad knows you Jass." Matt answered and rolled his eyes.

"I'm serious"

"You can't even kill a bug!" he chuckled.

"They are useful for my plants!" I answered, pouting.

"Snails, Jass. You can't even kill snails and those sticky things kill your flowers." Matt said incredulous.

My eyes narrowed.

"How does your mind work when you can't even get rid of something that hurts the thing you love the most in the world?" Matt asked and there was something in his eyes, his deep green eyes that glow. Or maybe it was just the golden in it. Maybe I was just imagining things. But when I stared in his eyes it was like I could see everything about him, like I could see the depth of him.

"Whatever they've done, I can't hurt them. I would just be as bad as them. And what if they have a family or friends I mean if I kill them I would hurt everyone around..." I whispered and stared at my hands.

Matt put his fingers under my chin and pushed my head back up.

"Hey, I'm not leaving yet." he told me in a soft tone.

We just stared at each other and he half smiled at me encouragingly.

"Nice moment over" Aston said as he sat beside me. "Scoop girl I'm not tiny winy like you"

"Gosh you're annoying" I couldn't help myself from saying.

"That's because you don't want to admit you have feelings for me, but that's alright baby I can wait, I'm a patient guy." he said with one of his huge annoying grins.

Matt threw a fries in his face. It had ketchup on it. I chocked a laugh.

"You want a food fight Allen?" Aston asked as he whipped the ketchup off his face with a napkin.

"As you said earlier, no one can beat the cheetah" Matt said laughing.

"I don't know how you stand this guy Jass" Aston said and he sat back.

"Leave her alone... Jass come on eat" Matt told me.

"Sure daddy" I said and rolled my eyes at him.

"Hey! I thought I was your daddy!" Aston said in a fake hurt tone.

"That's it! Move!" Matt told him.

Leah and Sarah were walking towards us with their tray in their hand and Vincent and Tim were following them.

"Someone, take his place I can't listen to him anymore" Matt explained as they got to the table.

Sarah and Leah just stared at me with playfully-evil eyes and Sarah sat beside me.

"What no hot meat?" Sarah asked me.

Oh gosh I'm going to make you pay for that.

"Bite me" I mumbled.

"Did I miss something?" Matt asked us.

"You did actually! See funny thing, this morning Jass was staring at..." Sarah started to say but I grabbed her arm and sunk my nails in her skin.

My eyes were pleading. Please don't, please please please, don't say it...

"You know what...not funny. You really had to be there..." she finally said and took a mouthful of her spaghetti.

Thank god!

"Okay... So, any other idea Jass or do I have to start packing?" Matt asked me.

Everyone was staring at us.

"I'm leaving..." Matt explained.

"WHAT?" everyone screamed in unison.

"What do you mean you're leaving?"

"How long have you...?"

"Where are you going...?"

Everyone were asking question at the same time.

"Everyone shush! He's not leaving! We're not letting that happen!" I said in a firm tone.

"You got that right" Sarah said but I was the only one to hear the understatement there.

"How about Katherine...?" I tried but I already knew the answer.

"Katherine??? I'd rather let you drive my baby than having her back home!" Matt said in a firm tone.

Damn Katherine for being such a pain... But who else could stay with Matt? And then it hit me.

"You could stay with us!"

Sarah almost choked on her drink and Leah dropped her cheeseburger.

"Ya right!" Matt said and took a mouthful of pizza.

"No I'm serious! You know how much dad likes you plus you're almost like family!"

"Not sure it's a good idea..."

"Matt, it's the only way" I answered, and it really was.

We just look at each other and I saw in his eyes that he would do it. He would ask to stay with me because he wanted to. It was a certainty in my mind.

"Roommates..." Matt snorted.

I had to smile at that.

And then for some idiotic reason I kept staring at him and my eyes fell on his lips and all I could see in my mind was me pushing him on my bed and kissing him.

SHIT!! What the hell is going on here?

"Stop daydreaming stupid head, stop daydreaming stupid head" I kept repeating in my mind but the image just kept popping back.

What was wrong with me?! First I agreed to the fact that he's hot and now I daydream about making out with him!! Surly I have some kind of glitch in my head... But wouldn't it be nice to kiss him...Shit shit shit!!!

"Jass are you alright?" Matt asked me.

"Hmm, ya sure... I gotta go now" I just answered and picked up my bag and almost ran out of the cafeteria.

I got in the first toilet I saw and curled myself on the ground.

And then there was the usual high pitch siren in my head and then I heard Matt breathing. Well this is just perfect!

"Maybe some stomach flu or something..." Aston said beside him.

"You really don't know her do you?" Matt answered and I could perfectly imagine the face he would make with that tone. Pissed off.

Ya and you know me too much Matt, I thought. And I should really get off this floor. Don't the janitors know how to clean up bathrooms?

"I'm sure she's fine Matt. You should stop worrying about her all the time" Aston said.

"Yes he should, but I don't want him to" I whispered against my legs.

"Could someone just please go check if she's alright? For the sake of me. She's in the bathroom." Matt said, still pissed.

Alright, how did he know I was in the bathroom?

"How'd you know?" Aston snorted.

For once I was glad Aston talked.

"Where else would she go dumbass!" Matt answered and I heard him get up from his sit and pick his tray.

Okay bad feeling. He's coming here, I was sure of it. And I couldn't look at him in the eyes, not with my stupid daydreaming. He would force it out of me, and he would laugh at me afterwards. Gosh it would be so embarrassing...

And then a face popped in my mind.

Baron.

Shit!

When Baron would find out about this he would kill me. Quite literally. He would be mad as hell. Oh my gosh I couldn't even imagine how mad he would be. I was going to be in deep deep trouble. I couldn't even imagine what he would do or what he would say... Oh my gosh what am I going to do? I can't face Baron! He's going to kill me. Dream or no dream, what he would do frightened me, because I wasn't stupid, I knew he could make me suffer in some way. Wasn't the mind the most dangerous thing about humans?

I heard a knock on the bathroom door.

"Jass, you in there?" Matt asked.

I didn't answer.

"Jass I know you're there!" he said.

I still kept silent.

"Jass, I'm warning you. If you don't say anything I'm coming in!" Matt said and I knew he meant it.

But like a stubborn child I didn't answer.

"Alright you asked for it." he just said and pushed the door.

I didn't raise my head. I kept in on my knees. I couldn't look at him. I felt too bad. And I also felt scare. What would I think about, next time I would stare at him? Me taking off his shirt?

And just as I thought about that, the image popped up.

Damn it!!

"Jass, what's going on?" he asked in a soothing voice.

"I don't want to talk about it!" I just answered and didn't look at him.

"Is it because you don't want me to live with you?"

"Of course not!" I automatically answered and I meant it.

I wanted Matt to stay with me; I just didn't want to keep having those stupid daydreams pop out.

"Then what's wrong?" he asked and I felt him bend beside me.

"I really really don't want to talk about it Matt..."

"Aw don't "I don't wanna talk about it Matt" me!" he said in a disapproving tone.

"What do you mean?" I asked him and looked up at him to see he was now sitting beside me.

"You always do that! You freak out over something and then when I ask you about it you just say "I don't wanna talk about it Matt". Do you know how frustrating it is?" he said frowning.

"I'm sorry, I really am" I answered and I was, because it was true I was doing that a lot to him "but it just...gosh I can't say it, it's just too... Urgg..."

Matt lifted his arm and held me tightly against the side of his chest. I just rested my face against his shoulder and breathed in the scent of him. Damn he smelled good...

"I won't try to make you spill the beans but you know you can always talk to me right?"

"Ya I know" I answered my eye closed, just breathing in and out his sweet smell.

And then Mrs Doe, an old English teacher, with wrinkles all over her face, glasses held by a chain and a bad perm, walked in the bathroom and gasped.

"Mr Allen!! What are you doing here??!!! Get out of this bathroom this very instant!!!" she screamed like she had just walked in a murder scene.

He got up in one of his fast jerk-up movement with me still held against his side.

"Sorry Mrs Doe, I was just..." Matt tried to explain but she cut him off.

"I do not want your explanation and I certainly do not want to know what you were doing on the bathroom floor here with Miss Roberts!! You filthy adolescents and your disgusting sexual proclivities" she hissed and I chocked up a laugh and I knew Matt was holding up his laughter too.

Her face was just so hysterical. I could almost see waves in her wrinkles. She looked so shock.

"OUT! NOW!" she said and we darted out.

The second the door closed behind us we started to laugh.

"Did you see the look on her face!!??" Matt asked between laughter.

I leaned my hands against my knees and couldn't answer. My belly hurt and tears were streaming down my face.

When we regained control we just stared at each other and shook our head in unison.

"Well this was entertaining." Matt said with a huge grin.

"We should leave before she gets out..." I said and my eyes flicked over the blue door.

"Or maybe we should go back inside" Matt said with wicked eyes.

"Jackass!" I said I slapped him on the arm.

"You should get use to things like that if I'm going to move in with you..." Matt said and he had even more wicked eyes.

I just stared at him in disbelief. What if my mental pop ups weren't so off base after all...