Bah, short again, sorry. Action starts in the next ones.

Forgive me faithful fans I am slow with this story. And it's not because I don't know what I want to do... it's just because I don't take the time to sit down and work on this one! So SORRY!

Will try to work on it more.. I mean it would be cool to finish it at one point! lol

Anyway enjoy! :D

Oh oh! Existential question! Team Baron or team Matt? mouhahahaha ;P

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It took me a few minutes to answer to what Matt, well Dimathrias had just said. And when I did all I could say was "What?"

"It's the only way Jasmine. Basil is obviously planning something otherwise he wouldn't have risk getting caught to get you. He's planning something, and it has to have something to do with you. And anytime Basil has wanted to do something, he slaughtered people. We've been waiting for this, waiting for him to attack the Hinges for decades... and now with you I think he thinks he can get into contact with them, and then take over them. But in order to do that he'll need fuel. He'll need to kill people..." Baron explained to me as I tried to not hyperventilate.

"And we cannot let him kill more people" Garret added.

For some reason I looked at Matt with bitter eyes "What do YOU think?"

Matt...

Matt knew me, what I thought about violence, what I thought about killing...

Killing... there had to be another way...

"I only follow orders..." Dimathrias answered. Because it wasn't my Matt answering; it was the Spirit.

How was it possible for me to ever be still standing right now? Well technically I wasn't standing; I was sitting in the little boat leaning on Baron, holding his arm, my nails probably digging in his skin.

This was too much for a person to take all at once. When would this ever stop? When would things ever get normal again?

The worst thing is I knew that answer and the answer was never. Things would never stop now, and things would never ever get back to normal...

How I long for normal now...

I had thought I had wanted to be normal before, when I didn't know who and what I was but now...

Oh now I knew how it felt to want to be normal. What I would trade to be able to get back in time and change things.

Baron took my hand in his and tried to make me look in his eyes "Look, just try to rest for now; we won't reach the coast for another few hours and you need to rest. You've been through a lot."

A lot... that was a way to put things...

Sleeping, it was the last thing I wanted to do, I still had so many things to ask and understand, like what I had done back on the island, with the energy pulling from me and then all the destruction around me... what did that meant? Had I done that?

"We'll have the time to talk about everything once you've rested" Baron added probably seeing my calculating eyes.

And now it dawned on me that it wasn't only the fact that I wanted answers that was stopping me from sleeping. "What if... what if he comes in my dreams?" I shuddered.

He could...

"Don't worry he won't. He doesn't have chains on you anymore" Garret answered, looking towards Matt quickly; like there was an unspoken conversation going on between them with that look.

What were they keeping from me? Were they keeping things from me? And it sure as heck wasn't the time to sleep now. This was still the time to understand and get answers!

"I'm not sleeping until I understand more. What I did back there, what was that?"

Baron took a big breath but then answered "Your Immortal half. You control plants or any kind of vegetation. That's why I found you a home where there would be flowers everywhere... that way you would feel safe and at home. The vegetation is part of you"

That sounded oddly... sweet?

"I always had that... that power?" I asked.

To think... all those years with my flowers...

My flowers... I missed them...

"Yes" Baron simply said

"You always knew?"

Baron nodded "Yes"

I didn't want to be bitter but I could help ask the next question "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I thought I was protecting you by keeping those things away from you. But I guess I ended up doing the complete opposite. I'm sorry..." Baron told me, his eyes looking... sad?

This was all too much for me...

And I still needed to understand more.

"I just..." I ran my hand through my hair, sighing heavily "Everything, it's so confusing and I don't understand. Why would Basil claim rights on the Spirits? He doesn't have rights. How can he get control over the Hinges if he doesn't have rights to it?"

Garret answered that one "It's against rules to have someone who cannot become immaterial to be part of it but the rules can change. Before the men were material. Then it was only immaterial. With Aaron discoveries it became anyone that can be immaterial. And now with you, things will be different. Can you get immaterial? I think your Spirit self is connected with your Immortal one. If you try to break the chains you will die."

"So they will have to accept someone who cannot be immaterial but has maybe the possibility, or carries half of a Spirit." Dimathrias added.

Was it the same thing for him? Was Matt tied like I was? Could he be immaterial again?

When I looked up at him, I'm not sure if I imagined it, I probably didn't though, he shook his head.

I closed my eyes for one second pushing this aside.

"But how can that affect Basil? He's not half Spirit. He can't claim anything." I stated to the three men before me.

"Maybe he will bring in bloodline." Garret whispered thoughtfully.

"Or maybe he's half spirit too." Baron snorted.

Matt frowned "How could he be?"

"Why wouldn't he? Who knows, do you even know who his parents were?" Garret asked.

Matt kept the usual stone face he had worn ever since he had found me "I haven't done research on the matter, no"

"Then it's a possibility" Baron stated, looking ahead, his thoughts seeming miles away.

I tried to grasp that "That would make me what? Three quarter Spirit?"

Garret shook his head "No, more like... wait half plus one half... wait minus one half..."

"0,625. Five on eight." Matt answered for him, rolling his eyes.

Garret rolled his eyes too "It's fine we all know you're smarter than us Dima, no need to show off."

Did I see the corner of his lips twitch slightly upwards? I must have been imagining things...

"Anyway this is just a theory at this point and I highly doubted he would have waited for Jasmine if Basil really was half Spirit."

"Point taken" Garret nodded and walked back to the end of the boat. Dimathrias looked in my eyes for a second, one endless second, but there was no Matt in those eyes, no emotion, just cold staring. It made me shudder in fright. I looked away and he went back to sit in front.

"You should sleep, you need to rest" Baron whispered, the only one still beside me.

"But I..."

Baron stopped my speaking by putting his hand over my mouth "You have three powerful Spirits with you, protecting you right now. Trust me, you're safe. Nothing is going to happen to you. We'll make sure of it. Now rest."

Well he had a point...

So after nodding, I closed my eyes and was surprised by how much I did need the sleep.